Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Sometimes, ignorance can be a bliss
I used to wonder when I was younger how it felt like to lose one's mind; what it takes for someone to abandon all logic, rationality, self-consciousness and enter into a totally detached state of mind (if there is one to start with). I used to ponder and concluded that it is a deliberate, conscious attempt to escape reality.
Perhaps it is. But it is definitely not conscious.
I think about the dark age quite abit. Especially when the mind is idle and refuses to go to sleep (like now). I am thinking about it again. It disturbs me to no end that I never knew what had happened. Perhaps ignorance is my bliss.
I remember some of my hallucinations, only to wake up and realise that some things are just figments of my imagination. I remember the tremors, the panic attacks, the paranoia, the unconsolable breakdowns, the disappointmets; but I simply couldn't piece them together.
I guess we should never let out mind wander too much.
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Perhaps it is. But it is definitely not conscious.
I think about the dark age quite abit. Especially when the mind is idle and refuses to go to sleep (like now). I am thinking about it again. It disturbs me to no end that I never knew what had happened. Perhaps ignorance is my bliss.
I remember some of my hallucinations, only to wake up and realise that some things are just figments of my imagination. I remember the tremors, the panic attacks, the paranoia, the unconsolable breakdowns, the disappointmets; but I simply couldn't piece them together.
I guess we should never let out mind wander too much.
Monday, June 20, 2011
New Game
I am totally obssessed with the new game Donutto introduced!!
In other news, Sunday at the Charity Fun Day was fun but tiring. My thigh muscles are aching with all the flipping that went on.
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In other news, Sunday at the Charity Fun Day was fun but tiring. My thigh muscles are aching with all the flipping that went on.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
One more try..
I've decided to hang on in there a little and give it one final try. There is inevitable dilemma. Chances are I may never have the same opportunity to meet such nice people again. Chances are I will be kicking myself 2 months down the road. Oh well. Chances are..
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Tuesday, June 07, 2011
Tug-of-war
I have been assessing my current situation quite a bit and I am not sure if I like the way things are now. There is just something not quite right which I just can't seem to pin point. Perhaps there is simply no value on both sides which is why I have been feeling so empty. But I do hope to give it another go, just that the morale just dimishes faster that I could imagine.
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Friday, June 03, 2011
The hiatus
I haven't been able to blog for the longest time because everything seem, or rather, IS mundane and there isn't much to talk about.
Some people in the office are the coolest and a couple are simply a pain(in the A). I am still quite debating whether it's time I want out. There are things pulling me on both sides. I think the pain can be quite a big issue.
Exam was quite a bitch and my hopes to score for my favourite module was brutally dashed by my favourite lecturer. Everything else just feels downhill.
Results out on 13th June!
I shall not continue before this post turns out to a 50 page rant on the pain and school and all the injustice in the world.
On a happier note, Krabi is a great place to lay on the beach and jump at the waves.
On a related note (since it is a happy thing), Khalil Fong is coming! *Digs out my hat and black-framed specs*
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Some people in the office are the coolest and a couple are simply a pain(in the A). I am still quite debating whether it's time I want out. There are things pulling me on both sides. I think the pain can be quite a big issue.
Exam was quite a bitch and my hopes to score for my favourite module was brutally dashed by my favourite lecturer. Everything else just feels downhill.
Results out on 13th June!
I shall not continue before this post turns out to a 50 page rant on the pain and school and all the injustice in the world.
On a happier note, Krabi is a great place to lay on the beach and jump at the waves.
On a related note (since it is a happy thing), Khalil Fong is coming! *Digs out my hat and black-framed specs*
| My declaration of Love |
| I need to know how to feel without you.. I need to find myself, to give you the space you need, to move in a different direction from yours.. I want to know how life can go on without you.. I want to embrace joy, indulge in love, to enjoy every drop of sunshine that falls on me.. I will conquer my fear of living in a world without you.. I will live my life as though I had never met you... |