A life TOO ordinary..

Yup, as luck would have it.. there's a part 2 to the story..

So here's how it went.
Went back to hostel on Friday to do my speech presentation stuff and guess what.. THE BLARDY COMPUTER CANNOT BE CONNECTED TO VPN!!!! So I had a choice of going home or hang on.. I decided to call Computer centre. The first IDIOT asked me to monitor the situation for 2 hours, maybe the net work is busy..And I thought that's fine since I need to work at night, might as well catch some sleep first. I woke up at 4, no, still not working. Called up again.. ANOTHER IDiOT told me he would call me back THAT DAY.. so I stayed in the room instead of coming home.. no prize for guessing.. that FARKER did not call back.. and it's too late to go home anyway..
Anyway I am not angry that nothing was done immediately, just peeved at how they think I've got tonnes of time, maybe like them, to waste. If you can't deliver your promise, DON'T even try to make one in the first place.. GEDDIT?

Note to myself: Always ask for the name of the person I speak to so that I can lodge a complain whenever necessary.. DAMNIT

Anyway, the consolation is when I called on Saturday again, a nice knowledgeable, resourceful Malay *the previous 2 farkers were CHINESE, blardee hell..* guy..I must give credit to Azri Bin Subari for being so helpful and reassuring..Anyway though the problem is not fixed yet, at least something was done about it..
So anyway, he thinks that my lappie's been housing a couple'ol viruses which is why the security department is blocking lappie for accessing the network and stuffs.. but of cos' he can't be too sure.. so what he did was to email the security people about my case and stuffs and will keep me updated via email or mobile.. anyway I asked my wonderful brother to do a thorough scan on lappie and update my windows since I can't find anything when I did a scan.. he's still doing it.. hmm.. must be very thorough..

Yesterday was my last day at SOS I think.. at least for the moment.. and I got told off by Daniel Ting.. Not like it's a big deal but hey, it's my last day of work can? Anyway, it's not that I really wanted the job but quitting and getting fired are afterall 2 different things.. VERY different in fact..

Simin is actually quite a bitch like me.. hur hur hurrr... so fun...

Had a 3 hour tuition with my student just now.. Hope she can do well tomorrow and Tuesday.. I will be seeing her on Wednesday.. Should be seeing her tomorrow but I got to rush my speech..

Alan Smith is cute.

I am speaking incoherently. Hope my grammar's fine. I need to sleep.

Did I mention I am bleeding.. DAMN

It finally happened...

Liting did not send me her slides till like 12midnight, which my friends would know is wayeeeeee past my bedtime.. Anyway I woke up at 6.30 only to realise the 2nd part of her presentation did not get through. *1st screw up*

We were suppose to meet at 730 to rehearse a little for the presentation.. I dilly-dallied and ended up there at 745.. and only Michael was there.. *2nd screw up*

Sandra was down with some viral attack and I had to inform the lecturer who obviously was showing some kind of displeasure.. hey it's not even my fault that she's absent. *Screw up no.3*

Michael drew the lot and we were supposed to go first. Angelina was not there yet. *4th*

Angelina made it.. but not my thumbdrive. The blardeee computer at LT18 couldn't read from my thumbdrive and there is not way to connect my lappie to the computer there.. Sandra's Mac couldn't read my thumbdrive either.. *screw up number... oh well, I lost count*

Angelina over shot her time and I was asked to present fast. my last three slides were cut off while deleting Sandra's slides. So I did not have any proper conclusion.. *but at least I made it in 5 mins?*

Due to the time constraint, our group did not present the findings, which I felt is more important than the individual stuffs..

We did rather badly for the presentation..

Went back to room to dispose lappie and headed for last 2201 tutorial. Guess what, for the 1st time in my 5 semesters in NUS, the BLERDEEEE bus B is actually CROWded.. and I couldn't get on the bus.. and it was like 12noon.. my class just started...

Apparently I was late for class and did not know what the discussion was about.. There goes my participation points.

Did I mention how many times I tried to log onto blogger to blog this?

On the brighter side, I got to know the cool, smart, friendly, nice babe's *sounds incredible huh* name, her name is Noelle.. so cool right? even her name is cool.. and apparently she is 2 years younger.. but still I am so full of admiration for her.. hur hur hurrrr..

My new cousin is Daniel Tan Jian Hong. Dan Dan.. hur hurrr... so kewt..
Which reminds me.. when I was younger I was so worried that my uncle is never going to have a kid.. cos' if that is the case, given the tender loving care and moolahs showered on me over the years, I will have to fulfil my obligations and take care of them when they grow old. Then again, I've got my own parents to take care of as well as a colony *ok, that's exaggerating* of unmarried aunties from daddy's side.. so anyway..*phew* now that they've got 2 kids, my worries are unfounded.. now I can chuck them aside.. hur hurrr... quote their daughter Sarah "Just kidding, don't be silly!" hur hur hurrrrr

Home sweet home... going to sleep now... smelly bolsters, I'm cooooooomiiiiiiiinggggggg~~~~

Just had my dinner.. rather fulfilling one.. 'cept for the fact that my Chinese Yam Pancake is a little charred..other than that is nice.. Butter rolls should be toasted... VERY NICE... with tuna.. Should not have opened the can of tuna in my room.. think the oil is everywhere.. or I am just being paranoid.. hur hur hurrr

Congrats to Sarah for being promoted to elder sister.. hur hurrrr... the lil' vainpot is no longer a baby.. hur hurrr.. can't wait to meet my new cousin. He must be damn cute..

One presentation tomorrow and my groupmate has yet to send me her slides.. oh my God..

Better work on my own speech for now... hur hur hurrrrr...

Going home tomorrow.. yayeee~

OHOH, before I forget:
Body shop will be holding its warehouse sale on 28 -30 October 2004from 9am to 7pm at Winsland House II unit 02-01.L'oreal will also be holding its warehouse sale on 28 & 29 October2004 from 9am to 8pm at Winsland House I unit B1-02.Happy Shopping and Spending.

So instead of falling sick on Monday, I am sick on Sunday.. and I had to give tuition with a runny nose.. VERY bad..

Yesterday was kena slam big time day. I was left alone in my 'palace'.. All those running around and stuffs, I really think I can do very well at the next vertical marathon. Will be working next week for the final time before I leave for exams.. For the 3rd consecutive year, I'll be spending Halloween there.. URGH

Am now in my hostel.My brother drove me back and mom wanted to Kaypo abit. So she tagged along.. showed her the building, the pantry, the toilets, blah blah blah.. oh well, she got a right to know where her money went.. hur hur hurrr

Going to sleep now.. Forgot my happy pills, pillow that I was supposed to bring from home.. OH WELL...

is on Wednesday... Every week at this time, me and choo and yen and feng will be cooped in my den rushing some ES2007 assignments.. and bitching about 'Kitty and Daniel'. Guess we should be more subtle with our glares, I mean, stares at Kitty.. Even Dr Sadorra notices that.. hmm.. not so good at concealing our body language huh..

Junling must have missed me so much that she called me yesterday during lunch.. *dun deny..hur hurrr, I missed you too* How I wish we can go JB again and again and again and again and again... and hang out on campus and mug at libraries and you listening to me yakking about cyclist and all sorts of nonsense.. *tears welling up*

Went for my consultation for 2007 this morning.. Got quite a NOT BAD score for my 1st presentation.. Yayee? hur hurrr.. I shall work harder for the next..

Very full... it always happens when I am home.. hur hur hurrrr....

The blog owner of Huckerby lost his bag in NTU library when he left it there to go for lunch.. poor thing... I hope that will never happen to me *though something similar did happen to me before, but a smaller scale* and yeah, may the thief have recurring nightmares for the rest of his life infested with... uh uh.... uh... cats??

*bleurgh* time to concuss..

withme buried in a pile of assisgnments and projects and not noticing it, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTEST FONDEST SWEETEST WONDERFULEST friend.. I'm sure it's one of the best birthdays you ever had and I hope the rest to come will be the same for you, if not better... *minus all the assignments and projects and lab reports and queer project partners*

So much for my bestest.. been a pretty screwed up day and I feel as tired as ever.. hur hurrr.. Just did my laundry and cleaned up my room... I shall proceed to my bed next for a nice, deserved *my ass* sleep.. wahahaha...

Side note: was checking my web stats and found this:
12/10/2004 16:19:41
ong zhun yong physics (Google)
and this:
13/10/2004 15:03:00
%22ong Zhun Yong%22 (Google)

Ummm...You mean there's actually someone else other than me who stalks him? hur hurrr..
VERY INTERESTING

as I was really really really sleepy... hur hur hurrrr

Yah anyway it's been a busy week.. with 3 assignments to hand up and the fourth one waiting for me to attend to.. Wednesday was a pretty long day.. Met up with Feng, Yen and Choo to work on our proposal for 2007 after my 8am to 2pm day *no breaks*. so we had lunch in our room and proceeded to bitch like all gurlies do before settling down for serious stuffs... and evening came Feng and Yen got to leave.. leaving me and Choo working on the paper.. and I managed to psycho her to stay overnight.. and we went Munchie Monkey.. YAYEEEeee and the food was good.. not all, but generally.. hur hur hurr.. the night did not end after dinner.. Yen came to get some stuffs from me.. and from there we walked her back to extension blk and studied/read our 2007 materials before heading back to my room.. it was wayeeee past my bedtime.. at 2.30 we slept. and woke up at 7.15..deprived.

Thursday was another round of Munchie Monkey.. hur hur hurrrr.. and back to my room to read up on my 2202 paper..Yen and Feng came..I am such a good host.. wahahahhahaha

Anyway I went home last night.. did not get enough sleep though.. which was why I skipped my tutorial.. hope I did not miss out on anything.. hur hur hurrrr

WWS called me to ask me about cosmetics..I'm sure my knowledge on that is just as much as his.. if not, lesser.. anyway we both had a good laugh.. wahahhaha.. But at least I remembered about the brand MAC.. yayeee

Alright, the books are calling me.. YUCK

Ring the bells that still can ring.
Forget your perfect offering.
There is a crack in everything.
That's how the light gets in.
--Leonard Cohen, "Anthem"

I mean the instant one..
finally tried my instant duck porridge. So you are suppose to open pour water into the cup and stir.. which I forgot until 30 secs later.. and it claims to cook within one minute, which is a scam... I waited for at least 3.. not that I minded tho..
Anyway, at first sight, the porridge did not look appetising at all.. initially it tasted ok..and by the first quarter, the enjoyment is no longer there.. so to cover the taste, as well as to alleviatemy hunger pangs, I preservered. and by the time I reached about 1/2 a cup,I gave up.. I don't enjoy baby food.
Final verdict: Don't get it unless you are dying of starvation and that is the last thin g on the shelf.. or you had your wisdom teeth removed *like WWS* and had to eat sticky guey food.. if not, save your dollar and get yourself a nice luncheon meat bread or something...

*continues to feed herself on the most expensive wafer she ever gotten.. it's $0.55 for 1/2 a small kitkat bar..*

“I have a dual personality. One half embodies my exuberant cheerfulness. She makes fun of everything, shrugs her shoulder indifferently and does not take offence at a flirtation or a dirty joke. This lighter superficial side is too quick and pushes away the other me which is purer, deeper and better. No one knows this other me which is why they find me insufferable. I am used to not being taken seriously but it’s only the lighter Anne that can bear it. The deeper Anne is too frail, she shrivels up easily and the lighter Anne takes over. I am guided by the deeper Anne within but without I am but a frolicsome little goat that has broken loose.”
==The diary of Anne Frank===

Last song I heard:
You touched my life
With the softness in the night
My wish was your command
Until you ran out of love
I tell myself I’m free
Got the chance of livin’ just for me
No need to hurry home
Now that you’re gone

CHORUS:
Knife
Cuts like a knife
How will I ever heal
I’m so deeply wounded
Knife
Cuts like a knife
You cut away the heart of my life
When I pretend
Wear a smile to fool my dearest friends
I wonder if they know
It’s just a show
I’m on a stage
Day and night I go through my charades
But how can I disguise
What’s in my eyes

CHORUS
Oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh…
I’ve tried and tried
Blocking out the pain I feel inside
The pain of wanting you
Wanting you
Knife
Cuts like a knife
How will I ever heal
I’m so deeply wounded

You cut away the heart
Of my life
==Knife, Rockwell==
A song I sang along not knowing it's meaning when I was younger.. not sure if it's under my uncle's or brother's influence.. hur hur hurrr.. still it brings back some nice memories and know it has a different meaning altogether..

I think this is becoming a pattern, get sick on Mondays..Monday blues? maybe.. hur hurrr..
as a result, I skipped both lecture and tutorial for 2204 but went for 2201 lecture since there's a 20% test today..Which was not difficult..if you studied. I shall not want to elaborate more.

Anyway, just over the weekend and today, I've got at least 8 people telling me "you look tired, you need a rest" and those excludesmy family who always think I should not work and rest more..maybe I am tired.. and I should rest.

Bumped into Jingrong and Jianping at the canteen while I waS having lunch with Mo and GX.. Jingrong was asking what kind of blusher was dat.. and I rubbed real hard to prove that I was 'blushing', and not wearing any make-up.. the number of days I can survive without medications without turning red and collapsing: 2.

Messaged my piano teacher to tell her that I won't be going for lesson cos' I am not feeling well.. the main reason is that I left my books in the hostel and did not practise the whole week, so I thought it's rather pointless to go anyway.. OH MONEY~

Took my new prescribed drugs.. seemed the same.. and I guess it'll take time..generally I am more stable than I was on Friday..

while waiting for my laundry to be done, I did a little cleaning up.. wiping the blinds, table.. pretty nice... my room smells so... dettol-ey.. and I like~~~ think I shall proceed on to mopping the floor tomorrow.. hur hur hurrrr... Laundry's almost done... 5 more minutes.. this time, it's my turn to dry my clothes for 40mins... hur hur hurrrrr...

bumped into the office person just now who asked me personally for my ic photo.. I think she is really patient cos' she's been asking for it via email and stuffs for about a month already and when she actually saw me at my door, she was still very nice.. and even asked if I've got bedsheets(I washed them as well, in Dettol) anyway I told her I was doing some kind of cleaning.. hur hur hurrr...

Highlight of today ( and every other Mondays, as well as GX's joke of the week):
cyclist appearing in Arts canteen for lunch in his um..'boyish' attire..

Just remembered one reason I am sick today might be partly due to sleeping right under the aircon, on the floor last night.. I just felt the 'urge' to do it..wahahahahah

Going to proceed with my 2207 project.. think I need to sleep first... bleurgh

p/s: tagboard's always down.. at least whenever I attempt to tag something.. so anyway, you can add your comments whenever tagboard is down.. or some people (like gwyn) prefers to comment than tag..

I realise there are 3 topics that I am very vulnerable to.. and I shall make a mental note that I should never discuss them with anyone..

I wish I could be stronger..

Anyway, my eyes are still trying to get used to my 15 inch screen at home.. it's like abit weird.. 1/2 the time you are so used to the 10 inche screen and loads of buffering and lags when you watch your favourite drama and next you are home, watching your 29 inch TV at normal rate and surfing the net with enlarged fonts and stuffs.. as if everything grew bigger and better.. hur hur hurrrr...anyway, it's a nice change yeah...

Going to the memory clinic tomorrow (finally..) mummy gave my $150, they are quite worried about my financial status.. which is rather bad at the moment since I have not gotten my pay as well as my tuition fees YET... anyway I spinelessly took the money and speaking of which, I remember putting in somewhere....

Oh well, so much for my attempt to be independent.. I shall work harder next month.. or rather, spend lesser this month so that this won't happen again next month.. I HOPE

With the money, I am going to see the memory doctor tomorrow, buy Dettol from Sheng Shiong for my laundry, top up some snacks for my room.. uh uh... that's for now... hur hur hurrr....

The aircon has just cooled my room... going to sleep now.. with nice mattress, pillows, comforter and my smelly bolsterssssss..

Just got out of shower, for the 5th time today.. It's really warm and I am so thankful my room is so near the bathroom.. and I can bathe as many times as I like.. so I hope this will be the last, cos'I am planning to sleep within... 10 mins?

I think I got a problem with perspiring*duh, who doesn't?* anyway, I think it's obsessive behaviour of mine, I feel the urge to shower each time I perspire, even if it's a drop..so I shower before I leave home, I shower when I return, if I have to go out three times a day, I would've showered 6 times by the end of the day, at least. To drive me crazy, just deprive me of shower, like they did at Rovers camp..
And all these showers are so time-consuming and wasteful.. I better put a stop to it.. U see people bringing toothbrush to work, but you don't see people bringing shower foam and shampoo right.. hur hur hurrr..

So tired today... mentally drained after studying and reading for 2007,2207 and 2201.. I need to ZZzZZZzZzZzzz

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yea
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define whats within and i've been
There before but that life s a bore
So full of the superficial

And some people want it all
But i don t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If i ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If i ain't got you yea

Some people search for a fountain
Promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And thats the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
No one to share
No one who truely cares for me

And some people want it all
But i dont want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If i ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If i ain't got you you you

And some people want it all
But i dont want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If i ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If i aint got you yea

If i aint got you wit me baby oh ooh said
nothin in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If i ain't got you wit me baby

===If I ain't got you, Alicia Keys===

Before I end,my neighbour Yiping is singing this song at the top of her voice.. not that she is a bad singer, but initially I thought I was 'hearing things'.. hur hur hurrr...

If I ain't got you... I used to wonder, and now I know.. Life goes on, so I think money and diamond rings are more important.. hur hur hurrr..

Was having a bad headache yesterday.. Must be the damn weather.. anyway I still met Biling for dinner, which ended up in my room cos' I wanted to watch my 7pm Channel 8,auntie-drama. Which we did..followed by the dumb fire drill that alot of people couldn't be bothered to take part.. hur hurrr...
Anyway by the end of the night I was feeling.. I can't describe how I felt.. popped 2 panadols and went to bed.. The night was torturing.. the air was still.*not trying to write a poem* anyway I was tossing and turning in bed.. and I really missed the aircon at home... so having no choice, I woke up and showered and went back to bed.. better..
Missed my 8 am lesson.. woke up exactly at 10.. hurhurrrr.. I think I did not drink enough water and eat enough fruits, so I drank 2 cups of fruit juice today.. heh.. after 2202 lecture, I went to dabao my meesua topped with papaya milk.. hur hurrrr....
Just woke up to continue to read for my 2207.. Hope I don't get hypnotised again.. hur hur hurrr...

Preparation really makes alot of difference.. I am so glad I prepared my materials last night and today doing the assignment can be considered almost a breeze*'cept for the mental block the final hour*.anyway I was late fora work cos' I wanted to finish my 2204 project/report and am glad I did it.. yayeeee.. *so full of myself now*

The 3 wise men came again..and frankly, I think Philip is quite a nice old man.. besides being loud.. yeah.. well, never be too ready to judge anyone based on first/second/third/forth/fifth/sixth impressionsss.. hur hurrr..yah... never be too judgemental...

Left with about $130 in my bank account and that is all I have.. luckily my pays are coming in soon.. so please don't try to con my money..

Amount I took from my parents this month, besides my piano fees, >$50. So proud of myself again... hur hur hurrr....