A life TOO ordinary..

Just a customary post. Thank God for everything.

It's amazing how fast we grow up.. now we are talking about jobs and housing and marriage and stuffs. Me no like to think about such things. I don't want to grow up. I don't want things to change. I just want to be carefree like I used to. Baaaaaa

Summer's here and so the shades and hat are my must-have items when heading out.

Here I am, waiting for my flight in the lounge. Should I have another round of curry noodles? It smells gooodd.. Looking forward to more good food!

be just an escape from my history?

If only I could choose what to erase from memory..

baaaaa

...knowing you have recovered but will never be the same again..
...knowing that it is ok to feel sad sometimes..
...knowing that I have lots of love and is grateful

Each day, I try to remain calm, remain hopeful, remain cheerful, remain strong...remain 'normal'.

Each time I'm in a crowd, I try to be brave, be clear-minded, be less self-conscious...

Love me.. talk to me..

Reminds me of an old show, Blossom. She mopes on her birthday (as far as I could remember).

Some people like to make a list of things they did/ accomplished the past year.

So here it goes:
- I got my heartbroken (It's not that bad just that I can't find a better word for it)
- I got sick and went into coma (in case you were wondering what people get when they are in coma, it is very scary. It's nightmare for 5 days. Which was prolly why I woke up. I guess the experience varies. For some the dreams are pleasant so they take longer time to wake up.)
- I lost part of my memory as well as short-term memory.
- I gained lots of love from my family and friends (and this supercedes all the other things that happened).
- I suppose there are more stuffs in year 2(X) but oh well.

It's going to get better and better! Woot!

It gets a little depressing when you seem like no one/ nothing can help you in getting out of this mental/psychology thing. I broke down again yesterday which totally shocked/ saddened the parents.

I don't know, when I am 'relevant'/calm, it seems like the whole thing becomes ridiculous. Like what is so wrong with losing memory/ trembling/ depressed/ in a trance/ learning new things. Well, that is only when I am in a 'magic moment' mode.

So I just have to continue telling I am fabulous and happy and loved and all those good things to come, until the next episode strikes again that is.

Anyway, today I realised one of my road trips(work) was cancelled and I left my stuff at Mike's till today. And no one knows where road trip it wass.

Every day I learn something more about myself, like deciding whether I need to pee and deciding whether is a fart or I really need to use the toilet. It can be funny or sad, depending which mode I am. Anyway, my decisions are always correct.

Meh meh meh meh meh

Anyway today is a 'magic-moment-trembling-depressive-trance' day. I went to Vivocity. Barcelos is not as nice as Nandos. Don't order soup.

There are many things that made my day fantastic though I am in a trance.

I am still assessing myself whether I am ready to make a trip to Melbs to stay with Silly for a while.

There are times trivia issues affect me, but I guess it gets better everyday.

It's weird to say this, but I actually enjoy coming to work.