A life TOO ordinary..

I passed my piano exams.. after a 5 year break.. hur hurrr.. anyway it was a marginal pass, but good enough.. at least I didn't spend $300 for nothing.. Thank God and my Guardian Angel for watching over me..

Not sure if you peeps believe in Guardian Angel, but I sincerely do.. Since I was taught so when young.. but as I grew older, it began to make more sense.. Like the time I forgot to turn on the gas but remembered about it when I was at the bus stop and made a U turn, the time we were lost at Pulau Besar, the times I get hunches to do something out of the blue which turns out to be the right decision.. the times when I did not follow my hunches and ended up stabbing myself.. Yeah, I know someone is watching over me and guiding me.. And this time, Thanks YOU again.. Of cos' there are certain things that I don't understand why you would allow them to happen, but then again, you must have your reasons.. I'm sure you don't enjoy watching me struggling in those shit either..Right?

Just a blog to thank God and my Guardian Angel.. as a form of sacrifice, I spent one of the $10 note he last gave me to buy my family some ngoh hiang.. hur hurrr.. One last $10 note left and he should be gone..

Watched a little Singapore Idol today.. Olinda Cho ROCKS.. She's really good.. VERY VERY good.. Very steady voice.. smooth and steady... VERY nice.. and she's actually got pretty face too~

P/N*personal note*: I must get myself a new mouse for the home PC soon.. this one SUCKS


Song dedicated to no one in particular..hur hurrrr

How many times must I fall
To feel alive in this life
How many hills must I climb
To see the light
When I sit amongst the clouds
That blind my eyes
Every book every fairy tale
And every fight that’s ever failed
And every wish the angels hear
Reminds me that you’re everywhere
I hear your name
And Every prayer that’s been ordained
And every child who cries in vain
Are things I can’t explain
Whenever you fall
My love will rain down
My world goes around and around for you
With arms open wide
You’ll be safe inside
I’ll be the ground
Whenever you fall
Oh, oh oh
How many roads must I walk?
To see a sign in this life
Oh, and
When will I fly?
Spread my wings to the sky
If my faith in the river has run dry
And every blessing you bestow
Everywhere with me you go
When trouble comes
How will I know?
Help me let go
Every book is a fairy tale
Every fight that has prevailed
And every wish the angels hear
Reminds me that you care
Whenever you fall
My love will rain down
My world goes around and around for you
With arms open wide
You’ll be safe inside
I’ll be the ground
Whenever you fall
And if the sun don’t shine
I’ll be the light you find
In the darkest of darkest nights
And as the road unwinds
I’ll be the stairs you climb
To the highest of highest
Yeah
Whenever you fall
Whenever you fall
My love will rain down
My world goes around and around for you
With arms open wide
You’ll be safe inside
I’ll be the ground
Whenever you fall
Whenever you fall
My love will rain down
My world goes around and around for you
With arms open wide
You’ll be safe inside
I’ll be the ground
Whenever you fall
===Taylor Dayne, Whenever you fall===
*oh no, my choice of music is becoming more and more like aunties~~!!!

I was walking back to my room from YIH and can't help to marvel at the fine job they had done.. The only thing I can recall about the old YIH is the dark stairway.. and that's all.. I can't even recall how the tiles looked like.. hur hurrr.. anyway, nice job..

Was frantically looking for books that can help me do my assignment and presentation.. it's only times like this you appreciate the vast amount of books they have in the library and begin to drift off reading books totally unrelated to your field of study like: Elvis lived in Katong, Tchaikosky life story stuffs, Kafka, I was even flipping through piano scores..hur hurrr... RIGHT. assignmentssss due next week..

Anyway there's some kind of flaming going on on Huanlin's blog.. whoever it is, think your comments are not that appreciated..shoo!! anyway I think from past experiences from forums and chatrooms, just ignore those buggers and usually they will go away.. the more attention you give, the more accomplished they feel.. maybe you can try that?

Going home later... waiting for my laundry.. Another bugger *or maybe the same one* put 40cents into the dryer again..STUPERD EEDIOTTTT...

Meeting Francis later.. better remember to message him.. hur hur hurrr

Me: Cos' I'm bleeding
WWS:.... *in agony* AAHHHH!!! You did it again!!!
Me: *oops I did it again! playing in my head*Laughs hysterically, or rather, wickedly

And he did not mean bleeding again..He meant telling him I was bleeding again.. A couple ol' years back there was a cycling outing and I told him I was not going.. and he asked why not.. not wanting to hide anything from this good friend of mine, I told him I was bleeding and having cramp.. and to him, that was pretty traumatising experience..*huh?* anyway last night, he asked for it AGAIN and hey,it's not my fault at all.. I did not just go up to him and tell him I am bleeding, right? anyway Me: 2, WWS: 0. wahahahhahahahaha


I spent Mid Autumn Festival not with my family, nor my significant other*who does not exist YET* but with a bunch of people whom I grew up with.. not many though cos' the others were at work, having classes,leaving the country, in NS, having dinner drinking soup and doing dishes, spending time with their nutcase significant other, blah blah blah...Anyway I had my Ramli burger with egg.. only to realise that there's another stall selling at the same price with egg and CHEESE.. it's all WWS' fault for not wanting to Q up.. DAMN YEWWW...

Had loads of mooncake this year.. considering I hardly had a bite since like... forever, eating 3/4 of a mooncake is a large amount I must say.. and thanks to coins who gave me the durian mooncakes.. which I hope is still in the Pantry Fridge.. I want White Lotus and Yam mooncakes~~~*I must be MAAaad*

Loads of work waiting for me to do... think I shall nap first before doing?naah.. think I better do first..

It's the time of the month and nothign is going right...

Not prepared for my presentation tomorrow and not done my essay that is due on Tuesday.. I might skip my Tuesday lesson... BLEURGH..

Having my usual cramp again..DAMNIT...

Phone went down again and rejected mummy's offer to get me a new phone..I WAS NOT THINKING.. must be the damn cramp

Puter's corrupted and stuffs... everything is new AGAIN.. DAMNit

Yeah yeah.. it's that time again... F* it

I wonder why the wireless at home is so much slower than the LAN in school.. anyway, it's very irritating having to wait for the pages to load..

It's the end of the month.. and think everyone's quite broke which was why business last nigth was bad..meaning VERY pathetic tips.. I was hoping to earn some allowance for next week..apparently..NOT. think I got about less that $5.. and I left it on the table.. and I think my mom took most of it.. leaving my with a more pathetic $1.50..

The Haagan Daz ice cream mooncakes smells HEAVENLy.. haven't tried it yet..cos' there are so many mooncakes at home now~ *pics will be uploaded..SOON* went to the supermarket just now and bought many stuffs for dinner.. yayeee... *I hear thunder.. oh no, it's going to rain*

Philip came down with Jimmy and gang.. They were talking about the fate of Streats, which will be sealed by Monday.. I think.. and Philip might join the ranks of the unemployed.. wahahhaa... *ok I am evil, frankly speaking, he is quite an fine ol'man* anyway with his 'talents' and stuffs.. I am sure he can easily get a job somewhere singing ol'songs that I'll prolly never hear this lifetime.. hur hur hurrr...


Going to werk later... *yawns*

What's with these people? they do laundry 24/7.. ok so my previous attempts to wash and dry my clothes were more successful in the morning say 10-11.. noted..
Not sure if I was woken up by Simin's call and SMS... or was it because I wanted to pee.. anyway, since I was already up, I might as well try to get my clothes dried.. LO AND BEHOLD... both dryers were being monopolised, I think by the same person.. and the other one had actually 38mins left... how much did he/she put in the coin slot? $1.00? and I have got no idea what he/she is drying in there.. Hope the dryer doesn't explode.. if it does, don't do it while I am there to collect my clothes.. I am just staying one floor down the washing area.. hope the damage is not big enough to affect me...RIGHT...

oh yah.. Simin called to ask if I wana eat now... since they kind of just knock off from work and heading home..naah... not today.. I have time for that tomorrow, Friday and Saturday... hur hurrr...

My plans for later..
Collect my clothes.. Sleep PEACEFULLY...
carry, or rather, start on my 2007 Self+Peer critique *hopefully finish it*, do my 2201 slides.. Buy Shui Jiao home, collect mooncake fromHaagan Daaz, Holland V.. Head home.. get dinner, have dinner, WORK WORK WORK *yeeeah*

so proud of myself for having $12 left in my wallet.. will be left with 0 tomorrow after Shui Jiao and dinner.. and of cos' I used nets/card most of the times these days.. oh..my astrocious looking bank balance..if there is any...People Save Ellie Funds???

5 more mins and I can collect mylaundry and sleep peacefully..at last... and be woken up by noisy 96 and especially 151 prolly like 9 in the morning.. DAMN.. I love everything about this room..'cept for the noise.. no wonder some windows are always closed... where did they get ventilation? * I wonder* Anyway I am going to close my window later so that I can sleep a lil' more before waking up feeling suffocated.. maybe I will end up being woken up earlier...

*I wana drink soya bean I wana drink soya bean I wana drink soya bean I wana drink soya bean* Do you think they sell soyabean drink at YIH? hope they do you know.. I've been craving for soyabean since my trip home last night.. I did not get a can at the lobby cos' I only have 90cents left for my coins.. just enough for a can and meaning, no coins for the dryer.. *ok I am so obsessed with the dryer and my laundry and stuffs, the point in I've been wanting to wash my clothes since Tuesday night you know..* Anyway think I am blabbering again...I'll prolly have a good laugh at myself when I read this again later on or something.. bleurgh..

*soyabean soyabean soyabean soyabean soyabean*
Think I will marry anyone who appears with soyabean at my doorstep now.. I WANT SOYABEAN MILK~~!!!
Alright.. time to collect my soyabean, I mean clothes now.. and I shall carry on to dreAm of soyabean... Come to think of it.. if Simin is going to call me within this 5 mins, I'm actually going for supper/breakfast with them..and search for my soyabean drink.. *BLEUGH*

Got home pretty late today... worked till 8.. I think this is more tiring than normal school term.. anyway I did not meet the buangsters cos I don't think I have enough money to take a cab back after supper..

Anyway Eve and I sat at the Kopitiam at near the OG to watch TV and continue bitching about stuffs.. wahahaha... each day I am revealing now bitchy I am.. anyway I enjoy being with her cos' we can bitch about many things.. and she can laugh at all my stupidest, crappiest jokes.. hur hur.. which entertains me at the same time.. hur hurrr

anyway I was contemplating if I should do my laundry tomorrow morning.. and I decided to do it now and then at the same time do my assignments.. and obviously.. only plan A was followed piously and the assignments were forsaken.. I don't think I can think straight to start with.. But I'm sure I will not be able to rest properly with a bag of dirty laundry in another corner of the room... which was why I must do my laundry tonight... by hook or by crook... I am not the neatest person in the world.. but when it comes to personal hygiene, I am very particular OKAEEEE...

Something was wrong with my explorer this morning.. I was in school using wireless and even though I was connected, I keep getting the error message when I open my explorer.. so in the end I did not manage to use my lappie for the project and it looked as if I just brought my toy to show off.. DAMNIT... I shall ask BFSW or bestbest or TCS about it if I see them in school..since they are one of the more 'tech' people I know.. *or I am just plain stupid and damn reliant on my brother*

Was watching reality TV on TV mobile on my way back here.. pretty interesting stuff.. so tiring.. I mean, I feel tired for them... hur hur hurr

So many assignments.. I shall start with 2007 since 2202's been postponed a week.. shall do everything tomorrow..*yeah right*

I so need to sleep...time to transfer my laundry into the dryer... 20 mins more..
Much more... laundry not done yet... DAMN....


DAMNIT... all the guys like to do their laundry at night.... and use the dryer.. I collected my wet laundry and left them in my laundry bag.. shall dry them 1st thing in the morning tomorrow.. I shall never wash my clothes at this hour AGAIN.. DAMNIT... and I was 30secs later than the guy who used MY dryer.. DAMNIT... GWYN it's YOUR fault cos' I was verbal sparring with you... DAMN YEWWWWW FEWLLLLL

One of the nicest email I've received..
Hi students,
2 short announcements(1) There will be no tutorial on this Friday.
(2) The essay deadline has been postponed by one week (since there were no violent objections). :)Have a pleasant one-week break.
Regards,Kai Chong

Which did not come as a surprise cos' the way he said it last week was pretty apparent that he is not interested in conducting a classon Friday.. anyway, yayeeee. I'll be werking Thurs thru' Sat, so it's still no break actually?

Did something pretty dumb.. was trying to check my mail *which I know is none* and I realised that my neighbour have not been collecting her mail which consists of 4 copies of Economists...Not sure what I was thinking *must be fatigue that swallowed the better 1/2 of me* I took all copies.. hur hurrr.. anyway I m going to return them tomorrow night when I return from werk.. hehe..without trying to read the content.. hur hurrr...

Busy day at work.. but it was fun..and tiring... hur hurrr...

OH OH, my addy is:
21 Kent Ridge Crescent Road
Kuok Foundation House
Room 724

Do feel free to send me a love note or two.. hur hurrr... Cash, clothes, Swatch are welcome as well..

Miss Chang )*my piano teacher* commented that I look pretty fresh today.. was it fresh? just something along those lines of well-rested.. which I felt is totally not true..cos' no matter how much I lay, toss and turn in bed, I feel damn tired... and I slept ALOT yesterday..fyi...

It's always times like this I feel the urge to blog.. alone in my hostel room, waiting for the newscast/webcast thing to buffer and basically doing nothing and avoiding my assignments at all cost... Just had curry flavoured cup noodles *damnit, I didn't see the curry flavour in the value pack.*, anyway it's my least favourite, so my strategy is to finish them first... before I proceed on to Chicken and then Tom Yam.. hur hurrr...

Was talking to Simin on Friday on our way home.. Turns out she attended BPPS in Pri 5 and Pri 6.. and she was in 5I..and she remembers BFSW.. hur hurr... small werld huh....

Watching Channel U.. the chinese-variety.. GuoLiang brings a 'banana-artiste' to some part of China and gives them Mandarin lesson.. I don't mind such lessons... YUM...think I am hungry again...

Werking tomorrow and Wednesday... and project meeting on Wednesday.. speaking on which I should go study the project materials that my Vietnamese Team mate, Hang, sent... We are going to present on Vietnamese culture..*duh*

I shall go take my medicine and proceed to work...

This is a busy week.. think I am going to work my ass off..*not literally though..SAD*

Forgot to bring my camera again... why did I want to bring it for? I can't exactly remember... but oh well... hur hurrr

to watch Sesame Street Show with me.. so anyone who needs a baby-sitter to watch the show, I mean your kids, CALL ME~~
Anyway Baby won't be coming since the new baby will be due in about 4 weeks time? and anyway that lil' imp don't dig Sesame Street like her cousin does.. hur hurr

Weekends are always busy since I'm working again...It's term break but the workload is like... 478359453454X of normal school days.. DAMNit... many things to do..many days of work as well.. hur hurrr...

There were many random thoughts but so far the Sesame Street thing is the only one I can recall, since I am watching it now..

Oh SPH merger stuff... it's a comspiracy all along right? I knew it...

There was a Streats anniversary at Blue Bar on Friday... it could've been at Reading Room and I would have met this guy, whom I've been reading his blog.. So anyway, it'll be kind of weird..
Me: Hey you are XXX right?
Him: yeah, do I know you?
Me: Naah.. I am an avid reader of your blog
Him: kewl...so why do you like me blog?
me: naah.. I just enjoy prying into strangers' personal lives.. which reminds me of another hobby of mine, stalking..hur hurrr

Anyway the world is kind of small.. turns out this guy used to be a SPH intern and knows that blabbermouth old man Philip.. hur hurrr..

There's this 1.75 girl from China working at Reading Room every Friday.. I rather work alone.

Rey was pretty funny.. he is my schoolmate-cum-colleague.. so I was telling him about the new Malay stall that sells Fishball noodles and he told me something pretty racist...
Me: hey, you know hor, you should try the Malay stall..
Rey:*cuts me off without letting me finish my sentence* no, I don't eat from Malay stall,会变笨的
Me: uh... ok... but the chicken wings are really nice *starts to laugh hysterically*

Anyway he said loads of crappy stuffs like self-proclaiming as the employee of the month or comparing himself to Fazli *the super good-looking and nice-tempered
drummer* and stuffs like:
Me: That's Fazli's wife
Rey: *traumatised look* ....
Rey:你会不会忽然觉得你很有希望了
Me: ey dn like that can, maybe 她人很好
Rey: 他人真的很好
Me: I meant SHE
Rey: oh.... oh ok lo

There's loads of other crap that we churned out lah..but ofcos' my hard disk is limited.. hur hurrr

is where my mum intends to go... WITH DADDY ONLY.
hur hurrr... anyway I won't feel good spending any more of their money.. so, IT DOESN'T MATTERRRRRRR..*Really*

anyway they are not going cos' daddy did not want to go and that he's got work commitments.. so I told him, just wait for one more year and he can quit his job and I'll take care of the bread.. I mean it and hope that's a fact in 12 months time.. hur hurrrr... so I told them my back up plan.. think mummy was worried.. hur hurrr... oh well... she asked me wasn't it my plan to go into teaching.. yeah.. teaching in special schools that will require more education.. I don't think I want to spend anymore of their money..

Wrote my script for the ahbeng thing.. turns out the lecturer think this might be a little dangerous topic to touch on.. so we might move on to other things.. waste my precious nap time.. hur hurrr...

Going to sleep liao.. for the 1st time I don't have to rush my 2202 tutorial cos' I've already finished it... yayeeeee~~~

Just got my bill for my hostel.. $925.50.. I am totally regreting my decision to move in...which makes me miss home ALOT... oh well.. I better make full use of the facilities here.. I've finally understand that you don't have to stay away from home to be independent.. oh well,just another reckless, impulsive decision that I've made..I resolve to appropriate 1/3 of my pay to repay my parents.. hur hurrrr...

Went to the library to borrow MANY books.. I hope I can start on my 2202 paper soon.. followed by 2204...

Was just thinking of a statement a friend made..
"I came because of her.. Without her, I won't even be here.."
So you mean we weren't friends before this? All along when she was absent, you didn't know why you were with us? Why do people change after they got attached? Why can't you meet your friends as per normal after you start seeing someone? You mean your social circle is onlybig enough for 2? F*ck... anyway, the more I think about it, the more pissed I am.. SO PLEASE, if there is ever a next time, DO NOT tell me silly things like "my significant other is not going, so count me out" You should lead your own life, geddit?

Watching Channel 8 drama on Lappie... I miss my TV at home... Hungry... wondering what to have for dinner... hur hurrrr... Chicken noodles or Campbell soup? hur hurrrr... maybe oreos.. =)

Seems like many of my friends are going through rough patches in their relationships.. I wish them well... not like I am the best person to say this, but, please don't waste your youth dwelling on the past and missing out the good things ahead of you..

which brings me back to the conversation about relationships with some friends a couple ol'months ago.. Is he really that unforgetable or am I really using him as a cover up to disguise my fear for commitment like TY said.. maybe it's a little of both... I wish I could be more nonchalant on the inside as I am on the outside.. but the problem with girls is that usually they care too much for others and forget to spare a little thought for themselves.. they forget to leave a little pride for themselves.. oh well, I am blabbering incoherently again...

Was watching last episode of FRIENDS on TV for the Nth time, even when I have the DVD in KL.. hur hurrr... Ross and Rachel are back together for good... YAYEEEEee.. that is the only consolation.. WHY DO THINGS HAVE TO CHANGE? why do Monica and Chandler have to shift? WHY MUST THE BLARDY SHOW END??! Can't believe thatthe show I've been watching since... sec...1 or 2.. has ended.. OH.MY.GAAAWD...I just hate changes.. DAMNIT

It's holis next week.. I plan to finish up all four assignments and read my readings faithfully.. at least finish my four assignments?

Mommy is talking to me again.. hur hur... actually I feel quite bad for making this decision cos' I feel that the room is not THAT necessary... I prolly stay 3, if not 4 nights a week.. which is kind of wasting my parents' hard-earned money.. So I resolve not to get any allowance from them this semester.. SO PLEASE DON'T TRY TO CON MY MONEY~~

oh well... gotto sleep now and study hard tomorrow~~~

~~ says:
i dun understandd...
Bleurgh says:
hur hurhurrrrr
~~ says:
XXXXXX (a person's name) = computing language
~~ says:
hard to comprehen..
~~ says:
maybe she shd get a china-ese husband...
Bleurgh says:
computing language..
Bleurgh says:
she is just a nutcase lo
Bleurgh says:
dun say till she so complex and sophisticated can
the contractor~ @^@ On MC.. says:
yeah llor....
the contractor~ @^@ On MC.. says:
comp lang sounds too positive liao
Bleurgh says:
YAH YAH
~~ says:
she is like a suspending fucntion... tat cannot cease on its own... which is = to a compilation error...
the contractor~ @^@ On MC.. says:
haha...yah yah!!!!
Bleurgh says:
she is just a bug lah... stupid b****
Bleurgh says:
think b**** oso insult to the werd man...
~~ says:
a bug = a program tat runs... but logic error...
~~ says:
she shd attend logic...a philo module
the contractor~ @^@ On MC.. says:
she will c ry in every lesson lor....
Bleurgh says:
she shud just find a cave and stay inside and dun bother the rest of the society man
the contractor~ @^@ On MC.. says:
as if she understands everyting when she doesnt
Bleurgh says:
for the welfare of the society... just dig a cave for her~~~
the contractor~ @^@ On MC.. says:
haha
~~ says:
dun.... she will disturb the earthwormss... better to launch her into space...
the contractor~ @^@ On MC.. says:
wahahaha,,,,,stupid boy
~~ says:
she will prob create a black hole and suck evryting in... den thus the Big Crunch....
Bleurgh says:
......
~~ says:
den maybe she survives and makes a big fuss again... and den Big Bang again..
~~ says:
den life starts all over...
Bleurgh says:
......
~~ says:
but den again she will disturb the dinosaurs....
Bleurgh says:
maaaad
~~ says:
den ice age... den all die.e.
~~ says:
but humans survive..
~~ says:
den we arrive at this stage again...
~~ says:
so conclusion... cannot dig hole or launch her into space...
~~ says:
i tink l**** is better for her...
~~ says:
at least we can ignore them both...
Bleurgh says:
but if ** has oredy changed for her... maybe the 3 of them shud be launched too
the contractor~ @^@ On MC.. says:
wahahahaaaaaa
~~ says:
haiz... pooor **...
~~ says:
my dear fren has mutated...
~~ says:
rem... we cant launch them,...
~~ says:
the big crunch will occur...
Bleurgh says:
den how???
~~ says:
we will all die...
Bleurgh says:
please save the werld *C*
Bleurgh says:
hur hur hurrrrr
~~ says:
the onli plausible solution is to disintegrate her.... destroy evry single cell of hers...
Bleurgh says:
that will be nice... but her cells will multiply or not?
Bleurgh says:
later got 1003429658247237 of her how??
~~ says:
the rate of disintegration muz b greater if not equal to the rate of her cells multiplication...
Bleurgh says:
the remake of alien resurrection
~~ says:
so... last way... drop an atomic bomb into her house...
Bleurgh says:
no lah... cannot we will be affected
~~ says:
we sacreifice for the world...
~~ says:
worth it..
~~ says:
haha

*WICKED*

MUahahahahhaaha... a conversation between 3... um... intellects?
*names been changed to protect the identity of contributors as well as characters in the story to avoid offending anyone... I am evil, but I love peace too you know..*

Chalets are always tiring and pocket burning for organisers.. Not that I was the one who organised the chalet but as the F&B manager of my class, a significantly large whole was burnt in my pocket as well.. oh well...

It was a gurly thing since most of the guys couldn't make it due to NS duty and stuffs.. so there was ample room to sit around and all.. highlight of the chalet was prolly the murderer-detective-medic game that we played at 3 in the morning.. when a couple was having an argument at the other side of the room.. and SHE couldn't do it outside, insisting to share her problem with all of us in the room.. and so Me, Huis and WWS chose to make more noise to fill in the silence so that we do not here that content.. and some people thought of it as insensitive... UMMmMMmMm...

Anyway, that incident was some kind of spoiler and some of us ended up not very happy with the way the couple handled things.. or maybe just the way the female manipulated the whole situation and the poor, yes, POOR male blindly follow suit.. OH WELL... LOVE IS BLIND... by now, most people would've a vague idea who I am talking about... so no 'names-dropping' please~~~ *don't get me into trouble* hur hurrrrr...

Anyway, while others gave chase and stuffs, some of us stayed in the room.. With that big heart of steel in us, we are just simply not as mobile as others you see.. anyway it seems that when people have nothing much to talk about, they will tend to ask about my past relationships.. hur hurrr... Yes I am straight and I do fall in love, just not that lucky enough to keep what I love.. hurhurrr

Food was more than enough.. Too much variety and not everyone came hungry..

things learnt from this chalet:
Mopiko is a new game (yes, thank you Biling)
Yinghui loves to pole dance.. (she's so going to shoot me)
Some people are born blind, and stupid..or just, serious lack of grey matter..
Things that you've said when you were younger might come back to *haunt* you.. hur hurrr.. (Thank you Yaoyao for the kind reminder, at least I won't end up an old spinster like Coins)
It doesn't pay to TRY to be kind.. (Langyi did a good demo for us.. hur hrurr)

Shall carry on catching up on my lost sleep... I NEEED TO SLEEEEEEEEEP~~~~~~
Pictures will be posted... soon enough

Spent alot of time talking to people like Yao and Joey aka Langyi.. 1/2 the time the song Joey was ringing in my head.. hur hurrrr

Joey, baby - don't get crazy
Detours.Fences...
I get defensive
I know you've heard it all before
so I don't say it anymore
I just stand by and let you
fight your secret war.
And though I used to wonder why
I used to cry till I was dry.
Still sometimes I get a strange pain inside
Oh, Joey, if you're hurting so am I.

Joey, honey - I've got the money
All is forgiven. Listen, listen
And if I seem to be confused
I didn't mean to be with you.
And when you said I scared you,well I guess you scared me too.
But we got lucky once before
And I don't wanna close the door
And if you're somewhere out there
passed out on the floor.
Oh Joey, I'm not angry anymore.

and if I seem to be confused
I didn't mean to be with you.
but when you said I scared you,well I guess you scared me too.
But if its love you're looking
i can give a little more
And if you're somewhere out there,
passed out on the floor.
Oh Joey, I'm not angry anymore.
Angry anymore..

JOEY by Concrete Blonde.. Just a song I always liked.. Sometimes it takes more than a song to put things back together.. Sometimes, nothing helps at all..

Took some time last night to update my blog.. but I guess most other bloggers would my plight.. anyway today's presentation was OK.. badly concluded.. but oh well...

Going to work later...zzZzzz

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TRADEMART SINGAPORE, FUNCTION ROOM 1, GROUND FLOOR,
60 MARTIN ROAD, SINGAPORE 239065.

I don't know where this is.. just sharing some information from an email I received.. hur hurrr...oh, I forgot to mention, it's PROJECT SHOP SALES.

Yayee? finally the internet problem'sbeen resolved...

On the not so bright side... Presentation due tomorrow and I am not ready yet...
Mum's not at all happy about me moving out, claiming that I did not tell her? uh... I really think I did.. think she selectively listened to what she wants.. anyway I will go home on Friday and then to chalet on Saturday.. oh well...

Saw Jingrong this morning, he said that I looked sick... hur hurr.. think he meant sleepy...
Had lunch with Qianling before proceeding to library to completemy slides for tomorrow... and met Faizal (buddha head) and saw someone familiar.. think he is my next door neighbour.. hur hurrr

Going to write my script now... working tomorrow... maybe will blog about my presentation tomorrow afternoon... if I have the time... adieus..

p/s: the room is good, windy and private.. Neighbours are equally private.. haven't seen them yet.. hur hurr

I hate taking 151..
took 184 from Bukit Panjang at around 0850 and reached Ngee Ann bus stop at around 0905.. waited till 0925 before a SUPER ULTRA crowded 151 came.. So I joined the rest of the sardines.. Still as unreliable.. I hate taking 151..

I stopped watching/listening/reading newspapers..
everything is depressing.. Accidents and stuffs.. Violence in Iraq, Russian hostage.. WHERE IS THE LOVE,BRO?

I love to lunch at THE DECK..
Food is good.. Cyclist aka JUNYANG drops by there for lunch.. do I need to come up with more reasons? hur hurrr.. LARVELEEEEEEE

I cannot stop reminiscing..
I am a loser.

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Met Xinying AKA Sanpo at NUS today.. at first I was not sure if it's her but hey, there's no second walking skeleton on campus..right?

Presentation is on Thursday.. I haven't gotten the slightest idea on what to say.. ok, maybe I do have the topic..and nothing else.. I am so going to make a fool of myself... yayeee?

Can't decide if it's really been so busy...
So I decided to make a list of 'constructive' things that I've done:
*-attended all my classes
-prepared my tutorials
-did SOME of my readings
-worked

hur hurrr.... that's so much I can account for... right.

Was super demoralised on Friday and I was realy screwed up.. so I bucked up on Saturday.. my attitude was better prolly cos alot of my friends came to visit me.. ie Coins and Biling *thanks for the garfield stuffs for my room* Feng and of cos' Eve who was in the kitchen and gossiping with me whenever possible..*2 mongers..hur hurr*

Anyway I left my printer in Uncle Peter's car and will bring it to my hall on Friday morning since I will be working and Friday night and my parents WILL NOT know about it.. *that's the nice thing about staying on campus*

Will be shifting in tomorrow I think.. or Tuesday.. hur hurrrr...

Make a Plan Toward Change
In Step 1, you looked at how you spend your 168 hours each week and whether these activities are making you happy. You may have decided that you want to make changes to how you spend your time and your priorities. The strategies you'll learn in Step 2 involve not only setting your goals, but also devising a method for working toward them. In short, this step is about identifying problems, turning problems into goals, and turning goals into plans.

Ultimate versus immediate goals
Imagine that you want to run the 1,500 meters in the Olympics. You start your first practice session with the goal of running it in under four minutes, which you will almost certainly have to do to qualify. And, of course, you fail by a large margin.
Imagine holding on to this goal day after day, week after week. Each morning you head out to the track, and each afternoon you head home knowing you have failed. How long do you think you would stay motivated and not give up?

Perhaps the question is best answered by the fact that no athlete on earth trains this way. It is simply not possible to maintain your motivation when you fail over and over again. Each day, the disappointment erodes your belief that the goal is achievable, and eventually you give up. Repeated failure saps confidence and motivation.

Imagine instead that your first goal is to walk the 1,500 meters. Perhaps you could succeed. The next day your goal might be to finish one second faster. Perhaps you could succeed at that too. If you keep setting small but achievable goals, you will create a string of many more successes than failures. You will realize that you are capable of reaching your goals, and your motivation will rise. You will be far more likely to stick with your plan, and you will reach your ultimate goal faster. Success builds confidence and motivation.

The important thing is not how fast you are when you start out, nor how much dedication or motivation you have. It is where you set your goals that counts. You need an ultimate goal to know where you're headed. You need an immediate goal to know whether you have reached each step. To reach any long-term goal, you must break it down into easily manageable steps.
This idea is not just for people who feel depressed; it's for everyone. Many of us set our goals out of reach. "I'll try to get all forty-three of these things done today." As a result, we feel tired, frustrated, and powerless. It is far better to set goals that we know we can accomplish. The progress we make is ultimately faster.

Watch out for traps
Goal-setting sometimes seems simple. It isn't. There are traps running all through it, particularly for the depressed person. These traps are not catastrophic, but they can certainly slow you down. Here are some of the most common ones.

Trap No. 1: Trying to do too muchBe careful that you don't make your smaller, immediate goals too ambitious. In other words, don't be too eager to solve your problems. Break your goals into small enough steps. Otherwise, your desire to get better may actually slow you down. Work steadily, but don't try your hardest.

Trap No. 2: Feeling discouraged after one or two stepsIn goal-setting you set a major life goal, then give up on the ultimate goal and focus instead on the immediate goals (the small steps) that you need to take to get there. When you've made a few of these steps, it's natural to look up hopefully at your ultimate goal to see if you are any closer to reaching it. Usually this is disappointing.

Don't focus on the ultimate goal. Instead, look back at where you were at your lowest point, and compare that to what you've done. Noticing your results is motivating; it allows you to take more steps. Dwell on how far you have come, not on how far you have yet to go.

In Step 1, you figured out what you might like to change about your life. The next step is to take a look at your list of changes. Which one would you like to work on first? It should be something that you care about, but not something that seems completely overwhelming. Make an effort to let go of the other changes on your list for now. The way to make progress is to focus your efforts. Once you have done some work on one problem, you can begin to work on others. Write down the one you have chosen. Use a full sentence. Instead of "Social life" you could say, "Problem No. 1 is that I almost never go out or do anything with others."

If your sentence describes something that you don't like about your life, rewrite it to say what you would like instead. Using the social life example above, your goal might be, "I would like to go out with friends two or three times a week." A person who is dissatisfied with work might say, "I would like to be happier with my work life."

There. If you started with a problem, you have changed it already. You've made it into a goal.
Break problems and goals into bitsThe next step is to break your problem or goal into smaller pieces. Almost every problem is made up of a number of smaller parts if you look at it carefully enough. Here is a sample problem and the bits and pieces that make it up:
Problem: "I hate my work."
Bits and pieces:
I avoid the boss.
I have a difficult coworker.
I hate doing the office mail.
There's no hope of promotion.In your journal or on a piece of paper, break your problem or goal into bits. If Problem No. 1 is that your kids are out of control, what are your specific concerns about their behavior? If Problem No. 1 is that you are out of shape, what are all the reasons?
This may take a bit of thought, especially if you are used to thinking of the problem as one big chunk. Brainstorming may help.

Create possibilities
For most problems you don't have to resolve all of the bits and pieces. It's often enough to work on only some of them. Go back over your list and put a star beside two or three bits that you would especially like to work on.

Next, think of things you could do that might help. Once again, you may find brainstorming useful. Try to think of as many possible actions as you can. Don't worry whether they are really practical at this point. Here is an example of problem bits and the solutions people have come up with:
Job: Commuting takes too long.
Listen to audio books in the car.
Change work hours to avoid traffic.
Try the other highway.
See if I can work at home some days.
Move closer to work.
Relocate to the branch closer to home.Now try your own. Don't be too frustrated if you can't think of anything immediately. Just relax and try to come up with odd or impractical solutions to get the flow of ideas going.

Select an action
Now it's time to get moving! Which of your ideas would you like to put into action? Pick one. It should be:
Reasonably easy to carry out.
Remember: If you have been stuck on this problem for a while, you will have to start slowly.
Likely to help with the problem. It probably won't solve the problem completely, but it should take you at least one small step toward a solution.

Specific.
In other words, you know what you will have to do in order to carry it out.Work on this plan over the coming week. If you succeed, decide on the next step to take toward your ultimate goal. If you don't succeed, don't be too surprised. You may still have made your plan too difficult. Make your next goal even easier, and keep simplifying until you succeed.

It is not important to take great strides forward with each step. The important thing is to get back the sense that you can be successful, even if your plans may seem small. As you regain some of your confidence, you will be able to do a bit more. As energy returns, the pace of improvement typically accelerates.

Keep setting goals once a week. Don't set too many at any one time, and keep them manageable. Use your feelings of being overwhelmed as a guide. If it feels like too much, it is. Keep working, but make your goals smaller.

When you are ready, move on to Step 3 to learn how to create a personal support team to help you achieve your goals.

Tadaaaaaaa~ there you have it... the second step to happiness.. hur hurrrrr