A life TOO ordinary..

Yep, it's the start of a new week and I basically lazed my weekend away. Which is nice.

Anyway, I hurt my ankle*the same one* again last week because of that silly 'guniang' shoes. And to make up for it, I GOT MY GOLDEN PRIMA CROCS!!
I found them at causeway point at 2 dollars cheaper. hur hur. not bad laaa, 2 dollars can buy many things liao...

well, that's the update for now. I so want to sleep la....

I think God is not very happy with my shopping escapades lately that he decided not to let me buy anything anymore. Yesterday I went to Crocs to get my nice Prima, the gurls and I decided that the Gold color Prima is nicer than the black one, but guess wat, THEY DON'T HAVE MY SIZE!! K.A.N.I.N.A. So I had to wait till next week or something. I don't even know if I will be not lazy enough to go there and buy la.. actually is I dun even noe if I m not lazy enough to go anywhere to buy...^%^$&

Then today I went backto the Bazaar to buy the candy dispenser I bought yesterday cos' I figured I can load my pills in. Since I have like 3 types of pills, plus my painkillers tghat will be 4, I decided to buy one in every color. And YOU KNOPW WAAAAT, the stall disappeared!!! WAHKAUS. It's only yesterday I was there laaa..

So I've decided, God thinks I spent too much money lately. I am depressed.

who tells me that she/he is going Hong Kong within the next 2 months. STOP TELLING ME YOU ARE GOING TO HONG KONG ALREADY!!! My silly cousin asked me if I would like to go Hong Kong in December with her momma and her, while my auntie asked if I would like to go Hong Kong with Sarah and Daniel. Can you believe it, it's Sarah's 3rd trip and she is barely 7. NABEH. STOP GOING TO HONG KONG CAAAAN.

Anyway, I'm heading down to Vivocity tonight to meet my classmates for dinner. SO EXCITING. I heard there's sales at URS and I am going to Crocs. I think I might buy:

Actually I like the bronze/beige one, but I think they are a little hard to match.. so I think I shall buy the safest black color. If I buy them tonight.

The other day, I saw another pair of crocs, so I decided to check them out at the website and I could not find it in SG site. TAMADE. So I went on a worldwide hunt this morning and I found them in AUZZIELAND~~ Oh by the way, they look like this:

So nice hor... The real thing looks very nice lo... anyway I saw my distant cousin's wife wearing it la... I ALSO WANT!!!! Maybe I should get Silly to hunt them down for me before she returns... See how first. These, I can wait. Oh by the way, I found out that US got more colors. NOT FAIR!

On Monday, I went to JP with the intention of getting a wallet. I ended up with a wallet, a card holder, a skirt, a pair of pants and a top. Luckily I stopped meself from getting the shoes and PATRICK and SpongeBob. Think I will get Patrick and SpongeBob when I get my tuition pay. yayyeeee. I like~I'm still thinking about my toy trainset. Should I get the Thomas one or the normal ones.. The Thomas one has many accessories and stuffs, but I never liked Thomas and Friends cos I think a face on the train is pretty ugly. See how la...

Anyway, the 2nd 1/2 of 2006 has been a good one. I do hope my good luck and karma will last la...

It's long holidays like this everyone decides that we should meet up and spend some time together. I only had dinner at home on Thursday last week. I will be out tomorrow, Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday for dinner. My bank account is signaling code red already. *breathes*

I was at the kelong today. It belongs to my momma's cousin. Despite hearing tales of the kelong for like over 2 decades, I have never been to a real one until today. And yes, I do feel like I am floating a little as I am typing this. I think I need to get some sleep. ANyway, it was hot and sticky and Biling and I were forced into labour. whahaha. It was not an entirely bad experience for me la.. and there is the very adorable old dog, whom I called Fatfat the whole time. whahahah. *actually it's name is Yoyo. hur hur*

Before I go to sleep. Here's an excerpt of an msn conversation with one of my favourite pals. I almost fell off my chair when I read the message. *Perhaps you will have to know what kind of person she is then you will think the message is funny* Anyway thanks Choo for bringing such joy on a boring Friday afternoon.

Tabitah's sis says:
Do u know what!!! The sickening the other dept went back at 3.30pm today!! they think they are indian meh!! go home so early for what!!! & I cant go back!!! Arhz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think I will have work to do next week, so no more youtubes of Powerpuff Girls, Sponge Bob and South Park for me then. I'm actually looking forward~~



The very adorable dog, Fatfat. He is over 70 already ok.. and he can swim!! Video of him next time la... I've decided, I shall buy a dog in future, name his Fatfat Porkchop and feed him till he resembles his name. *so excited like I am really getting one tomorrow* hur hur

after work...

I'm been going home like after 11 each day due to after-work activities like meeting up with old friends and tuition. SO today, with nothing planned in the evening, I really look forward to going home and just, do what I do best, nothing.

I think I need to buy more shoes cos' the ones I bought aren't really made for walking here. I've yet to do up my 'room' here, but I can foresee my 'mini' mini coppers parked here in the near future. and since the 'walls' of my 'room' are predominantly green, it makes things much easier for me laaaa.

My silly cousin messaged me early from Melbourne.

SL, my cousin:
Going to work cousin? dont forget to smile! Think of me and you'll be happy. heheh..

Me:
yada yada yada *can't remember what I replied laaa*

SL:
Hehe. I'm all excited 4 u. I'm sure they wont torture you on your 1st day. Try to be nice to everyone and make friends ok?

Anyway I told her I'm not anti-social like her. whahahaha. haiya, we enjoy dissing the hell out of each other la...

Anyway, my day was okae, like most people mentioned, you sit down and you read about the company and stuffs. And I was lucky to get what my colleague described as 'clam', while he, also a noob like me, got a 'shell', meaning I got a bigger, more sheltered cubicle wwith much more privacy than his la.. so I was sincerely thankful cos' I could sit right at the back on the room and no one knew if I was reading or surfing the net. hur hur.

After work, GX called and ask where I was. He class just ended, so we went over to Mac for our dinner. It's nice to be back in school, without having to go through exams. yayeee.

Well ya, I think I like my workplace. People are mostly young and my neighbour is nice. I like my bosses, who feels like good fathers. hur hur. So yep, I think it's a good start la. Tomorrow, I shall bring my cup, some food and coffee and photos. And maybe a jacket and my brolly. Yayee, I am going to decorate my lil' place soon. hur hur.


PS: Heard that one of our favouritest lecturer is having an op tomorrow. I wish him well...

to laughing too hard. And I can see another 3 heads nodding their heads off.

Coins, my Crampy curse and I were supposed to meet up at Far East for MORE shoes after her work last night. I decided to drop by OG in the afternoon, for probably my last time in a long while on a weekday, to look around for more clothes. Ngoh hiang soh decided to join me since we did not make it to JB in the end cos BFSW had to sell ngoh hiang again yesterday. So off to Orchard we went. On my way to meet Ngoh hiang soh, Silly grad aka THE Bimbo decided to call me to gloat over my loss of freedom. And she decided to join us so that she can gloat in my face. And so off to Orchard she came.

After all the walking around and eating and bitching, we decided to head to the heartlands for another round of KTV. And it was not ktv AT.ALL. we spent 4 silly hours laughing at practically everything and mainly how corneee the singers were.Ngoh hiang soh got a headache, Coins, my Crampy curse and I got a sore throat and Silly grad aka THE Bimbo probably had a combination of both and some respiratory problems. So my final weekday was spent with 3 lunatics, and risked looking like one.

Anyway, thanks for the 猪肉荣 jokes and the up-and-coming "who-says-Singaporeans are..."episodes. We should not be doing this too often, and I doubt we will really have the time to anyway, but yeah, just want you to know I had hell of a good time.

Prolly in anticipation of tomorrow evening's shopping trip with my CRAMPY curse *I still got another one, my Bleeding curse who is coming back from down under pretty soon and I can traumatise him again with my bleeding tales. WHAAHHAHHA*, I got my cramp today. What's worse, MO's momma got sick and he had to go sell Ngoh Hiang and today's trip was cancelled.

Not wanting to stay at home to moan and groan and hope I will just die or my womb would just be flushed out with my endometrium, or detach itself when I take a dump, I went across the causeway myself instead. ANd boy was it a bad decision. The pain was so excruciating that I had no mood for anything. My painkillers are no longer working for me. And that is the strongest already. DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE. Anyway, it was about 2 hours of aimlessly walking around City Square that I decided I should not torment myself on my 2nd last freedom day and head home to lie down. Another mistake.

I was walking across the bridge in daze and trying nto to encourage myself to jump off the bridge to end the pain, I made a slip and fell on my butt when I was walking down the blehdy steps. KAos, I let out a very loud 'ARGH!' not so much for the fall, but for my womb. And there is this stupid uncle on the bridge who thought I was funny. I WAS NOT FUNNY YOU FOOL, U NEVER GET CRAMPS U WILL NEVER NOE, I hope in next life you become a woman and get cramps EVERYDAY. Anyway, miraculously, after my fall, my cramp just went away, as if making up for the fact that it caused my fall. By the time I got onto 170, I was like totally drained.

Anyway, my bum hurts, my ankle is swollen, and what a way to end my freedom. NABEH.

I was up early this morning to see my doctor at TTSH. My appointment was at 9.30, but I only managed to see the doctor at 10.30, for 5 minutes. Turns out it's yet another new face. I've been seeign 3 different doctors for the past 3 check ups. I don't really like it. I am thinking if I should ask for a transfer to another hospital where they hire people on a longer-term basis. Anyway, I am not sure if it's the amt of sun I was exposed on the Mustafa-day or the haze over the past few days or something, the spots on my palms are back, so the blood vessels in there are.. swollen or something like that. ANd the NEW doctor thought it is not a good sign. So I was to go back in 1 month time. And I got to increase my dosage, which means I will grow FATTER. TAMADE. I think I should do the *OUT! DAMN SPOTS! OUT!* ala Lady MacBeth.

ANyway I did something un-christian today. I purposely put my cross in my T shirt. Anyway I did not think the session was good la, considering the speed of it and the amount of money I put in the angbao. I am so addicted to this.

After a week of shopping spree, I finally muster enough courage to check my bank balance. I spent a whoppin *gasp*$600 on clothes, shoes and food. All.in.one.week. And I have 2 more shopping trips tomorrow and Friday. Riight...

Anyway, someone told me I got 桃花运 this year, in fact I got 2! Please ley, it's October already... Maybe they will appear on the 31st December 2006 la... As if that is not funny enough *ok fine, to have 桃花运 is not that bad laaaa*, she told me one of my 桃花 is amongst my ex-school/classmates, you know, having a crush on me. I must apologise if she heard my toes laughing. She says it's one of those I kept in touch with. As far as I can remember, we were guessing the sexual orientation of LWW aka Coco Lee's um... 脚毛, and that's about the only single guy left in our group since the other single one is supposedly reserved by Coins *WAHHAHAHHAHA*. hur hur. Maybe it's Qihong my Primary schoolmate since I bumped into him the other day at the Plaza *if he is still single, I forgot to ask*. Maybe that short 10-min conversation by the traffic light*mainly him telling me about his IMF participation* did left him a darn good impression to crush on me *now my eye lashes are laughing*. Maybe I should start calling all my ex boy class/school mates so they will remember me and then one of them will have a crush on me. hur hur.

Anyway, does anyone wants to go Lisa Ono concert or not? As broke as I am now, I really wish to go leh... But to go alone is like.. I dunch like la... Hais. And by the way, anyone wants to go see Eason Chan also???? Though I don't understand his cantonese songs but I think he is quite cool la, I mean his voice. So anyone? Oh and anyway, Robbie is not coming afterall. I think he cancelled his trip in Asia some weeks ago. He probably figured he could make more money elsewhere. HENG I GOT NO MONEY TO BUY THE TIX. Or else can you imagine the disappointment...

I bought another 2 tops today. Pepperplus was having a sale, I managed to grab a top at $11. Wayeee kewl. I like.

I'll be in JB with *deep breath* Bestest Fondest Sweetest Wonderfulest aka MOMO and his ngoh hiang soh tomorrow. Yayee. I hope I don't eat myself silly and squander every precious cent I am left with after that one-week spree. And I am bleeding soon. Soon as in tomorrow or Friday, I hope I do not kill anyone cos the cramp can't really get out of hand. Anyway I am looking forward to tomorrow and Friday with Coins for more shoes. whahahhaa. I must be mad.

Oh and yesterday I met up with 2 old friends, people from the past. It's just weird how your own past can feel so disconnected. I was quite quiet most of the time because I did not have much to share. I think I've become more cautious of the things I say over the years and tend to prefer to listen than contribute *unless it's the people who grew up with me and shares the lamest, stupidest, silliest jokes, you know who you are and you are equally lame, stupid and silly*, so they kept asking me if something was bothering me. No, I just prefer to stare into space and think about things. And I don't exactly like their topics.

And then I don't understand why some people think that an Honours degree is going to make a big difference in the salary. Or a degree for that matter. I have no qualms telling people how much my employer is paying me simply because I don't think I will have any money left to lend anyone, and I am quite happy with what I was offered.

So anyway, the 2 freinds were like saying, "huh? why so little? You got honours leh." and things like "I heard from my *friend's dog's girlfriend's neighbour's owner's cousin's slave's sister's wife's uncle's illegitmate child's cleaner's relative that he/she got $X*enter an amount, 50bucks more than what I get* and he/she is from a private uni leh.. He/She also got no experience and then the other quipped "yah I heard from my ex girldfriend's ex girlfriend's husband's son's grandmother's uncle's mistress' chauffer's idol's cat's hamster's goldfish's owner's kid that he/she is earning about $X+ about $500-$1000*ok, I switched off a bit already*.

Time.to.wake.up. I think the persons they were talking about must be really fabulous, or MAYBE they slept with the interviewer or HR or the Boss, or maybe they simply got good karma laaaa. But as far as I am concerned, I am satisfied and I see no need to compare with other people. I DO know people who earn quite a respectable amount as a fresh grad la, but if you look at the 'market rate' now, my pay is quite.. realistic. And I think they should wake up their ideas and start considering jobs within my range, WHEN THEY GET THEIR DEGREES. Meanwhile, do not over-romanticise the degree as something that will get u a huge fat salary. That is like quite unlikely to happen to them, based on my knowledge. Ok, maybe I am pessimistic, or that I don't think big. Whatever it is, good luck to them la. Maybe WHEN THEY GET THEIR DEGREES, the market will be so good they will be offered a digustingly obese salary. For now, we should come back and live in the real world. A few years in customer service or trying to get into the Uni does not equate wisdom.

And I do not like people to impose their narrow-minded, stereotypical views on me. I got out of the system fine and I did not end up a (insert a stereotype occupation for my faculty)*no offence to (the stereotype occupation), I think it is a noble job, and not a crap job, but I think it is so tough that I don't think I can survive it, really*. So yep, in this world there are many alternatives, when you decide to narrow the world and classify things strictly according to your own standards, your world shrinks and you become intolerant to differences. I dunch like and that is not what I learnt in Uni.

And I do not understand why people like to brag. I heard from my friends about another ex-classmate who used to like to brag, he still does it now. Things like he crashed his WRX and got his license revoked, when he does not have a license. Or things like he is working in a multi-million shipping co. for his girlfriend's dad, which by the way, employs less than 5 people. Or his girlfriend's dad bought him a car but he does not want to driv it. Or haiya, you can think of the most ridiculous stuffs and he probably had said it one time or another la... His friends, are not stupid caaan. I think he thinks his friends are stupid, that's why I refuse to be his friend. Cos' I NOT STUPID caaan.

Anyway I intended to write a short post today and ended up ranting about all these what-nots. As much as I disagree with some friends' opinions, I feel obliged to stay in touch. Simply because I know their friendship is genuine and they truly thought of me. And perhaps one day I will see things from their point of view and can communicate with them better. Perhaps.

"Elizabeth often stands out in the crowd because of her cheerful, vivacious and friendly disposition. She is also a caring person and sensitive to the needs of others."
--Mr Azman, 2001 on my testimonial.

I think he was referring to someone else.

I'm going to the library after TTSH tomorrow to return my books. I read Kazuo Ishiguro's A Pale view of Hills, Matt Thorne's Eight minutes of idle and Doris Lessing's The Sweetest Dream. I decided not to read Kafka cos I simply lose interest laa... Anyway Ishiguro was quite an easy read, but not my type of book. I think the feeling is too "misty" *weel, I don't exactly know how to describe how I feel laaaa". Eight minutes idle is quite fun to read, I think Coins will like it since it's about this guy working at the call centre in UK. hur hur. And then there is the Doris Lessing's book. I borrowed it because I remember reading one of her short stories in the-very-popular "Into the Wind", whish is a collection of short stories la.. I can only say.. Short stories and a novel is quite different la. Anyway the book wrote about a woman's entire life time. So you can imagine how blerdy long it is la... ANyway because I wanted to find out what happened in the end, so I had to 'motivate' myself to finish the book, which I did. Anyway I think I did not really enjoy the book la...tomrorow I shall go borrow new ones. hur hur

By the way, here is another hilarious episode of Southpark. I like~

Sometimes I wonder is it too much of me to demand expect... support, or at least, some form of positivity? I hate to do this again, but I can't help but evaluate the kind of relationship I have with people. I hate to question the value of friendship. Perhaps it's been wishful thinking on my part all along. Should have known the term 'friend' had always been subjective. Yes, it was my moment of folly. I apologise for that.

P/S: Tho I mentioned that I loved the haze-y smell, I meant, moderate type, not the hardcore type like yesterday. I was really miserable trying to breathe.

P/P/S: I kidnapped persuaded Coins to go shopping with me on her off day. And we spent the entire afternoon at, JURONG POINT. And she could not watch her movie/drama that afternoon. whahahahaha. ANyway, thanks to her *I meant it in a good way*, I got some shoes and clothes worthy for the office. And for once, no one nagged about the bags full of stuffs when I got home. WAHAHHAHAHHA

I thought I should just let my concerned friends know that I've finally gotten an offer and I will be selling my soul tomorrow, ie by signing the letter of appointment. So anyway, Choo asked if I bargained, hur hur. Looking at my classmates' pay, I think it's the 'market rate' la... I m very grateful oredy la. That someone wants to buy my soul. hur hur. SO yep, once again, thank you concerned friends.

Weeee~ Went for KTV with my gurls, it's been sometime. I like~.
Anyway, it's October oredy, GAWD.

Anyway they sang a nice song today, I like~.

街道静的刺耳
夜被路
灯染色 趁感
伤醒来前 先上车
不会不舍
承认我是弱者
不敢再对爱假设
我真的累得
不想再拉扯
我寻找的平静
是我将来看电影
带着一颗平常心
不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛
我需要的平静
是敢回头看曾经
那些为爱患得患失的情景
我选择忘记
我不懂得取舍
才让心痛堆着
找得到前些年 的乐
只是偶尔
回忆是个诱饵
是来叫我回去的
要伤能愈合
我非走不可