Friday, February 26, 2010
米修米修。。。
I hate the voices I have to hear, the people I have to face, the things I have to tolerate every fucking day. I am very jaded. The PMS is making me pretty angry and emotional while the last chemo is making me sick all the time. And it's the same shitty cycle.
If you know me well enough, you would know I do not like to talk about the seriously unpleasant stuffs of my life because I think we all have our fair share of problems. DO NOT tell me I am fucking whining or even complaining when I am simply making a comment because that fucking offends me greatly. VERY VERY greatly. F.U.C.K. I still fucking can't get over it. I hate your fucking hypocritical double standards.
So stop your stupid judgements with your fucking standards. I only need to live up to my own expectations.
请宇宙BOOBOO 来把我带走好吗?
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If you know me well enough, you would know I do not like to talk about the seriously unpleasant stuffs of my life because I think we all have our fair share of problems. DO NOT tell me I am fucking whining or even complaining when I am simply making a comment because that fucking offends me greatly. VERY VERY greatly. F.U.C.K. I still fucking can't get over it. I hate your fucking hypocritical double standards.
You probably never know how worried I am that I may never forgive you and how much restrain I have to impose to avoid saying F*CK YOU. Perhaps you've been desensitised since you gladly entertain it everyday fucking day. I should forgive you. Trust me, I am trying. Very hard.
So stop your stupid judgements with your fucking standards. I only need to live up to my own expectations.
请宇宙BOOBOO 来把我带走好吗?
I am not saying that there is a crisis nor do I think the whole world is against me. While I am simply venting the frustrations that seems to be reaching the bottleneck, I am still very grateful for the things and people I have in life. At least I have my avenues to vent, my muses to make me happy, my memories to remind me that things are not so bad. And so, I do not wish to discuss about this post any further, unless you are associated with Buangsters or Steamboat Clan. KThanksBye.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Ashes to ashes..
It's ash Wednesday once again and while in mass, I thought of a friend who might be interested in detoxing again.
Of course that is not the main point of Lent. It's about being a better person I guess and be reminded that we are fundamentally ashes. There are many thoughts in my head but it is simply not me to preach about my religion. I am just glad that I am where I am today and grateful for the enlightening sermon tonight.
It's so hypocritical to be getting all serious about Lent and then I spent the whole afternoon being a bitch. I am sorry for all the bitching and rants and anger. I promise to be a better person tomorrow.
"Dust thou art, and unto dust thou shalt return" (Genesis 3:19)
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Of course that is not the main point of Lent. It's about being a better person I guess and be reminded that we are fundamentally ashes. There are many thoughts in my head but it is simply not me to preach about my religion. I am just glad that I am where I am today and grateful for the enlightening sermon tonight.
It's so hypocritical to be getting all serious about Lent and then I spent the whole afternoon being a bitch. I am sorry for all the bitching and rants and anger. I promise to be a better person tomorrow.
"Dust thou art, and unto dust thou shalt return" (Genesis 3:19)
Just shut up!
How do you tell someone nicely not to interrupt your conversations and colonize them, in whatever context. It is VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY irritating and I don't care what are your intentions, it just irks me to no end!!!!! Me is very unhappy.
SHUT UP you blabbermouth!!! Go and get some basic etiquette education you.. you.. bumpkin!!!!
*phew*
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SHUT UP you blabbermouth!!! Go and get some basic etiquette education you.. you.. bumpkin!!!!
*phew*
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
How do you..
find the gentlest way to tell someone that you do not like to be judged and thinks that double standards kills your friendship?
tell someone you love her, knowing that you should have done so many, many years ago?
not hurt yourself by recollecting something that is harmful to the heart?
not assume that the liaison between 2 someones was not a betrayal?
It's a holiday with loads of emotions. The joy of having someone who loves me enough to remember little details of my life, the fear of losing someone who brought so much love into my childhood, the disappointment in someone whom I thought I could count on, the excitement of having a new someone in the family, the resentment towards someone I can't express.
It's end of the holis and it's lent once again. I hope I become a better someone who is more patient, more understanding, more giving, less judgemental, less antagonistic, less demanding.
I am seriously sick of being judged by you. You don't know me, you don't know what it's like to fall from the top of the world. Just leave me alone.
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tell someone you love her, knowing that you should have done so many, many years ago?
not hurt yourself by recollecting something that is harmful to the heart?
not assume that the liaison between 2 someones was not a betrayal?
It's a holiday with loads of emotions. The joy of having someone who loves me enough to remember little details of my life, the fear of losing someone who brought so much love into my childhood, the disappointment in someone whom I thought I could count on, the excitement of having a new someone in the family, the resentment towards someone I can't express.
It's end of the holis and it's lent once again. I hope I become a better someone who is more patient, more understanding, more giving, less judgemental, less antagonistic, less demanding.
I am seriously sick of being judged by you. You don't know me, you don't know what it's like to fall from the top of the world. Just leave me alone.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
虎年行大运!
祝大家心想事成，天天幸福， 健康快乐!
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Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Why I resisted Facebook..
Most friends would know that for the longest of time I had resisted Facebook. In fact, I resisted Facebook when it even landed in Singapore, when Jeryl was in US.
Knowing it's another Friendster, and probably worse (and I am absolutely right about it), I vowed never to sign up for Facebook. Until unbimbo signed up for me during the dark age and I succumbed to 'peer pressure'.
So the daily routine currently includes signing into facebook in the morning, Bejeweling (another game I resisted on Facebook because I have it in the old phone and I know how addicted I will be) for the rest of the day and logging off to go home. I've been telling my colleagues that I'm anticipating withdrawal syntoms when peak creeps in when I don't even have time to pee.
It's 10.30pm and way past my bedtime and I had just finished stalking some of my old school mates and laughing myself silly looking at old pictures of people I know.. And cringing at the sight of the old me.
Now you know why I took so long to join the crowd. It was a deliberate, and very wise decision. I should have stuck to it.
I vow to be the non-adopter and never the laggard again!
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Knowing it's another Friendster, and probably worse (and I am absolutely right about it), I vowed never to sign up for Facebook. Until unbimbo signed up for me during the dark age and I succumbed to 'peer pressure'.
So the daily routine currently includes signing into facebook in the morning, Bejeweling (another game I resisted on Facebook because I have it in the old phone and I know how addicted I will be) for the rest of the day and logging off to go home. I've been telling my colleagues that I'm anticipating withdrawal syntoms when peak creeps in when I don't even have time to pee.
It's 10.30pm and way past my bedtime and I had just finished stalking some of my old school mates and laughing myself silly looking at old pictures of people I know.. And cringing at the sight of the old me.
Now you know why I took so long to join the crowd. It was a deliberate, and very wise decision. I should have stuck to it.
I vow to be the non-adopter and never the laggard again!
Monday, February 08, 2010
Lu Luuuuu~~ I love youuuuuu
Patrick Starr. says:
i m so determined to do my forms tmr
luluuu says:
i'll blame the fengshui of my seat n my untidy desk n environemnt to make me scatter brain
hahahahahahahahahahaha
Patrick Starr. says:
hahahah
luluuu says:
u delete facebook frm ur pc u will do
u wan me to help udelete
Patrick Starr. says:
wahahhahahhaha
tmr we will delet each other's
luluu says:
dowan
i delete ur one can liao
During lunch... (having a discussion on dog meat as we just read an articale on dog meat trade in China, no we DO NOT eat dog meat, nor do we encourage it)
Luluu: I heard that dog meat can cure arthritis
*Shootingellie looks up with a glimmer of hope in her eyes..
Luluu: You are not thinking of bringing your dad to China to eat dog meat..
Ah Hock: Guffaws
Luluu: Maybe they will have canned dog meat and you have to smuggle it back
*Shootingellie falls off her chair
Ah Hock: Like that they can have the real hot dogs. Do you think they will have like different flavours and pure bred and mongrel type?
Luluu: Huh? Dog meat is dog meat ma...
Shootingellie (as she climbs on to her chair): You know sausages got atas one like german pork/cheese/beef sausages and those chicken franks you buy from the frozen department..
Ah Hock: Like Chihuahua they putu chihuahua picture
Shootingellie: I think Chihuahua will be like foi gras of dog meat. Cos Chihuahua so small, and no meat some more.
SPCA, this is just a random discussion we had during lunch, we have absolutely NO intention of having any dog meat. Really!
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i m so determined to do my forms tmr
luluuu says:
i'll blame the fengshui of my seat n my untidy desk n environemnt to make me scatter brain
hahahahahahahahahahaha
Patrick Starr. says:
hahahah
luluuu says:
u delete facebook frm ur pc u will do
u wan me to help udelete
Patrick Starr. says:
wahahhahahhaha
tmr we will delet each other's
luluu says:
dowan
i delete ur one can liao
During lunch... (having a discussion on dog meat as we just read an articale on dog meat trade in China, no we DO NOT eat dog meat, nor do we encourage it)
Luluu: I heard that dog meat can cure arthritis
*Shootingellie looks up with a glimmer of hope in her eyes..
Luluu: You are not thinking of bringing your dad to China to eat dog meat..
Ah Hock: Guffaws
Luluu: Maybe they will have canned dog meat and you have to smuggle it back
*Shootingellie falls off her chair
Ah Hock: Like that they can have the real hot dogs. Do you think they will have like different flavours and pure bred and mongrel type?
Luluu: Huh? Dog meat is dog meat ma...
Shootingellie (as she climbs on to her chair): You know sausages got atas one like german pork/cheese/beef sausages and those chicken franks you buy from the frozen department..
Ah Hock: Like Chihuahua they putu chihuahua picture
Shootingellie: I think Chihuahua will be like foi gras of dog meat. Cos Chihuahua so small, and no meat some more.
SPCA, this is just a random discussion we had during lunch, we have absolutely NO intention of having any dog meat. Really!
Thursday, February 04, 2010
算命师的话。。。
A couple of years ago when I was still in uni, we went to a fortune teller who set up a stall at the Bazaar. And something I vaguely remember:
算命师: 你跟小孩子没有缘
朋友：她很喜欢小孩子的
算命师：那她可能是不会有自己的孩子
I don't know what triggered this memory, perhaps is the wedding I attended last Saturday...
And Darian whom I baby-sat for a while at the wedding...
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算命师: 你跟小孩子没有缘
朋友：她很喜欢小孩子的
算命师：那她可能是不会有自己的孩子
I don't know what triggered this memory, perhaps is the wedding I attended last Saturday...
And Darian whom I baby-sat for a while at the wedding...
Congratulations to Kevin and Gwyn, it was a beautiful union.
Congratulations to Garry and Feng to, Darian is so, so adorable!
I guess the fortune teller meant that kids are cute, as long as they are not my own.
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
珠光宝气
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
Men..
Patrick Starr. says:
start work oredy?
Garry: eatslpworkeatslpworkeatslpwork says:
yea .. since yest
and i start work at 6.30am now
Patrick Starr. says:
how come so early? den u goback at 4.30 issit?
how is mrs tan?
Garry: eatslpworkeatslpworkeatslpwork says:
no la.. but do less OT lor
i wake up with her ma
her timing
Mrs Tan is as usual, whining about her job
haha
Patrick Starr. says:
hahhaah
mr tan pls work harder den mrs tan no need to work den she wun whine
Garry: eatslpworkeatslpworkeatslpwork says:
I rather she whine more then i work less
times are good.. so im making her quit her job and find a new one
Patrick Starr. says:
....
Garry: eatslpworkeatslpworkeatslpwork says:
then i dun need to wake up early too
Tsk tsk tsk.. How could you, Mr Tan?
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start work oredy?
Garry: eatslpworkeatslpworkeatslpwork says:
yea .. since yest
and i start work at 6.30am now
Patrick Starr. says:
how come so early? den u goback at 4.30 issit?
how is mrs tan?
Garry: eatslpworkeatslpworkeatslpwork says:
no la.. but do less OT lor
i wake up with her ma
her timing
Mrs Tan is as usual, whining about her job
haha
Patrick Starr. says:
hahhaah
mr tan pls work harder den mrs tan no need to work den she wun whine
Garry: eatslpworkeatslpworkeatslpwork says:
I rather she whine more then i work less
times are good.. so im making her quit her job and find a new one
Patrick Starr. says:
....
Garry: eatslpworkeatslpworkeatslpwork says:
then i dun need to wake up early too
Tsk tsk tsk.. How could you, Mr Tan?
Monday, February 01, 2010
Lunchtime war
A typical day having lunch at Mac...
Mikey Mike (MM): pls lor, want to wear don't keep pulling (referring to a girl wearing a tube top)
Uncle Ong (UO): I cannot understand why girls like to wear low cut top then keep pulling.
ShootingEllie(SE): Maybe they don't notice is that low?
UO: When they go out see the mirror they don't notice meh?
SE: I don't check the mirror when I go out
UO: That's cos' u are a boy!
Ah Hock the Slave: *guffaws*chokes*guffaws*
I don't always like my colleagues.
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Mikey Mike (MM): pls lor, want to wear don't keep pulling (referring to a girl wearing a tube top)
Uncle Ong (UO): I cannot understand why girls like to wear low cut top then keep pulling.
ShootingEllie(SE): Maybe they don't notice is that low?
UO: When they go out see the mirror they don't notice meh?
SE: I don't check the mirror when I go out
UO: That's cos' u are a boy!
Ah Hock the Slave: *guffaws*chokes*guffaws*
I don't always like my colleagues.
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