Sunday, February 29, 2004
My childhood
Was suddenly reminded of this very ultra nice part of childhood that I had...
Both sides of my grandparents were farmers, my mother's side is Pig farmers and my father's, orchid farmers..
Well, today I will share with you my childhood in Mandai.. I can still remember vividly the path you have to take to reach the 'kampong' in Mandai, there's a sign that says Stephen Lee road. I can still spot the path if I take 171 sometimes.. So anyway, when you turn into Stephen Lee road, you need to travel at least like 5 mins, that is if you're driving, before u can reach my grandfather's orchid farm.. You will pass by loads of plants(duh...) and then the kindgarten my brother and cousins attended, which was basically a little hut and maybe one household(maybemore more but I can only rememebr one..) And then you come to a junction (which is a large tree, you know those with hanging roots) and you have to keep left, if you go right you will end up in my dad's cousin's house..
and so, you keep left, up a slope and then you will be greeted by barking dogs.. and there's a cemented ground the size of a basketball court in front of the house. On the left side of the house, there's a garage and then a path that leads to part of the orchid farm. I can still remember the guava tree beside the path.. then on the right, there's the kitchen and at the back of the kitchen is another path that leads to the chicken house and then the orchid farm and another toilet that people go to shit.. and right in front of the kitchen is the bathroom and besidethe bathroom is the toilet.. and there is a path leading downwards to my dad's cousin's house..
and opposite the house, beside the road you travel from, there's another large chicken house, and behind it is a smaller orchid farm.. and behind the orchid farm, there's a secret bathroom, which is one of my favourite places, cos' there's a well in it and it'e very very very nice... I just loved to bathe there with my cousin...
ok, back to the orchid farm behind the house, if you walk by the garage way, you will come by a pig sty, but by the tmie I was born, there were no more pigs in it.. so they kept their fertilizers there.. and then there's more nice orchids.. and you walk towards your right and you see a large fish pond.. very deep.. like 1 storey high? and very big..ok, maybe I was little... so my brother would bring my and my cousins go fishing whenever we go back.. you know, we would dig the ground to catch earthworms and poke them through hooks.. and just fish... it's very nice.. very very nice...
there's a smaller pond further up, but why bother when the big pond is nearer.. so usually, after a day of 'fishless' fishing, we would head right and end up on the path that leads to the kitchen.. Some days we would have adventure trips up to the smaller pond and away from the orchid farm.. My brother would tell us stories about illegal Thai immigrants who stayed there and how they eat rats and stuffs to scare us.. mainly me.. some days, I just enjoy walking in the orchid farm admiring the nice orchids.. the pots are grown on tall wooden racks or hung from the top.. there's this wire netting over them, prolly to prevent over exposure to sunlight? no very sure... so those stuffs are very tall to me.. then... my favourite ones are the white ones with large petals that are hung on top. The ones that I thought were realyl ugly are those thin maroon coloured ones, there are spots on the petals.. the more common ones are the purple and white ones you can see everywhere and my gandpa's favourite are the little yellow flowers..I can still remember the muddy tracks in the farm and the algae-cover racks..Which is what I usually see at eye level...
In the house there's a large grandfather clock.. I can still remember what it sounded like... it was left there after my grandparents shifted to HDB flat... then there was my granparents room, my uncle's, my cousins' my aunties', teh dining room and finially back to the kitchen. There's this large 'bowl' that collect rain water in front of the kitchen and it's serving as a table in my grandma's living room now.. There are 2 durian trees in front of the house and I was told that my cousin was tied there and whipped by my grandpa cos she was really bad...(luckily I don't stay with them or I might have been dead) I think there are two dogs in front of the house, near the entrance.. I hardly 'visit' them.. hahah
The wooden lacquered walls, floor covered by floor paper? dunno what they are called.. every room is covered by a long curtain.. there's wooden windows... and at the entrance of the house there's 2 cane chairs and round one and one 'rectangular' one.. sometimes my grandparents would sit there just admiring the nice view they have.. and some times it's not occupied, so I would sit there too..
In my 21 years of existence, I have only stayed there for 1 night... ok, maybe 1 month and 1 night.. 1 month when I was a baby and 1 night when I was a kid.. at maybe 7 or 8? hahah..
OH I miss those days...
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Both sides of my grandparents were farmers, my mother's side is Pig farmers and my father's, orchid farmers..
Well, today I will share with you my childhood in Mandai.. I can still remember vividly the path you have to take to reach the 'kampong' in Mandai, there's a sign that says Stephen Lee road. I can still spot the path if I take 171 sometimes.. So anyway, when you turn into Stephen Lee road, you need to travel at least like 5 mins, that is if you're driving, before u can reach my grandfather's orchid farm.. You will pass by loads of plants(duh...) and then the kindgarten my brother and cousins attended, which was basically a little hut and maybe one household(maybemore more but I can only rememebr one..) And then you come to a junction (which is a large tree, you know those with hanging roots) and you have to keep left, if you go right you will end up in my dad's cousin's house..
and so, you keep left, up a slope and then you will be greeted by barking dogs.. and there's a cemented ground the size of a basketball court in front of the house. On the left side of the house, there's a garage and then a path that leads to part of the orchid farm. I can still remember the guava tree beside the path.. then on the right, there's the kitchen and at the back of the kitchen is another path that leads to the chicken house and then the orchid farm and another toilet that people go to shit.. and right in front of the kitchen is the bathroom and besidethe bathroom is the toilet.. and there is a path leading downwards to my dad's cousin's house..
and opposite the house, beside the road you travel from, there's another large chicken house, and behind it is a smaller orchid farm.. and behind the orchid farm, there's a secret bathroom, which is one of my favourite places, cos' there's a well in it and it'e very very very nice... I just loved to bathe there with my cousin...
ok, back to the orchid farm behind the house, if you walk by the garage way, you will come by a pig sty, but by the tmie I was born, there were no more pigs in it.. so they kept their fertilizers there.. and then there's more nice orchids.. and you walk towards your right and you see a large fish pond.. very deep.. like 1 storey high? and very big..ok, maybe I was little... so my brother would bring my and my cousins go fishing whenever we go back.. you know, we would dig the ground to catch earthworms and poke them through hooks.. and just fish... it's very nice.. very very nice...
there's a smaller pond further up, but why bother when the big pond is nearer.. so usually, after a day of 'fishless' fishing, we would head right and end up on the path that leads to the kitchen.. Some days we would have adventure trips up to the smaller pond and away from the orchid farm.. My brother would tell us stories about illegal Thai immigrants who stayed there and how they eat rats and stuffs to scare us.. mainly me.. some days, I just enjoy walking in the orchid farm admiring the nice orchids.. the pots are grown on tall wooden racks or hung from the top.. there's this wire netting over them, prolly to prevent over exposure to sunlight? no very sure... so those stuffs are very tall to me.. then... my favourite ones are the white ones with large petals that are hung on top. The ones that I thought were realyl ugly are those thin maroon coloured ones, there are spots on the petals.. the more common ones are the purple and white ones you can see everywhere and my gandpa's favourite are the little yellow flowers..I can still remember the muddy tracks in the farm and the algae-cover racks..Which is what I usually see at eye level...
In the house there's a large grandfather clock.. I can still remember what it sounded like... it was left there after my grandparents shifted to HDB flat... then there was my granparents room, my uncle's, my cousins' my aunties', teh dining room and finially back to the kitchen. There's this large 'bowl' that collect rain water in front of the kitchen and it's serving as a table in my grandma's living room now.. There are 2 durian trees in front of the house and I was told that my cousin was tied there and whipped by my grandpa cos she was really bad...(luckily I don't stay with them or I might have been dead) I think there are two dogs in front of the house, near the entrance.. I hardly 'visit' them.. hahah
The wooden lacquered walls, floor covered by floor paper? dunno what they are called.. every room is covered by a long curtain.. there's wooden windows... and at the entrance of the house there's 2 cane chairs and round one and one 'rectangular' one.. sometimes my grandparents would sit there just admiring the nice view they have.. and some times it's not occupied, so I would sit there too..
In my 21 years of existence, I have only stayed there for 1 night... ok, maybe 1 month and 1 night.. 1 month when I was a baby and 1 night when I was a kid.. at maybe 7 or 8? hahah..
OH I miss those days...
Friday, February 27, 2004
Lucky
Think my luck is becoming better each day.. I think...
anyway I had a pretty good test last night... think the questions were pretty good.. I could feel myself bouncing on my way out to the bus stop... yay!! yeah and I got pretty good grades for my essay assignment... and guess what I MET LIBRIAN today!!! was sitting at the pink tables with Siqiao and Weitian discussing our presentation and he came for lunch with his friends.. SO HAPPY... hahahah... When will I see SOCian.. haha...
My plan for this holidays is to enjoy myself a little and then get a job in a factory...well, I think it's nice to experience life a little.. If I don't do it now, I'll probably do it after I graduate... for a month or two.. Who says under-graduate can't work in factories? anyway, just want to work from the bottom...Nice thought...
Song I am totally in love with these days (no, not applicable to me right now)
You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try
I'm in over my head
You got under my skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in
And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time
Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)
Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Flowing into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind
oooh
Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
I'm going crazy in love for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
Yeah, no one can rescue me
(No one can rescue me)
ooh ooooh
Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby, baby
Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you (too lost in you)
oooh
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in everything about you
So deep (so deep), I can't sleep (no,no,no)
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
===Sugababes, Lost in You===
Ultra cool song, super cool babes... I just love the MTV!!!
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anyway I had a pretty good test last night... think the questions were pretty good.. I could feel myself bouncing on my way out to the bus stop... yay!! yeah and I got pretty good grades for my essay assignment... and guess what I MET LIBRIAN today!!! was sitting at the pink tables with Siqiao and Weitian discussing our presentation and he came for lunch with his friends.. SO HAPPY... hahahah... When will I see SOCian.. haha...
My plan for this holidays is to enjoy myself a little and then get a job in a factory...well, I think it's nice to experience life a little.. If I don't do it now, I'll probably do it after I graduate... for a month or two.. Who says under-graduate can't work in factories? anyway, just want to work from the bottom...Nice thought...
Song I am totally in love with these days (no, not applicable to me right now)
You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try
I'm in over my head
You got under my skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in
And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time
Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)
Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Flowing into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind
oooh
Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
I'm going crazy in love for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
Yeah, no one can rescue me
(No one can rescue me)
ooh ooooh
Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby, baby
Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you (too lost in you)
oooh
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in everything about you
So deep (so deep), I can't sleep (no,no,no)
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)
===Sugababes, Lost in You===
Ultra cool song, super cool babes... I just love the MTV!!!
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
Look what love has done
Last night, I received a phone call from a drunk, wailing MAN... so anyway he was wailing and screaming bout lost love.. and i told him to get a life and move on.. and it was my turn to wail.. no, I didn't do that.. I was too tired.. anyway, while thinking of the incident, I almost walked into a cab that was coming my way...
I knew 'get a life and move on' was not what he needed to hear from me.. but I didn't need to hear his wailing too.. and the last thing I need to know is about is his love life, be it a fairy tale or a tragedy...
Can you imagine being dragged out of bed in the middle of the night and have your heart pierced a million times and trampled on? You see, sometimes some people just don't get it( ok, that includes me..) When it comes to relationships, it works in two direction, those binary relationships.. It's like when you are looking for a key and the key holder doesn't want to give the key to you.. MOVE ON AND TRY LOOKING FOR ANTOHER KEY... no matter how hard u tried looking for the key, how much effort you put in, how much resources you've exhausted, you're just going nowhere and if you insist, you will still end up where you are, so why bother?
So maybe I should call him up and ask him to read my blogs.. I don't think I can say all those without screaming at him..
Well, I pray for you...
Here's a song I was reminded of because of this incident...
I woke up this morning feeling lonely
There's so much my heart just does not understand
There were times when nothing really mattered
But now I find I care too much
There's life in everything I touch
Look what love has done to me
I am not who I used to be
Everything is changing, now we'll never be the same
Look at what love has done to us
Will we ever learn to trust
We're running out of time, there's so little time
Baby look what love has done to me
Oh, yeah
Now it's late at night, I'm here without you
I'm trying to make my way to where you are
Can't you see, I'll still be here waiting
Can't you see, our two hearts were always meant to be as one
Look at what love has done to us
When will we ever learn to trust
We're running out of time, there's so little time, baby
Will you look what love has done to me
I'm calling out your name, baby
Calling out, calling out, yeah, yeah, yeah
Now look at what love has done to us
When will we ever learn to trust
We're running out of time
There's so, so little time, baby
Oh, look what love has done
Baby look what love has done to me
Look what love has done
Done to me
===Look what love has done: Patty Smyth, very talented lady===
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I knew 'get a life and move on' was not what he needed to hear from me.. but I didn't need to hear his wailing too.. and the last thing I need to know is about is his love life, be it a fairy tale or a tragedy...
Can you imagine being dragged out of bed in the middle of the night and have your heart pierced a million times and trampled on? You see, sometimes some people just don't get it( ok, that includes me..) When it comes to relationships, it works in two direction, those binary relationships.. It's like when you are looking for a key and the key holder doesn't want to give the key to you.. MOVE ON AND TRY LOOKING FOR ANTOHER KEY... no matter how hard u tried looking for the key, how much effort you put in, how much resources you've exhausted, you're just going nowhere and if you insist, you will still end up where you are, so why bother?
So maybe I should call him up and ask him to read my blogs.. I don't think I can say all those without screaming at him..
Well, I pray for you...
Here's a song I was reminded of because of this incident...
I woke up this morning feeling lonely
There's so much my heart just does not understand
There were times when nothing really mattered
But now I find I care too much
There's life in everything I touch
Look what love has done to me
I am not who I used to be
Everything is changing, now we'll never be the same
Look at what love has done to us
Will we ever learn to trust
We're running out of time, there's so little time
Baby look what love has done to me
Oh, yeah
Now it's late at night, I'm here without you
I'm trying to make my way to where you are
Can't you see, I'll still be here waiting
Can't you see, our two hearts were always meant to be as one
Look at what love has done to us
When will we ever learn to trust
We're running out of time, there's so little time, baby
Will you look what love has done to me
I'm calling out your name, baby
Calling out, calling out, yeah, yeah, yeah
Now look at what love has done to us
When will we ever learn to trust
We're running out of time
There's so, so little time, baby
Oh, look what love has done
Baby look what love has done to me
Look what love has done
Done to me
===Look what love has done: Patty Smyth, very talented lady===
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
10 sway things that could happen to you in a day
1. You are on your way out, your dad is waiting for you, and guess what, the moment you look at your phone, it went off cos' the battery was flat. AND YOU DON'T HAVE A SPARE BATTERY.
2. You grabbed your brother's phone, ripped out the battery, happily changed yours with his..Only to realise his battery is about 30% better than yours... You go to school with an almost flat battery...
3.You wanted to listen to the radio, just then you remember about energy conservation for the phone, so you decided to listen to the discman instead. Guess what, the batteries are flat too!
4.The food stall you are queueing for is unsually long today..
5.Your laptop can't detect the wireless network on campus...
6.Your friend messages you just before lecture to tell you that she won't be attending.. and you could've gone home 4 hours ago if you had known..
7.You happily scribbled notes on your laptop, suddenly the lecturer realises that he forgot to give us the handouts for the lecture and all your scribbles were redundant
8.Fine.. you decided to save your first scribble on you lappie anyway, and because you were in a hurry and did not save it properly, u deleted it...
9. You headed to the loo and guess what, they are washing it and you have to go to the next toilet which is in another block..(there ain't many toilets in the canteen)
10.You were contemplating whether to walk to the pervious bus stop to avoid the crowd, and you chose not to, afterall you should be able to get a seat.. THat was SO wrong...
11.You missed all the buses and train you want to all.. but you get to watch them go..
HOW NICE...
Anyway, Yuans and Meiling came up with a new name for me... E.J.P
Elizabeth Jinx Punk
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2. You grabbed your brother's phone, ripped out the battery, happily changed yours with his..Only to realise his battery is about 30% better than yours... You go to school with an almost flat battery...
3.You wanted to listen to the radio, just then you remember about energy conservation for the phone, so you decided to listen to the discman instead. Guess what, the batteries are flat too!
4.The food stall you are queueing for is unsually long today..
5.Your laptop can't detect the wireless network on campus...
6.Your friend messages you just before lecture to tell you that she won't be attending.. and you could've gone home 4 hours ago if you had known..
7.You happily scribbled notes on your laptop, suddenly the lecturer realises that he forgot to give us the handouts for the lecture and all your scribbles were redundant
8.Fine.. you decided to save your first scribble on you lappie anyway, and because you were in a hurry and did not save it properly, u deleted it...
9. You headed to the loo and guess what, they are washing it and you have to go to the next toilet which is in another block..(there ain't many toilets in the canteen)
10.You were contemplating whether to walk to the pervious bus stop to avoid the crowd, and you chose not to, afterall you should be able to get a seat.. THat was SO wrong...
11.You missed all the buses and train you want to all.. but you get to watch them go..
HOW NICE...
Anyway, Yuans and Meiling came up with a new name for me... E.J.P
Elizabeth Jinx Punk
Monday, February 23, 2004
Am I sway or am I sway
Ultra HOT day..
Went to Plaza to get some ham.. and then might as well treat myself to a nice cuppa bubble tea.. and guess what, the cup broke and the tea was all over the NTUC plastic bag.. and that happend along my corridor.... So not to waste my $2.50, I scooped the pearls from my cup.... DAMN SHIT
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Went to Plaza to get some ham.. and then might as well treat myself to a nice cuppa bubble tea.. and guess what, the cup broke and the tea was all over the NTUC plastic bag.. and that happend along my corridor.... So not to waste my $2.50, I scooped the pearls from my cup.... DAMN SHIT
Saturday, February 21, 2004
*breathe*
Had a game of badminton with my Junling and Yuans... woahs.. haven't been using my body THAT way for a very long time.. I can feel the right side of my body aching.. but it was fun... yeah.. anything not under the sun is fun...heh..
Had lunch and sat down to talk a little and head home.. The sun is shining DAMN brightly.. and I am *blushing* all over again...
Did not study for my Thursday test.. I will do it tomorrow.. I HOPE.. was arranging my wardrobe and drawers.. too much clothes and can't bear to throw them away even though there are many that I know I can no longer fit into.. hehh...
*yawns* I need to sleep...
Had some fun with the format of this blog.. hur hur
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Had lunch and sat down to talk a little and head home.. The sun is shining DAMN brightly.. and I am *blushing* all over again...
Did not study for my Thursday test.. I will do it tomorrow.. I HOPE.. was arranging my wardrobe and drawers.. too much clothes and can't bear to throw them away even though there are many that I know I can no longer fit into.. hehh...
*yawns* I need to sleep...
Had some fun with the format of this blog.. hur hur
Friday, February 20, 2004
Unlucky week
This week haven't been the best one I must say.. First I am having a Mid Term crisis, and then the stupid laptop thing, the last time I called they asked me to send it to MPSH4...SHIet..
So anyway I DID NOT hit any quota this week... which is SUPER sad.. and tomorrow I am going to play badminton from 12-2, which means I am not going back to school to study which means my chance of hittin quota is zero, if not, negative...ULTRA SAD
Did my project at the science canteen with 2 girls and I think we should be able to click well cos' we are of the same frequency.. hahah... Met Leiqing which was pretty nice.. hahah.. and saw bestest.Went for my 2250 lecture after that and got quite a few good points for my presentation..
Got pretty good remarks from my piano teacher, guess my practice really paid of a little.. I was thinking of taking my exams in July instead of September and then maybe I can really go for my student exchange.. it's now or never.... THINK THINK THINK THINK THINK... but that will mean I have to practice really hard...
Met Qihong yesterday and we went for dinner together at clementi.. so nice to meet up with an old friend... let's just hope I cam bump into others as well, better still bump into librian or SOCian and we go for dinner together... hahaha...
Was playing with my tablet just now.. nothing much to do with it but play games.. hahaa.. so dumb...
While studying at the library yesterday, I decided to play with my phone and guess what, I accidentally blocked my sim card and had to call up singtel to ask for my PUK code and I was without a phone for like 4 hours... luckily I was going for class and not expecting a call.. So when you are bored in the library, don't play with the security settings fo your phone!
No music today.. too lazy.. too blue... too many shadows of you....
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So anyway I DID NOT hit any quota this week... which is SUPER sad.. and tomorrow I am going to play badminton from 12-2, which means I am not going back to school to study which means my chance of hittin quota is zero, if not, negative...ULTRA SAD
Did my project at the science canteen with 2 girls and I think we should be able to click well cos' we are of the same frequency.. hahah... Met Leiqing which was pretty nice.. hahah.. and saw bestest.Went for my 2250 lecture after that and got quite a few good points for my presentation..
Got pretty good remarks from my piano teacher, guess my practice really paid of a little.. I was thinking of taking my exams in July instead of September and then maybe I can really go for my student exchange.. it's now or never.... THINK THINK THINK THINK THINK... but that will mean I have to practice really hard...
Met Qihong yesterday and we went for dinner together at clementi.. so nice to meet up with an old friend... let's just hope I cam bump into others as well, better still bump into librian or SOCian and we go for dinner together... hahaha...
Was playing with my tablet just now.. nothing much to do with it but play games.. hahaa.. so dumb...
While studying at the library yesterday, I decided to play with my phone and guess what, I accidentally blocked my sim card and had to call up singtel to ask for my PUK code and I was without a phone for like 4 hours... luckily I was going for class and not expecting a call.. So when you are bored in the library, don't play with the security settings fo your phone!
No music today.. too lazy.. too blue... too many shadows of you....
Thursday, February 19, 2004
Fucking pissed
Before I elaborate on my Mid-Term crisis, I want to announce my displeasure with the NUS co-op.. Anyway what happened was that I brought the ibook to school to fix the air-port card problem and this guy, James told me to send it to comp centre at engine and if that don't work, send it to the forum computer co-op which I did, and then another idiot at the co-op told em I have to send it to Jame at MpSH4... and then I called James and he told me to ask this Indian, Jeenis (I don't know how that's spelt lah...) to open it up and see.. and that woman is not in the shop and will only be back in one or two hours time.. SO, I had to carry that blardy brick all over the place..and in the end the problem is not solves and I brought it home...-_-...
On a lighter note, I got my tablet PC.. yay!! but then the external CD drive is not working cos' of some connector problem so I will send it back to KL and get a new one...SHIET....wtfaaaaaaark...
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and then when I tried to book the badminton court, it's fully booked and blocked book by some sonofabitch...URGH... what is wrong today???? and I am having diarrhoea now and I can't sleep...URGH X 2
Baby came backt o Singapore today.. she's growing taller each time I see her.. so amazing.. and she cut her hair.. reminds me of the time when I was that age.. hahah..
so cute.. I mean her.. Anyway it's nice to give her a nice hug and cuddle and all.. oh my.. she is so loveable.. but I think she is over the 'Don't be silly' act... hahaa.. Still, I adore her...
Had Beijing noodles for lunch.. think I would like it better if it's with soup and not liang2 mian4, which means cold noodles.. think maybe that's why I'm having diarrhoea.. better check with Meiling tomorrow if she's alright.... maybe it's just me...
Went to science library.. after I've borrowed my text and all, it's already like 2 plus and when I settled down and all, I only managed to study like 1 1/2 hour and that exclude the time I tried doing bestest's econs paper which I couldn't recall anything to save my life.. OK, so I must admit the paper it's a little tough.. but if I've studied for it, I think it should be ok.. SHOULD I mean... just can't remember all the marginal stuffs and all.. hahaha... and that was my favourite subject.. hey, I even topped my cohort for that in year 1 ok...
anyway about my Mid Term crisis, yeah I am going through this phase whereby there is not enough time for anything that's related to academic stuffs and I am always drained even before I reach school. Sleep is never enough and every morning you just hope it's the weekend and every weekend you just hope it doesn't end. No amount of cute guys can motivate you to go to school and plenty more.. think many others are experiencing it.. WHY....
Francis is in Tekong feeding some mosquitoes now, I think?
Oh, oh.. there's another sway thing that happened to me today... The lecturer was sitting behind me during tutorial and I didn't notice, so I was doing all my usual nonsensical stuffs like playing with the eraser, pen, stuffs from my pencil case and on top of that, replying to a message bestest sent... GAWD.... And I think Anand either hates me or is totally in love with me cos' he never fails to ask for my opinion in class.. Anand is my tutor, by the way.. I wouldn't mind if he is in love with me since he is cute and d.e.e.p.... naah, it's just that my name is easy to pronounce.. it happens every sem.. it used to be KK seet and then Kelvin Low. last sem was my safest and now Anand... HAis... I shall change my name to ERMENEGILDE. don't ask me how to pronounce it, I don't know and that's the point.. French, so sophisticated. So please for goodness sake, as a favour to your child, name them names that you can't even pronounce so that they won't have to go through this kind of shit..
Oh and yesterday when I was going home, I took 154, thinking that 184 would not come and then took 61, hoping to catch a bus at bukit timah and in the end, I got onto 184. I guess sometimes after going one big round, you find yourself back at the origin. What the hell.. luckily I am using concession... but in life, is there any concession for us?
song of the day:
Guess mine is not the first heart broken
My eyes are not the first to cry
I'm not the first to know
There's just no getting over you
You know I'm just a fool who's willing
To sit around and wait for you
But, baby, can't you see
There's nothing else for me to do?
I'm hopelessly devoted to you
But now there's nowhere to hide
Since you pushed my love aside
I'm out of my head
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
My head is saying, "Fool, forget him."
My heart is saying, "Don't let go.
Hold on till the end."
And that's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you
But now there's nowhere to hide
Since you pushed my love aside
I'm out of my head
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
==Olivia Newton-John===
*tsk tsk*nostalgia... haha
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On a lighter note, I got my tablet PC.. yay!! but then the external CD drive is not working cos' of some connector problem so I will send it back to KL and get a new one...SHIET....wtfaaaaaaark...
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and then when I tried to book the badminton court, it's fully booked and blocked book by some sonofabitch...URGH... what is wrong today???? and I am having diarrhoea now and I can't sleep...URGH X 2
Baby came backt o Singapore today.. she's growing taller each time I see her.. so amazing.. and she cut her hair.. reminds me of the time when I was that age.. hahah..
so cute.. I mean her.. Anyway it's nice to give her a nice hug and cuddle and all.. oh my.. she is so loveable.. but I think she is over the 'Don't be silly' act... hahaa.. Still, I adore her...
Had Beijing noodles for lunch.. think I would like it better if it's with soup and not liang2 mian4, which means cold noodles.. think maybe that's why I'm having diarrhoea.. better check with Meiling tomorrow if she's alright.... maybe it's just me...
Went to science library.. after I've borrowed my text and all, it's already like 2 plus and when I settled down and all, I only managed to study like 1 1/2 hour and that exclude the time I tried doing bestest's econs paper which I couldn't recall anything to save my life.. OK, so I must admit the paper it's a little tough.. but if I've studied for it, I think it should be ok.. SHOULD I mean... just can't remember all the marginal stuffs and all.. hahaha... and that was my favourite subject.. hey, I even topped my cohort for that in year 1 ok...
anyway about my Mid Term crisis, yeah I am going through this phase whereby there is not enough time for anything that's related to academic stuffs and I am always drained even before I reach school. Sleep is never enough and every morning you just hope it's the weekend and every weekend you just hope it doesn't end. No amount of cute guys can motivate you to go to school and plenty more.. think many others are experiencing it.. WHY....
Francis is in Tekong feeding some mosquitoes now, I think?
Oh, oh.. there's another sway thing that happened to me today... The lecturer was sitting behind me during tutorial and I didn't notice, so I was doing all my usual nonsensical stuffs like playing with the eraser, pen, stuffs from my pencil case and on top of that, replying to a message bestest sent... GAWD.... And I think Anand either hates me or is totally in love with me cos' he never fails to ask for my opinion in class.. Anand is my tutor, by the way.. I wouldn't mind if he is in love with me since he is cute and d.e.e.p.... naah, it's just that my name is easy to pronounce.. it happens every sem.. it used to be KK seet and then Kelvin Low. last sem was my safest and now Anand... HAis... I shall change my name to ERMENEGILDE. don't ask me how to pronounce it, I don't know and that's the point.. French, so sophisticated. So please for goodness sake, as a favour to your child, name them names that you can't even pronounce so that they won't have to go through this kind of shit..
Oh and yesterday when I was going home, I took 154, thinking that 184 would not come and then took 61, hoping to catch a bus at bukit timah and in the end, I got onto 184. I guess sometimes after going one big round, you find yourself back at the origin. What the hell.. luckily I am using concession... but in life, is there any concession for us?
song of the day:
Guess mine is not the first heart broken
My eyes are not the first to cry
I'm not the first to know
There's just no getting over you
You know I'm just a fool who's willing
To sit around and wait for you
But, baby, can't you see
There's nothing else for me to do?
I'm hopelessly devoted to you
But now there's nowhere to hide
Since you pushed my love aside
I'm out of my head
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
My head is saying, "Fool, forget him."
My heart is saying, "Don't let go.
Hold on till the end."
And that's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you
But now there's nowhere to hide
Since you pushed my love aside
I'm out of my head
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
==Olivia Newton-John===
*tsk tsk*nostalgia... haha
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
Mid Term crisis
On my way to school we Yuans today, I figured that I am facing mid-term crisis..
And I happily deleted my elaboration on the syntoms..SHIET... I shall continue tomorrow.. VERY tired.... hey guys say bye Francis, see you in 2 weeks time~~~
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And I happily deleted my elaboration on the syntoms..SHIET... I shall continue tomorrow.. VERY tired.... hey guys say bye Francis, see you in 2 weeks time~~~
Monday, February 16, 2004
Sore eye
Last night I rubbed my eyes too much that I had sore eyeS today... and I am going to sleep..
Litereally dragged myself to school today... I even wanted to go home when I was at Clementi.. URGH... Mid-Term syndrome I guess.. A test tomorrow and no, I have nto studied for it yet and I am going to kill, or rather, the paper is going to kill me tomorrow.. Doesn't matter.. Whatever....
Went to Science library today to study one chapter... Super low morale since I did not meet any cute guys.. I shall name them Socian since the guy, my cousin's friend is from SOC and the other Librian, not that he is Libra or anything.. Just that I usually bump into him in library.. So anyway, I thought I would bump into Librian today since he seems to be camping there.. Well, maybe he knows that I stalk him with my eyes and he's avoiding me.. maybe he's hiding under some table some where... maybe he decided not to study in the library anymore..because of me... maybe some car came and knocked him down while he was on his way to the library.. maybe he fell into the whole at the road werks on his way to the library.. maybe he got flushed away by the toilet bowl while doing his business in the library.. maybe he got buried by the books in the library.. maybe he rolled down the stairs in the library and was sent to the hospital... maybe he got chocked eating cai4 fan4 before he went to the library.. Maybe he was punished by the tutor and he had to stay back to do his tutorial so he can't go to the library.. maybe he lost his way to the library.. OK..I need to stop that...
So, my point is, I did not hti any quota at all... -_-
no song worth mentioning today since I was really sleepy cos' I did not have a good night sleep... Project meeting AGAIN tomorrow... at Science..*yippieee* Hope I get to hit quota...
And please Lord, don't let me fail too badly tomorrow.. I promise I'll go to church on Sunday..
Your Truly,
Faithful
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Litereally dragged myself to school today... I even wanted to go home when I was at Clementi.. URGH... Mid-Term syndrome I guess.. A test tomorrow and no, I have nto studied for it yet and I am going to kill, or rather, the paper is going to kill me tomorrow.. Doesn't matter.. Whatever....
Went to Science library today to study one chapter... Super low morale since I did not meet any cute guys.. I shall name them Socian since the guy, my cousin's friend is from SOC and the other Librian, not that he is Libra or anything.. Just that I usually bump into him in library.. So anyway, I thought I would bump into Librian today since he seems to be camping there.. Well, maybe he knows that I stalk him with my eyes and he's avoiding me.. maybe he's hiding under some table some where... maybe he decided not to study in the library anymore..because of me... maybe some car came and knocked him down while he was on his way to the library.. maybe he fell into the whole at the road werks on his way to the library.. maybe he got flushed away by the toilet bowl while doing his business in the library.. maybe he got buried by the books in the library.. maybe he rolled down the stairs in the library and was sent to the hospital... maybe he got chocked eating cai4 fan4 before he went to the library.. Maybe he was punished by the tutor and he had to stay back to do his tutorial so he can't go to the library.. maybe he lost his way to the library.. OK..I need to stop that...
So, my point is, I did not hti any quota at all... -_-
no song worth mentioning today since I was really sleepy cos' I did not have a good night sleep... Project meeting AGAIN tomorrow... at Science..*yippieee* Hope I get to hit quota...
And please Lord, don't let me fail too badly tomorrow.. I promise I'll go to church on Sunday..
Your Truly,
Faithful
Sunday, February 15, 2004
Wings, anyone?
You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.
You are blessed with FAERY wings. Beauty,
laughter, life, magic...that's what you are all
about. You are refreshingly innocent and happy
with your life of purity and play. Life's a
game and it's a good one. In your eyes there's
no way to lose! You can be very mischeivous and
have been known to cause trouble, but it's all
in the name of fun and not meant to really harm
anyone. You like to play tricks on people who
aren't quite as bright or clever as you - which
is almost everyone. Nature is the setting you
prefer to be in - Always. Barefoot and wild you
can't be tamed. You're probably a restless
spirit who loves to travel, and quite a
dreamer. Your creativity is astounding and your
art (of whatever media - from writing to
painting to drama) is like something from
another world - ethereal and often very
fantasy-oriented. You can either be a social
butterfly or a loner with their head in the
clouds - but rarely inbetween. You stubbornly
refuse to accept responsibility or to give in
to the wishes of others - unless you feel like
it. You have a strong passion for music and
can't imagine life without it. You'll grow up
someday, but you'll always be a child at heart.
You are adventurous and love to take risks, and
feel a deep connection with the weather,
plants, and animals. You prefer sunshine to
thunder or snow, the warmth of summer to
autumn's chill, and quiet forests to suburban
backyards. Magic through and through, you are
far more powerful than you seem, and are
capable of being extremely passionate. Though
you can be childish, naive, stubborn, and
self-absorbed, one thing is certain - life with
you will never be boring!
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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One I wish I am and the other, what I truly is... Those who knows, knows lah...
Saturday, February 14, 2004
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY~~
Woke up late today so I did not give tuition..
Then Hurriedly rush down to Science library, not so much with the intention to mug but to see if cute guy is there... and he did come in at 1 plus to borrow a few books.. I was stalking him with my eyes and then he turned to this corner where I could no longer stalk without being obvious, so I went back to my books.. and just as I was going to put my highlighter into my mouth, he re-appeared. And I poked the highlighter into my chin. Gawd, He must think I am stupid or what... Anyway he left and I was left in the DAMN COLD science library to study... So I manage to read all my readings for one module.. but not in detail.. oh well... But I hit the quota for the weekend? to see him at least once..*bish*
Anyway I must really apologise to my 2 close friends for 'putting them aeroplane'. The story goes like this: After my mugging session, Coins and Biling came to look for me and we went to fongseng for nasi lemak and niqqi's prata.. Instead of banana cheese, they gave us banana oni...SHIET. Well, Shiling got to go to CCK, so the plan was I go home to deliver some prata and then meet them at BP plaza. And after delivering the pratas, I sunk into the cosy sofa and rooted myself there... and the rest is history.. hahaha... So very sorry pals!
something I read on Coin's blog which I found it extremely amusing..
**notice* looking for SQPS 1994 6G classmates ..... (excludes mixxxxle.... )**
Those who know who she is knows lah, those who don't, too bad....
Don't knwo why I find it amusing.. but.. hahah
Today on the bus I saw this bunch of secondary school kids going to Sentosa, I assume since they were in beach wear.. Which reminded me of my 4E5.. I mean my classmates from 4E5... it's been so long since we did anything together.. as in the usual party of people... Then there was me, Biling, Langyi, Yinghui, WWS, Wenwei, Adrian, Toady..Occasionally Kim, Cat and some others... I guess that was one of the most carefree days.. haha... There was once we were so boliao we ended up playing truth and dare on the 'causeway' to Sentosa.. I still got the pictures we took.. DUMB.. hahaha.... and the JEC days.... And I had this challenge with Adrian to see who can finish a Big Mac which least number of chews... hahaha... These days are spent reminiscing... haha... My lost youth...
How was my day? Pretty good..I think it's one's own attitude.. You're pathetic only if you believe that u are... afterall, it's just another ordinary saturday which restaurants are making big bucks and enjoying good business..
TTSH appointment next week, which means needles and urine test... Hope I'm used to it already... yeah, I think I am getting used to it... no big deal..
Song of the day:
many Avril Lavigne songs were running in my head, prolly cos I did not listen to my discman today at all..*wow*There's another nice song:
Goodbye, no use leading with our chins, this is where our story ends,
Never lovers ever friends.
Goodbye, let our hearts call it a day, but before you walk away,
I sincerely want to say.
I wish you bluebirds in the spring, to give your heart a song to sing,
And then a kiss, but more than this, I wish you love.
And in July a lemonade to cool you in some leafy glade,
I wish you health, and more than wealth, I wish you love.
My breaking heart and I agree that you and I could never be,
So with my best, my very best, I set you free.
I wish you shelter from the storm, a cozy fire to keep you warm,
But, most of all, when snowflakes fall, I wish you love.
(musical interlude)
I wish you shelter from the storm, a cozy fire to keep you warm,
Most of all, when snowflakes fall, hot time, I wish you love.
All kinds of love, a whole gang of love.
===I wish you love, Natalie Cole===
There are many versions to this song but I think I have only heard this one and was touched by it..deeply.. I guess that's the best you can do in many situations. So, wherever you are, whatever you choose to do, whoever you are with... I wish you love.. *awww*
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Then Hurriedly rush down to Science library, not so much with the intention to mug but to see if cute guy is there... and he did come in at 1 plus to borrow a few books.. I was stalking him with my eyes and then he turned to this corner where I could no longer stalk without being obvious, so I went back to my books.. and just as I was going to put my highlighter into my mouth, he re-appeared. And I poked the highlighter into my chin. Gawd, He must think I am stupid or what... Anyway he left and I was left in the DAMN COLD science library to study... So I manage to read all my readings for one module.. but not in detail.. oh well... But I hit the quota for the weekend? to see him at least once..*bish*
Anyway I must really apologise to my 2 close friends for 'putting them aeroplane'. The story goes like this: After my mugging session, Coins and Biling came to look for me and we went to fongseng for nasi lemak and niqqi's prata.. Instead of banana cheese, they gave us banana oni...SHIET. Well, Shiling got to go to CCK, so the plan was I go home to deliver some prata and then meet them at BP plaza. And after delivering the pratas, I sunk into the cosy sofa and rooted myself there... and the rest is history.. hahaha... So very sorry pals!
something I read on Coin's blog which I found it extremely amusing..
**notice* looking for SQPS 1994 6G classmates ..... (excludes mixxxxle.... )**
Those who know who she is knows lah, those who don't, too bad....
Don't knwo why I find it amusing.. but.. hahah
Today on the bus I saw this bunch of secondary school kids going to Sentosa, I assume since they were in beach wear.. Which reminded me of my 4E5.. I mean my classmates from 4E5... it's been so long since we did anything together.. as in the usual party of people... Then there was me, Biling, Langyi, Yinghui, WWS, Wenwei, Adrian, Toady..Occasionally Kim, Cat and some others... I guess that was one of the most carefree days.. haha... There was once we were so boliao we ended up playing truth and dare on the 'causeway' to Sentosa.. I still got the pictures we took.. DUMB.. hahaha.... and the JEC days.... And I had this challenge with Adrian to see who can finish a Big Mac which least number of chews... hahaha... These days are spent reminiscing... haha... My lost youth...
How was my day? Pretty good..I think it's one's own attitude.. You're pathetic only if you believe that u are... afterall, it's just another ordinary saturday which restaurants are making big bucks and enjoying good business..
TTSH appointment next week, which means needles and urine test... Hope I'm used to it already... yeah, I think I am getting used to it... no big deal..
Song of the day:
many Avril Lavigne songs were running in my head, prolly cos I did not listen to my discman today at all..*wow*There's another nice song:
Goodbye, no use leading with our chins, this is where our story ends,
Never lovers ever friends.
Goodbye, let our hearts call it a day, but before you walk away,
I sincerely want to say.
I wish you bluebirds in the spring, to give your heart a song to sing,
And then a kiss, but more than this, I wish you love.
And in July a lemonade to cool you in some leafy glade,
I wish you health, and more than wealth, I wish you love.
My breaking heart and I agree that you and I could never be,
So with my best, my very best, I set you free.
I wish you shelter from the storm, a cozy fire to keep you warm,
But, most of all, when snowflakes fall, I wish you love.
(musical interlude)
I wish you shelter from the storm, a cozy fire to keep you warm,
Most of all, when snowflakes fall, hot time, I wish you love.
All kinds of love, a whole gang of love.
===I wish you love, Natalie Cole===
There are many versions to this song but I think I have only heard this one and was touched by it..deeply.. I guess that's the best you can do in many situations. So, wherever you are, whatever you choose to do, whoever you are with... I wish you love.. *awww*
Friday, February 13, 2004
rem·i·nisce
Was reading the papers today and the people of Black eye peas like to spell like that. So the leading man is called Wil.l.iam or something alone those lines.. My name is El.l.ie.
Anyway, I spent 3/4 of today dazing.. not that I am really awake now but I just want to jot down some stuffs I thought about to day and might forget by tomorrow..Yeah so today was a day of reminiscing... nothing much just that my mind keep drifting back to the past..(oh no, Im not going to die right??)
I saw these kids running after the bus and suddenly I thought of how it's likfe to be sprinting on the track.. I forgot how it felt like until today..hmmm.. come to think of it..I used to be rather sporty.. that was like before 16? or 15? or 14? hahahah.. Don't ask me what happened along the way..-_-''' Then there was these hearts everywhere.. people holding roses and all... I remembered an excerpt of a conversation with Su when I was in yr 1 or was is yr 2? Anyway what happened was we were hanging out at PS that time and then we came across these tiny lil' hearts, smaller than the size of my palm.. very cute.. so we were saying how cute they were... And I was telling Su wouldn't it be romantic to 'hand' the heart to the person you love? and we were so thrilled with the idea and he was like trying to figure out how to sew one so that the whole thing will be doubly sincere..awwww...Can't remember if I bought the heart in the end, or if I did, who did I 'hand' it to, or was it 'handed' out at all.. hahaha...that was pretty long ago..Sweet memories of times when he didn't matter so much...
The 2250 lecture is getting lesser and lesser people, which is good so I can pay more attention and get less irritated by the kao pei people... Yesterday I saw 2 guys at Science. One is the Science cute guy, I was rather disappointed that I didn't see him at the library, and was caught by surprise to see him at the canteen when I was going for 3261 lecture... You know, like you heart almost jumped out..GAWD.... and then there's another cute guy who is a friend of my cousin who went to the same church and who stays near me. Think he's SOC student. Which reminded me of Xinying (the only gurl in this universe who is resisting friendster). here was once we were having lunch at arts an then we bumped into UY Shyam and friend and his friend is the cute one.. anyway they kind of know each other.. so Xinying was totally exhilarated when she manages to smile at him.. and she was like telling me:" ok, I've hit the quota for today, to smile at two cute guys I know.." Yeah so yesterday when I met the two guys, I was reminded of Xinying's quota theory. I didn't smile at them but hey, I met them twice in this week, hope there's more to come.. Oh, why is Arts so boring???
Met Gwyn for lunch on Wednesday at Science and she liked the Ban3 Mian4. I had Laksa Yong Tau Fu and had a diarrhoea after that.. and it's a little tasteless.. oh well... then I went to do my research paper in the library...
Got a test coming up on Tuesday..Don't think I will be watching the videos.. Hope I won't really get tested...*cross my fingers*
Tomorrow is the big V day... Was talking to Miss Chang, my piano teacher about it... She's married but I'm used to calling her Miss Chang..so.. anyway she got her hubby a Dunhill wallet which costs about $450... that's more or less my net assets.(assets-liablilties)..and what am I going to do tomorrow? I am going to mug for my coming tests...note it's tests, with an 'S'.. how pathetic.. hahaha.... but I'll be meeting Coins and Biling for prata at FongSeng.. That should make my day better.. I hope....projects' coming up... SHIET....
Oh before I forget, I think Fantasia (american idol) reminds me more of Billie Holiday than Macy Gray...but let's hope her life is not as sad as Billie Holiday's...
Well, hope I see the cute guys tomorrow... Luck to me..*wink wink*
Song of the say:
Well it's a most peculiar feeling, like sunburn in the evening
With dark clouds on their way
And you think it's most unlikely life could ever shine as brightly
Once the sun has gone and the pressure's on
And the rain is here again
But you don't need the sunshine
You don't need the good times
Don't need anything anyone's giving (anyone's giving)
And I don't mind your lies so keep on talking
But do you find the change in the seasons affects you without reason?
You've greetings but nothing more to say
And you swear you'd feel much better if only summer'd last forever
But the sky is clear and you're nowhere near
And the rain is here again
But you don't need the sunshine (I don't mind the rain)
You don't need the good times (you could feel the same)
Lean on me maybe you could see it through
If you would only believe a single word is true
You don't need the sunshine
Don't need the good times
Don't need anything anyone's giving (anyone's giving)
And I don't mind your lies so keep on talking
Well I throw away my sunshines, my so-called little lifelines
Do you know what I mean?
When I decided that the answer could not be bought across the counter
My sista dista has left for good
Now the rain has gone away
And you don't need the sunshine
Don't need the good times
Don't need anything anyone's giving (anyone's giving)
And I don't mind your lies so keep on talking
Don't need the sunshine
(the rain has gone away)
Don't need the good times
Don't need anything anyone's giving
Don't need the sunshine
(the rain has gone away)
Don't need the good times
Don't need anything anyone's giving
Don't need the sunshine
(the rain has gone away)
Don't need the good times
Don't need anything anyone's giving
Don't need the sunshine
(the rain has gone away)
Don't need the good times
Don't need anything anyone's giving
And I don't mind your lies so keep on talking
===Don't need the sunshine: Catatonia===
Today it's an ULTRA sunny day and I was listening to htis on my discman...PERFECT.
OH,OH, before I forget..Just some vocabulary I learnt today, thought it'll be good to share..
1. Ereuthophobia: Fear of blushing (my face is usually red, so I don't think I have that)
2. Anlophobia: Fear of commitment (sounds familiar..)
3. Zelophobia: Fear of jealousy (huh?)
4. Amoraphobia: Fear of love (not yet, not yet..)
5. Ganophobia: Fear of Marriage (I wana be a taitai, so I'll get married yea?)
6. Arotophobia: Fear of physical love (U mean when people PDA U feel disgusted?)
7. Hedonophobia: Fear of touching or being touched (I'll scream)
8. Gynophobia: Fear of Girls (Zhichao? Speaking like I know him.. hahah)
9. Androphobia: Fear of Men (hurhur..)
Still got many more.. add on some other time...DOH!
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Anyway, I spent 3/4 of today dazing.. not that I am really awake now but I just want to jot down some stuffs I thought about to day and might forget by tomorrow..Yeah so today was a day of reminiscing... nothing much just that my mind keep drifting back to the past..(oh no, Im not going to die right??)
I saw these kids running after the bus and suddenly I thought of how it's likfe to be sprinting on the track.. I forgot how it felt like until today..hmmm.. come to think of it..I used to be rather sporty.. that was like before 16? or 15? or 14? hahahah.. Don't ask me what happened along the way..-_-''' Then there was these hearts everywhere.. people holding roses and all... I remembered an excerpt of a conversation with Su when I was in yr 1 or was is yr 2? Anyway what happened was we were hanging out at PS that time and then we came across these tiny lil' hearts, smaller than the size of my palm.. very cute.. so we were saying how cute they were... And I was telling Su wouldn't it be romantic to 'hand' the heart to the person you love? and we were so thrilled with the idea and he was like trying to figure out how to sew one so that the whole thing will be doubly sincere..awwww...Can't remember if I bought the heart in the end, or if I did, who did I 'hand' it to, or was it 'handed' out at all.. hahaha...that was pretty long ago..Sweet memories of times when he didn't matter so much...
The 2250 lecture is getting lesser and lesser people, which is good so I can pay more attention and get less irritated by the kao pei people... Yesterday I saw 2 guys at Science. One is the Science cute guy, I was rather disappointed that I didn't see him at the library, and was caught by surprise to see him at the canteen when I was going for 3261 lecture... You know, like you heart almost jumped out..GAWD.... and then there's another cute guy who is a friend of my cousin who went to the same church and who stays near me. Think he's SOC student. Which reminded me of Xinying (the only gurl in this universe who is resisting friendster). here was once we were having lunch at arts an then we bumped into UY Shyam and friend and his friend is the cute one.. anyway they kind of know each other.. so Xinying was totally exhilarated when she manages to smile at him.. and she was like telling me:" ok, I've hit the quota for today, to smile at two cute guys I know.." Yeah so yesterday when I met the two guys, I was reminded of Xinying's quota theory. I didn't smile at them but hey, I met them twice in this week, hope there's more to come.. Oh, why is Arts so boring???
Met Gwyn for lunch on Wednesday at Science and she liked the Ban3 Mian4. I had Laksa Yong Tau Fu and had a diarrhoea after that.. and it's a little tasteless.. oh well... then I went to do my research paper in the library...
Got a test coming up on Tuesday..Don't think I will be watching the videos.. Hope I won't really get tested...*cross my fingers*
Tomorrow is the big V day... Was talking to Miss Chang, my piano teacher about it... She's married but I'm used to calling her Miss Chang..so.. anyway she got her hubby a Dunhill wallet which costs about $450... that's more or less my net assets.(assets-liablilties)..and what am I going to do tomorrow? I am going to mug for my coming tests...note it's tests, with an 'S'.. how pathetic.. hahaha.... but I'll be meeting Coins and Biling for prata at FongSeng.. That should make my day better.. I hope....projects' coming up... SHIET....
Oh before I forget, I think Fantasia (american idol) reminds me more of Billie Holiday than Macy Gray...but let's hope her life is not as sad as Billie Holiday's...
Well, hope I see the cute guys tomorrow... Luck to me..*wink wink*
Song of the say:
Well it's a most peculiar feeling, like sunburn in the evening
With dark clouds on their way
And you think it's most unlikely life could ever shine as brightly
Once the sun has gone and the pressure's on
And the rain is here again
But you don't need the sunshine
You don't need the good times
Don't need anything anyone's giving (anyone's giving)
And I don't mind your lies so keep on talking
But do you find the change in the seasons affects you without reason?
You've greetings but nothing more to say
And you swear you'd feel much better if only summer'd last forever
But the sky is clear and you're nowhere near
And the rain is here again
But you don't need the sunshine (I don't mind the rain)
You don't need the good times (you could feel the same)
Lean on me maybe you could see it through
If you would only believe a single word is true
You don't need the sunshine
Don't need the good times
Don't need anything anyone's giving (anyone's giving)
And I don't mind your lies so keep on talking
Well I throw away my sunshines, my so-called little lifelines
Do you know what I mean?
When I decided that the answer could not be bought across the counter
My sista dista has left for good
Now the rain has gone away
And you don't need the sunshine
Don't need the good times
Don't need anything anyone's giving (anyone's giving)
And I don't mind your lies so keep on talking
Don't need the sunshine
(the rain has gone away)
Don't need the good times
Don't need anything anyone's giving
Don't need the sunshine
(the rain has gone away)
Don't need the good times
Don't need anything anyone's giving
Don't need the sunshine
(the rain has gone away)
Don't need the good times
Don't need anything anyone's giving
Don't need the sunshine
(the rain has gone away)
Don't need the good times
Don't need anything anyone's giving
And I don't mind your lies so keep on talking
===Don't need the sunshine: Catatonia===
Today it's an ULTRA sunny day and I was listening to htis on my discman...PERFECT.
OH,OH, before I forget..Just some vocabulary I learnt today, thought it'll be good to share..
1. Ereuthophobia: Fear of blushing (my face is usually red, so I don't think I have that)
2. Anlophobia: Fear of commitment (sounds familiar..)
3. Zelophobia: Fear of jealousy (huh?)
4. Amoraphobia: Fear of love (not yet, not yet..)
5. Ganophobia: Fear of Marriage (I wana be a taitai, so I'll get married yea?)
6. Arotophobia: Fear of physical love (U mean when people PDA U feel disgusted?)
7. Hedonophobia: Fear of touching or being touched (I'll scream)
8. Gynophobia: Fear of Girls (Zhichao? Speaking like I know him.. hahah)
9. Androphobia: Fear of Men (hurhur..)
Still got many more.. add on some other time...DOH!
Monday, February 09, 2004
Avril Lavigne
I am totally addicted to her CD... and I wonder if it's the effects of her CD, I find myself oggling at young BOYS.. hahaha... I shall not go into that before it gets really gross.. hahah! Well, I guess it's good to be back into the mood to oggle again.. -_-
Listening to my Sun Yanzi Albums on my discman with my NEW speakers that I got from Science co-op at $9.50... Very nice, as in looks very nice.. Black, matches my screen and my computer... I'm going to get black mouse and keyboard soon... heheh..
V-day is approaching... I prefer to call it Friendship day... We used to give out chocolates and candies and lil' cards to everyone in JI...Boy, I missed those days..
Lately I think V-day is becoming more and more pointless, guess it's overly-commercialised and have somehow lost it's meaning... It's becoming a day for chocolate and gifts factories to market their leftovers from christmas after some repackaging.. for guys to buy flowers (other days, it's a taboo!).. for girls to exploit their boyfriends.. for the gutless to date their crushes..
Nothing much today, went for my project discussion for 3261, these guys are really cheem, whether you are talking about the programming part or the conjoint analyis part...GAWD.. I felt so STEW-PERD...Will work harder...I MEAN IT
Met Sylvia at the bus stop today.. Just chatted a little before my bus came.. We were like sisters before she left for Aust and now I don't even know that she've shifted.. ok, now I know... I guess, there's too much I went through the past year that made the gap between us.. She's not there and I was too busy wallowing in self-pity to keep her updated and we just drifted..URGH....and speaking of her reminded me of another close friend, Kaili.. Was I too selfish, too narrow-minded, too self-righteous or was it her fault afterall? I can't be sure, but relationships can be really fragile and I've learnt to handle them with care..Well, I just hope all will be fine for both girls...
Well, I think that is all for the day... Was pretty dazed and was all set to go to bed at 9 but the aircon refused to cool and stuffs so that's why I am here writing a blog.. Oh yah, I met the cute science guy at the co-op, and he was humming in his deep, deep voice..and I couldn't stop smiling then.. hahahaha!*_*
Crap for the day:
Just as I thought I was losing grip
You held my hand and smiled
It was such a joyful trip
We hugged and went tumbling down
The best thing anyone could do for me..
Song of the day:
It's the first time I've ever felt this lonely
Wish someone would cure this pain
It's funny when you think it's gonna work out
Till you chose weed over me your so lame!
I thought you were cool until the point
Up until the point you didn't call me when you said you would
Finally figured out you're all the same
Always coming up with some kind of story
Everytime I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You can't your too tough
You think you're loveless
is that too much that i'm askin for
Thought you'd come around when I ignored you
Sorta thought you'd have the decency to change
But babe I guess you didn't take that warning
Cause I'm not about to look at your face again
Can't you see that you lie to yourself
You can't see the world through a mirror
It won't be too late when the smoke clears
Cause I'm, I am still here
But everytime I try to make you smile
You'd always go and feel sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You stand like a stone
Alone in your zone
is that too much that i'm askin for
Can't find where I am/lying here alone in fear
Afraid of the dark/no one to claim alone again
Yeah, yeah...
Can't you see that you lie to yourself
You can't see the world through a mirror
It won't be too late when the smoke clears
Cause I'm, I am still here
Everytime I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You can't your too tough
You think you're loveless
it was too much that I asked him for
--Too Much, no prizes for guessing who the singer is..--
Movie that I want to watch:
Love actually
Torque
Along came Polly
Gothika
Lost in Translation
Dogville
==By now some of my friends will know that I am one of those who can mention a whole list of movies that I want to watch and not watch a single one in the end.. mainly I am too lazy, I think it's a waste of time and money, and hey, why bother when you can catch it on TV a few years later? And for a broken, no, shattered person who can't afford to watch a play she wants to, watching a movie is more that a big NO GO..==
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Listening to my Sun Yanzi Albums on my discman with my NEW speakers that I got from Science co-op at $9.50... Very nice, as in looks very nice.. Black, matches my screen and my computer... I'm going to get black mouse and keyboard soon... heheh..
V-day is approaching... I prefer to call it Friendship day... We used to give out chocolates and candies and lil' cards to everyone in JI...Boy, I missed those days..
Lately I think V-day is becoming more and more pointless, guess it's overly-commercialised and have somehow lost it's meaning... It's becoming a day for chocolate and gifts factories to market their leftovers from christmas after some repackaging.. for guys to buy flowers (other days, it's a taboo!).. for girls to exploit their boyfriends.. for the gutless to date their crushes..
Nothing much today, went for my project discussion for 3261, these guys are really cheem, whether you are talking about the programming part or the conjoint analyis part...GAWD.. I felt so STEW-PERD...Will work harder...I MEAN IT
Met Sylvia at the bus stop today.. Just chatted a little before my bus came.. We were like sisters before she left for Aust and now I don't even know that she've shifted.. ok, now I know... I guess, there's too much I went through the past year that made the gap between us.. She's not there and I was too busy wallowing in self-pity to keep her updated and we just drifted..URGH....and speaking of her reminded me of another close friend, Kaili.. Was I too selfish, too narrow-minded, too self-righteous or was it her fault afterall? I can't be sure, but relationships can be really fragile and I've learnt to handle them with care..Well, I just hope all will be fine for both girls...
Well, I think that is all for the day... Was pretty dazed and was all set to go to bed at 9 but the aircon refused to cool and stuffs so that's why I am here writing a blog.. Oh yah, I met the cute science guy at the co-op, and he was humming in his deep, deep voice..and I couldn't stop smiling then.. hahahaha!*_*
Crap for the day:
Just as I thought I was losing grip
You held my hand and smiled
It was such a joyful trip
We hugged and went tumbling down
The best thing anyone could do for me..
Song of the day:
It's the first time I've ever felt this lonely
Wish someone would cure this pain
It's funny when you think it's gonna work out
Till you chose weed over me your so lame!
I thought you were cool until the point
Up until the point you didn't call me when you said you would
Finally figured out you're all the same
Always coming up with some kind of story
Everytime I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You can't your too tough
You think you're loveless
is that too much that i'm askin for
Thought you'd come around when I ignored you
Sorta thought you'd have the decency to change
But babe I guess you didn't take that warning
Cause I'm not about to look at your face again
Can't you see that you lie to yourself
You can't see the world through a mirror
It won't be too late when the smoke clears
Cause I'm, I am still here
But everytime I try to make you smile
You'd always go and feel sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You stand like a stone
Alone in your zone
is that too much that i'm askin for
Can't find where I am/lying here alone in fear
Afraid of the dark/no one to claim alone again
Yeah, yeah...
Can't you see that you lie to yourself
You can't see the world through a mirror
It won't be too late when the smoke clears
Cause I'm, I am still here
Everytime I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You can't your too tough
You think you're loveless
it was too much that I asked him for
--Too Much, no prizes for guessing who the singer is..--
Movie that I want to watch:
Love actually
Torque
Along came Polly
Gothika
Lost in Translation
Dogville
==By now some of my friends will know that I am one of those who can mention a whole list of movies that I want to watch and not watch a single one in the end.. mainly I am too lazy, I think it's a waste of time and money, and hey, why bother when you can catch it on TV a few years later? And for a broken, no, shattered person who can't afford to watch a play she wants to, watching a movie is more that a big NO GO..==
Friday, February 06, 2004
Cursed Thursday...
Anyway yesterday was a not-so-lucky day...Thursdays are cursed or wat? I met Qihong on the bus so we went to school together, no that's not a bad thing.. Then we saw bestest at AES's bus stop..now, maybe there's where the surse starts.. hahaha! SO Qihong had to top up his transit link and thus we went on our seperate way as I was goingt o be late... Then came Meiling and her friend.. and then we went to lecture together..'fore that I stopped by Coffee club to get myself a nice warm, rather hot, camomile tea..
After Lecture I went KR terminal to take 95 to sci.. and met Josephine from my secondary school.. and then she left and then my bus came and that BLARDY bus splahed on me.. and I was wearing white....SHIET...
ANyway, did some research on my paper due next week... and went for lecture....AND GUESS WHAT..MR Snot sat beside me AGAIN!!! and this time.. I got up immediatle and shifted myself one seat apart... *PHEW*
Needed to pee, so I left right after the formal lecture and missed out the part on how to score in an interview...-_-
Going to school later and meeting Biling and Coins..
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After Lecture I went KR terminal to take 95 to sci.. and met Josephine from my secondary school.. and then she left and then my bus came and that BLARDY bus splahed on me.. and I was wearing white....SHIET...
ANyway, did some research on my paper due next week... and went for lecture....AND GUESS WHAT..MR Snot sat beside me AGAIN!!! and this time.. I got up immediatle and shifted myself one seat apart... *PHEW*
Needed to pee, so I left right after the formal lecture and missed out the part on how to score in an interview...-_-
Going to school later and meeting Biling and Coins..
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
*_*
Still drowsy... Was s'pose to meet Feng and Gwyn for lunch but Gwyn was sick.. so I asked if Yuans wana meet me for lunch... Turned out that her lesson ended late and she did not reply until I was waiting for bestest at Kent Vale, all ready to go home.. And Bestest still haven't gotten the shade thing for his car..-_-"' Guess he'll get a powerpuff girls one in October..*clap clap clap clap clap*Anyway, thanks for the ride home...=)
So anyway I went home and settled down.. and my tummy started to growl.. So I went down to get a packet of Laksa..which is not very nice...Anyway, Had my lunch, swallowed some cough mixture and concuss till 6 plus... and I am feeling dowsy still...
My plan now is to either readthe papers or read my readings but nothing seem to get into my head..-_-"'
I guess I am going to rot in front of the TV and wait for my 9pm show...
6-8 lecture tomorrow.. hope I don't sit beside any disgusting personnel EVER..
OH anyway I met Biling on Monday to get Shiling's present and she got herself a nice esprit jacket as well.. I would've gotten it but I managed to CONTROL... yeah.. SO in the end I psychoed her into gettting it...wahahhah...The project meeting on Monday was ok... The guys in my group is pretty outspoken compared to 3210 group last sem.. Turns out that me and the other girl has less to talk about..the meeting took longer then expected.. some stuffs are not exactly necessary but oh well...
Song of the day:
I would still say it's I'm with you by Avril Lavigne...UGH... I am totally in love with that song.. and I don't think I am lonely and miserable.. I just like the whiny part that goes:
It's a damn cold night...~~~
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So anyway I went home and settled down.. and my tummy started to growl.. So I went down to get a packet of Laksa..which is not very nice...Anyway, Had my lunch, swallowed some cough mixture and concuss till 6 plus... and I am feeling dowsy still...
My plan now is to either readthe papers or read my readings but nothing seem to get into my head..-_-"'
I guess I am going to rot in front of the TV and wait for my 9pm show...
6-8 lecture tomorrow.. hope I don't sit beside any disgusting personnel EVER..
OH anyway I met Biling on Monday to get Shiling's present and she got herself a nice esprit jacket as well.. I would've gotten it but I managed to CONTROL... yeah.. SO in the end I psychoed her into gettting it...wahahhah...The project meeting on Monday was ok... The guys in my group is pretty outspoken compared to 3210 group last sem.. Turns out that me and the other girl has less to talk about..the meeting took longer then expected.. some stuffs are not exactly necessary but oh well...
Song of the day:
I would still say it's I'm with you by Avril Lavigne...UGH... I am totally in love with that song.. and I don't think I am lonely and miserable.. I just like the whiny part that goes:
It's a damn cold night...~~~
| My declaration of Love |
| I need to know how to feel without you.. I need to find myself, to give you the space you need, to move in a different direction from yours.. I want to know how life can go on without you.. I want to embrace joy, indulge in love, to enjoy every drop of sunshine that falls on me.. I will conquer my fear of living in a world without you.. I will live my life as though I had never met you... |