A life TOO ordinary..

Actually this was something I encountered yesterday, or rather someone.. so anyway, this guy came into lecture and plonked himself into the seat beside me.. not that I really minded the loss of 'privacy'... but then he had this 'familiar', call it scent on him.. reminded me of some place.. couldn't recall THEN.. and now I finally figured out it's the 'scent' of the crowd in Winter in Qingdao where many people don't own a heater and water is precious or something thus bathing and laundry ain't the 'in' thing there..
Well, back to Mr Qingdao..first he stinks..and I didn't really mind that since we are still some distance apart.. Just don't touch me!! AND THEN, the werse came.. HE WAS PICKING HIS NOSE LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS!..URGH....and if that's not bad enough, he's FLICKING his blardy SNOT everywhere!!! SHIET.... and then carry on digging and the usual stuff... then he began to bite his fingernails(ok..I do that too, so it's not that bad..but after all the snot??YUCK)and he starts to scratch his head.. and by now I am on the verge of crying already... Where the hell did that freak come from?? Don't they teach about personal hygiene???? Nose-picking is one of the most anti-social actions.. I mean let's face it, everyone picks their nose but NOT IN PUBLIC yeah? So anyway the thought of it still makes me nauseous and I am not trying to be funny here..
Well, so much said about Mr Nose picking...anyway the lecturer was pretty interesting.. just that I spent so much time trying to make sure I don't get any of those 'things' from the guy next door that I was not really listening...URGH....
And I knew from the moment I stepped into Arts compound my day was not going to be good..WHY? cos' I met Yaoxiong and he recognised me and called me..THANKS...
Ok, that's kind of mean... I take that back.. hahahWho's next? junhao from my pri sch?
Well.. today was basically fine.. went for my lecture at 2 and then went for my piano lesson...Got another angbao from my piano teacher.. YAY~
I'm going to sleep now.. TOmorrow I plan to:
-read my readings
-do tutorials
-practice on my new pieces
-search on Mutual Benefit LIfe, my case study
Yeah that's quite abit yah...
Just a little crap:
I really how much reality differ from our ideals
Weren't I a part of your future back then?
Weren't we eternity?
Weren't forever suppose to be?
Or was it just my little dream...

Song of the day:
I want to wake up in your
White, white sun
I want to wake up in your world
With no pain
But i'll just suffer in a hope to die someday
While you are numb all of the way

When you hate it you know you can feel but
When you love it you know it's not real
No

And i am resigned to this wicked fucking world
On its way to hell
The living are dead and
I hope to join them too
I know what to do and i did it well...

When you hate it you know you can feel but
When you love it you know it's not real
No

Shoot myself to love you
If i loved myself i'd be shooting you
===Marilyn Manson, Fundamentally Loathsome===
Yeah if I loved myself enough, I'll be shooting you.. hahahah

Sarah to Jean: and you, are a cow..
No one seem to be taking the conversation seriously, and I was like "oh my, why did baby say that??" and then this come:
Sarah to Jean: and your papa is a pig~
Some kind of pause..And she continued
"And I am a rabbit, just like my papa..."
OH I SEE...
Thought it's pretty funny... thought since when this 4-year old learn to insult like that.. hahaha, but she's not all that innocent..
"you know ah, Ah Boon's name is Tan Bully (Tan Boon Li), cos' she always bully me..."
AH..How convenient...
and in another episode where Boon follows boy and Soi ku to bring out the fireworks..
while watching, my baby declared:
" and ah Boon is the Tan Kaypo!" -_-"'
I must say, Kids say the darnest things...
So I was back at the 'green house' on the first day of CNY..It's really warm there since there's no rain and you pack about 20 people in a house...hahhaa
I spent most of the time playing with the kids and also playing mahjong..And I have no doubts why Mahjong survivedn centuries.. It is a game that brought everyone together..Besides the usual 'Hi' and 'Bye', and uh, 'taken ur lunch?', 2nd uncle's kids are usually isolated from us.. they are just so unsually 'shy', u may call it.. but Mahjong, it brought everyone together, english-speaking, chinese-speaking, bilingual, cantonese..you know, it's really nice.. Yep, so mahjong and disney channel, basically occupied our entire day...Did try to read on conjoint analysis...I fell asleep.
The day ended with fireworks at night.. I mean those real fireworks, those you see on NDP... hahaha... We have our mini version in the front yard..
Drive a little in Lukut and got stuck in the middle of 2 lanes.. there were shoutings and stuff in the car.. wahahhaa...Can't stand my brother..
So we went home in the afternoon..Gave the rabbit farm a miss.. Baby was so excited about going there.. so my mum asked if she knows the way, and here's the reply:
"1st you turn lydat ,then you turn lydat, then you go straight, there, the rabbit farm already" -_-
Slept the most of the day on Saturday..then met the NanHua people at night for a session of karaoke.. Francis sang for the 1st time and I must say he did a very nie job.. what an eye-opener.. So we went for pool after that and the say ended at 4 on Sunday morning.. WWS left 1/2 way..he's injured, and being so typically him, he insisted it's a fashion statement...-_-"""''
Went to my SIngapore Grandpa's grave.. Can't visit the PD one cos' they think it's taboo..Oh well...Quote baby:" Don't be silly!"
Anyway was superbly tired in the afternoon, I think if they still don't let me sleep, I am going crazy.. I almost did and almost lost my temper...
Anyway Haven't done my readings and tutorial for tomorrow...URGH....Will do it later.. I hope...
I am wondering what notebook should I get.. I think I will settle for Acer...
there's 3 models that I am considering:
TravelMate C111TCi, you know, those tablet stuff.. so cute like the 10 commandments the 2 tablets.. hahah.. anyway the weight is good.. oni 1.45 but everything is external.. but anyway I can share accessories with my brother, which brings me to my next considering model:
TravelMate 371TCi
Nothing fancy...not much comments.. hahahha
and the last: WOAH:
Ferrari 3000
Haha.. this is nice.. I mean the colour...but not the weight and size... Can't be bothered to compare the specs.. who cares? hahaha...At least I don't....
Well, considering Fujitsu as well...Tsk tsk.. tough choice.. Guess I will choose it when I go to KL again...When will I ever find time?? URGH...
Schools' in again...SHIET

Last blog of the year of the... uh..sheep?snake? dunno wat lah.. I noe it's monkey the next year~~and it's definitely going to be a better year since Monkey is one of my favourite animals..
Just got back from my Singapore granma's place ..had reunion dinner there... think my mum is just lazy to prepare at hime.. haha... the dinner was not bad..my granma's getting really senile..hmm...think it runs in the family..
Goin back to Malaysia later in the morning like 5 am? Went last minute shopping for my cousins.. got them stationery sets, nail stickers, art stuffs, toys, clothes blah blah blah...it's not nice being a jiejie... oh well...
Went for marketing tutorial today.. and formed my group.. it's not too bad... so yeah, I manage to get a group with 3 SOC students and I hope they can take care of the programming parts..*phew*
My student's mum forgot to pay me.. oh well, guess everyone's really busy these days..After that I wanted to go somewhere to get boy a silver chain, but everywhere is crowded, so I settled for a neighbourhood area.. and boy, it's like ghost town there.. everyone basically closed shop and went home.. aik..
There's this song that I was listening to by Josie and the Pussycats.. reminded me of Isk..it's through him that I got to learn about the band more, take them seriously, u noe and realise that they are not just a band from Archie comics.. so anyway.. there's this song that reminded me of Isk and the band and many other things.. so this shall be my song of the day~:

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
Is this as hard as it gets
Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and aching and tumbling and breaking

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream a world where you understand
That I dream a million sleepless nights
I dream of fire when you’re touching my hand
But it twists into smoke
When I turn on the lights

I’m speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

Ahhh
The way I wish you would
Ahhh

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I’m falling apart
Isn’t this just where we met?
And is this the last chance that I’ll ever get?
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through and not enough to you

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

===You don't see me===
I wished too hard sometimes...

I attended my 1st tutorial of the year, kind of like illegal student cos' my name is not on the list as I couldn't get the slot I want.. URGH...
So it started to rain and I was late for the next tutorial at SOC 1, which turned out to be ratehr nice.. I mean the people.. So I managed to grab 2 group mates, Siqiao and Weitian(trying damn hard to remember their names) and know 2 other people Yiqiao and Guosen(that is, if I remembered correctly..) Hope it's the same case for my 3261 tutorial.. *prays really hard*
It rained the whole afternoon and the whole evening and that made me feel rather melancholic, so the song 'Heartless rain, Heartless you' kept playing in my head and that felt DAMN pathetic..
After my nice tutorial, I went to Adrian's place to pass them their X'mas present.. hahaha...Adrian is not home, but saw Shermain.. Just dropped it and went off.. HM.. Wonder if I've made the right choice..After that Shermain called to thank me and we chat a little.. All the best to this little girl whom I've watched for years and screamed at too.. hahhaa.. think I'll miss her.. really
There is this number stored as my speed dial and is named voicemail.. so anyway, I dialed it accidentally yesterday. Then the owner of the number (obviously not voicemail anymore) messaged back and called back a couple of times..What the...
So anyone knows how to clear the speed dial memory??
Wenshen just messaged me to ask about the Loreal (or whatever brand is that)'s eye lash thing.. he is DAMN interested about the mechanisms behind it.. and what makes him think I'll be interested..*bish* So anyway I asked him to get a bottle himself and usually they will explain it on the package.. and he said he could grow some leg hair at the same time.. yeah.. some chest hair too..-_-"'
Went for tuition, my girl is quite poor thing, think I am getting mroe and more impatient with her..Oh no!!!
Still can't find the keys to Hillview house.. SHIT....
4pm lecture tomorrow.. so tempted to give myself a break.. an early one.. hahaha...
Hope I get my group for my 3261 SOON... please God!! I am getting really worried.. and I am worried about the Vietnam thing too.. What if I get it?? URGH....

Song of the day:
Melting molasses
Its been raining fire
Far too long
Waterfall corroding
My shelter
Levitated state
Float away from
Sandbag feet
As sillouettes fade
Your beauty's rich in a loveless world
Sold and Defined
By your choices
Scrape my head Off the melting floor
Violating the voices
its been raining fire
far too long
waterfall corroding
my shelter
*far from the ground, stars coming down you're falling sight into sound, I'll help you down I'm calling far from the ground, stars coming down you're falling sight into sound, I'll help you down you're calling
==Silverchair--Rain.==

yes, 3/4 of my tutorials undone.. haha.. AND I CAN'T BE BOTHERED ANYMORE!!!!
so why did I name my blog seafood day? Well, obviously I had seafood from morning till night.. and there is a large plate of brabstill on the table..
I started my day with going to church, then had breakfast with my parents..had 'fish cheats beehoon', which reminded me of bestest.. it's quite nice, just in case u are reading this.. you should check out the stall at Bukit Batok.. Somewhere near TCS's home.. then my mother went marketing and daddy and I waited in the van.. and I so needed to sh*t...
So we got home, did my business and I went to bed..(Was I a pig in my last life?) SO I did not meet Feng and Gwyn again.. told Feng that I have not done my tutorials, which is so true but I stayed home just to laze around..*oops!* Just hope they never get to read this.. hahaha...
So lunch was steamed crab and dinner was chilli crab..what the crap.. hahaha!
I think I am suffering from PDS or PSS, Permanently Dazed syndrome or Permanently Sleepy Syndrome.. When I'm not dazed, I'm sleepy..
well, my bed is calling me again...better not keep it waiting..Hope I have a good day in school tomorrow.. URGH....

Song of the day:
I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing, I wonder what are we fighting for
When I say out loud, I want to get out of this
I wonder, is there anything I'm going to miss?
I wonder how's it gonna be, When you don't know me?
How's it gonna be, When you're sure I'm not there?
How's it gonna be, When there's no one there to talk to?
Between you and me
'Cause I don't care, how's it gonna be
How's it gonna be?

Where we used to laugh, There's a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch
A silence I can't ignore
Like the hammock by the doorway we spent time in, Swings empty
I don't see lightning like last fall when it was always about to hit me
I wonder how's it gonna be, when it goes down?
How's it gonna be, when you're not around?
How's it gonna be, when you found out there was nothin' between you and me?
'Cause I don't care, how's it gonna be

And how's it gonna be, when you don't know me anymore?
And how's it gonna be

Wanna get myself back in again
The soft dive of oblivion
I wanna taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion, oblivion
How's it gonna be, when you don't know me anymore?
How's it gonna be
How's it gonna be
How's it gonna be

===How it's gonna be=== I've never failed to wonder...
I always thought how nice my life would be if you never appeared.. There are things in life that I can and I can't control.. Among the latter, the only thing not decided by God is you..And now, I only pray for the strength to walk out of this, to walk away from you.. as far as my feet can take me.. And how it's gonna be for you? I gues sthe change would've been too insignificant..

Tutorial still undone...

Fad just messaged to say how grateful to have friends like me and wished me goodnight.. haha.. I asked if he's drunk.. OK.. I know that's not the nicest thing to say to a friend who wrote u a poem in the middle of the night to show his appreciation.. oh well..
Can't sleep mainly because I slept for a couple of hours in the afternoon after tuition.. NOW I REGRET...Anyway it just dawned on me that tutorials start next week, which is like Monday for me and I have yet to touch a single bit of any of those...SHIET..
Just went 'shopping' with my parents at Jelapang..My dad likes to stock up his drink and all even when he knows that we're not at home for CNY and hardly anyone visits us.. oh well...so he got some beer, some GD and stuff... well, kai1 xin1 jiu 4 hao3..
cooked the rendang mix I bought some time... I wonder if it's the after effect of the banana overdose (if u dun noe what it is, read previous blogs) or is it the mix that' s causing my tummy to ache..till now..URGH...
Had the song 'Fen1 Shou3 Kuai4 le' repeated in my head prolly like 1000 and 1 times..wonder what that means.. hahhaa.. anyway, there's this very nice phrase in the song saying: the fact that he likes to hold umbrella for others doesn't mean you have to wait for him in the rain.. YEAH.. to add on to it, even if he sees you in the rain, he might not share his umbrella with you.. haha.. That should be my motto for 2004?
Just sent an email to a 3261 classmate who is looking for a project mate. Hope I'll be 'accepted'? haaha... I was thinking if I should mention the fact that I am from Arts and have VERY little programming skills, or rather non-existent.. anyway, I told her kind of the truth, deleting the non-existent part..My brother asked me how to compile the program after he've written the code..Seriously, I have no idea.. hahaha! Well, I'm not exaclty sure how I got the 'S' grade for my programming, but I got it anyway...
Still can't coax myself to sleep..and I don't want to do my tutorials... HELP ME!!!
Oh and I got a shock today. My student's mother actually got me a box of gan1 and bak kwah.. hahaha...I was like.. um.. pleasantly shocked? hahaa..
noticed my gums are still bleeding.. need to get some vitamin K..or maybe I shud just stick plasters.. hahaha
Haven't gone clubbing in a DAMN long while.. think I've lost all interest..one year ago, I was still working at this time..
Got a New Year card from Weijia..It's really nice and I feel so guilty for neglecting a friend.. but well, we have really got much to say if we meet each other.. U know the kind of friendship..LiZhong is in Finland now..Hais...
I think that is all for the day..Happy 22nd Fad...

Song of the day:
(was debating which one it is, so I decided to include both..)
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand.
I would understand.

The angry boy, a bit too insane,
Icing over a secret pain.
You know you don't belong.
You're the first to fight, You're way too loud,
You're The flash of light, on a burial shroud.
I know something's wrong.
Well everyone I know has got a reason, to say,
put the past away.
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, That you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand,
I would understand.
And well he's on the table, and he's gone to code.
And I do not think anyone knows,
What they're doing here.
And your friends have left you, You've been dismissed.
I never thought it would come to this, and I, I want you to know,
Everyone's got to face down the demons.
Maybe today, We can put the past away,

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend.
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in.
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand,
I would understand,
I would understand...
I would understand
I would understand
Understand

Ya ya ya ya yah
Can you put the past away,
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
I would understand
(I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,)
I would understand
(I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,)
And I would understand

====3rd EYE BLIND ===

Wo wu fa bang ni yu yan wei qu qiu quan you mei you yong
Ke shi wo duo me bu she peng you ai de na me ku tong
Ai ke yi bu wen dui cuo zhi shao you xi yue gan dong
Ru guo ta zong wei bie ren cheng san ni he ku fei wei ta deng zai yu zhong
(Verse)
Pao ka fei rang ni nuan shou xiang dang dang ni xin kou li de feng
Ni que xiang shang jie zou zou chui chui leng feng hui qing xing de duo
Ni shuo ni bu pa fen shou zhi you yi dian yi han nan guo
Qing ren jie jiu yao lai le sheng zi ji yi ge qi shi ai dui le ren qing ren jie mei tian dou guo
(Chorus)
Fen shou kuai le zhu ni kuai le
Ni ke yi zhao dao geng hao de
Bu xiang guo dong yan juan chen zhong
Jiu fei qu re dai de dao yu you yong
Fen shou kuai le qing ni kuai le
Hui bie cuo de cai neng he dui de xiang feng
Li kai jiu ai xiang zuo man che
Kan tou che le xin jiu hui shi qing lang de
Mei ren neng ba shei de xing fu mo shou
Ni fa shi ni hui huo de you xiao rong
(Verse)
(Chorus)
Ni zi xin shi hou zhen de mei duo le
----the Umbrella song.. hahaha

Back to bed, hope I can sleep..or maybe I will go and swallow another 'gan1'..
*I forgot to take my medicine, it's unintentional* repeat x 10 000

Whines contributed by Ellie at Sunday, January 18, 2004

Woke up at 9 plus today and went for the interview for te Vietnam trip. The people were pretty ok.. we laughed and talked, so I told Junling it was fine.. but it tuened out otherwise for her..and we still can't exactly figure out why.. I think maybe I look more adorable? hur hur...
Went to the cave to study a little.. finish the reading on 'Disney is EVIL' (naah, that's not the actual title, just can't remember what it is..) and then met this guy to buy his 2nd hand book and he cheated by telling me it's brand new..'I not stupid' OK...
Zapped my marketing notes.. 100++ pages.. I feel so radiated.. haha
Went for 2250 lecture.. those bitch behind me were damn noisy, why do people taking this module like to talk SOoOoOoooo much? ugrh...and the lecturer's soft and Indian accent isn't helping!!!
Met Junling after that and went to CCK together.. her for her tuition and me for piano class..went to buy some food with her since she refuse my Oreo.. and I took a sweet potato ball from her.. Nice...
Home again...basically today is a busy day, it went by rather quickly and I can hardly remember any details cos' I am really sleepy..I din get my 8 hours of sleep so I really feel DAMN deprived.. and that's not baby-ish ok... experts recommend 8 hours of sleep u know...*yawn*
Eve called to ask if I want to werk at Gazebo tonight.. I can't and no, I don't. haha..Sorry..
that's about it? oh yah, there's a cute guy in 3261.. he's the better looking version of Richard in Ally Mcbeal *oggle oggle*

Song I had in my head today:
How do cool your lips
After summer's kiss?
How do you rid the sweat
After the body bliss?

How do you turn your eyes
From the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound
Of voice you'd know anywhere?

Oh, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes
Your causal good-byes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face
Told me maybe you might have some
Advice to give on how to be insensitive
Insensitive

How do you numb your skin
After the warnest touch?
How do you slow your blood
After the body rush?
How do you fre your soul
After you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart
It's a crime to fall in love again ...

Oh, you probably won't remember me
it's probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have
some advice to give on how to be insensitive

---Jann Arden
* how I wish I could be insensitve too.. right now, I only managed to be insensible.. hahaha*

For a start today, I met bestest for lunch..Fish cheats beehoon, fish cheats porridge..that's according to Shiling's vocab by the way..
then went to school for 3206 lecture and then met Junling and had a good laugh at her AGAIN cos her slipper came off AGAIN... hahaha.. that happened last sem as well..
so I went to the library after that before going for 3216 lecture..which was pretty interesting but I was so hungry so I couldn't really concentrate.. luckily the people in front of me were kind of talking plus the lecturer, making my growling barely audible.. I thought history's going to repeat and I'm going to embarrass myself.. which I didn't..
I remembered Junling telling me the growling is due to some gas in our tummy, so I tried not to breathe to stop gases from entering.. hahaha..
I decided never to wait for 963 at 8pm last week cos' the bus will be damn crowded and I will have to wait like at least 30 minutes before it comes.. which is a waste of my precious time.. so today I took 198 and then 180 and then LRT home.. and there is this auntie who stood real close to me one 180 and feeling hungry and giddy and all, I was trying hard not to puke on her..don't understand why people like to stand so close when there's so much space elsewhere..prolly she likes my BO...whatever...
so anyway, I controoled and did not puke on her...
Went to da bao some food.. bought chee cheong fun and popiah and only realise my mum da bao-ed quite abit too..mainly ngoh hiang.. which reminds me, this is the 4th ngoh hiang I had this 2 weeks..well, had a 'gan1' aka Mandarin orange which is a little sour..I finished it anyway...still thinking if I should eat the tau suan..I think I should cos' you cannot put tau suan in the fridge.. speaking of which I must rememebr to put my chee cheong fun in the fridge soon...maybe I should eat another 'gan1'.. and then have my medicine..Hope I don't end up puking again.. what a waste of food if I do...
on the bus I was watching TV mobile and they were showing the 10 top movies.. and there's one I particularly HATE, that is the Cat in the Hat or something like that la... it's about this DAMN ugly looking cat.. I am no cat-lover for a start.. and the cat has a green face which I really can't stand (ironically) so that was one reason which I almost puked.. I think..
so anyway I made it home to watch the Channel U's Hongkie drama.. I think I am becoming more and more auntie-like...URGH....but who cares.. anyway that story is pretty interesting about a woman in coma for more than a decade and then how the coma changes so many things and how she finally get back on track..well, if only I'm the one in coma.. hahahhaa... I wonder how many times will he visit me, say, in a span of 1 yeaR?maybe never..*shrugs*
on the LRT the was this kid who was screaming cos' his mum refused to let him have his way and I had this urge to go forward and slap him in the face.. hahaha... and that sets me thinking..Should I really pursue my dream to be a special-school teacher.. I don't want to end up slapping those innocent kids.. so maybe I am really born to be a taitai..YAY~
anyway to add on to the list of movies I wana watch:
The company
and uh.. Bad Santa..
and maybe dances with the wolves..
Song of the day, nothing new, I'm with you by Avril Lavigne kept echoing in my head..
It's a DAMN cold night..
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

I'm with you, though you will never know...(don't get me wrong I am no stalker ok..)

Met biling for dinner yesterday and had pasta which was really filling and we had Tiramisu and some Mango dessert..Then went shopping for Fad's present after that.. Got him a Billabong pouch..Nice..and VERY good price I must say..
nothing much for today 'cept my bestest friend telling me that the strap of the bag that we got him for his birthday came off..like Yuans would say: ' is he lucky or is he lucky?' haha...
Haven't thought of any crap lately.. so here's some for today:
HOw many times must one fall before deciding never to walk on the same path again?
HOw many times must I weep before there's no more tears left..
On this lonely path to you, there's no beauty, only despair..
HOw many lessons must I take to know that this path is never meant for me?
Alright... I decided to add a new 'section', which is movies I thought of watching today, so the first movie that came to my mind was:
Finding Nemo yeah Disney is EVIL)
then there's Cheaper by the Dozen
and then School of Rock
and Under the Tuscan Sun..
that's quite a few.. hahaha...

Song of the day:
can you sleep as the sound hits you ears?
one at a time
an unspoken balance here
unabridged for so many years

that I should stare at
receivers
to receive her
isn't fair

don't worry I'll catch you
don't worry I'll catch you
don't ever worry

your arms in mine
any time
wouldn't trade anything
you're still my everything

to my suprise
before my eyes
you arrive

don't worry I'll catch you
don't worry I'll catch you
don't ever worry

still breaking old habits,
habits
you pulled the wool over me
and I can see everything
everything
remembering
Jinx removing

don't worry I'll catch you
don't wory I'll catch you
don't ever worry

no need for reminding
you're still all that matters to me...

---Get Up Kids..
Yeah, I'll be there to catch you..don't worry

hahaha... gobbled down a comb of banana while watching TV and had a terrible time giving tuition.. hahaha...
nothing much just that I did something I am really happy about to my brother who angered me.. whahahahhaa...
Song of the day:
I'm standing on a bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

I'm looking for a place
Searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything’s a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

Oh why is everything so confusing
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yeah yeah yeah...

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...

I'm with you---Avril Lavigne

There's a light in your eyes, never meant burning for me....

Um... Went to school on Friday to attend IF2250 which is not that bad just that the lecturer is really Indian and those idiots sitting behind me did not get the lecturer's message about not disturbing others during the lecture and they talked throughout the bloody thing... So I sat through the lecture and headed for the co-op to get my book..However this is the time of the year not to go to co-op and it being SO crowded and having a large bag isn't helping with my navigation in there.. well.. Anyway, I did not get anything and went off..Went for my piano lesson and almost got another ear piercing which I didn't cos' it's no longer the 'painless' guy who pierced for me last time...
Saturday after tuition I went back to NUS to get my book.. hahah! and shopped abit in there for snacks and all... then headed to meet Theresa and the rest to celebrate her birthday...speaking of which, it's her birthday today.. Happy Birthday! and I sha;; not reveal her age here...and then Feng and Gary came to collect some stuffs from me...and that's about it for my Satuday....
Went to church on Sunday and went shopping with my parents at ShengShiong which is one of my favourite activities cos' that's time for me to grab loads of junk food.. which I did happily... hahahaha...SO I got 2 boxes of my cereals, one box of oreo cookies, crackers, packet drinks, bottled drinks, marshmellow, and my pads.. hahahaha... was suppose to meet up with Gwyn and Feng but I was too sleepy.. so I slept my Sunday away...(I know that kind of sound like a pig...)
Anyway I watched the "renci" charity show and there's SUN YAN ZI.. and I must really hand it to Kym Ng..Given her situation, I would've sat there and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed until some helicopter comes to take me or SOMETHING... well, I made a couple of calls, let's hope my parents don't nag or what when the bill comes..
Lately I've been kind of broke-n due to my 'jobless' status... luckily my parents keep stuffing my 'funds'.. heh... just that shopping and cab has become a luxury...URGH...
nothign much I guess. .. Just finished the final touch up for my time-table... yes, I am stuck with a 5-day week..HAIS...

SO basically today is a DAMN lazy day.... just lazed at home.. did wipe off all the dust from the CD racks.. just realise I do own many CDs and I did lost many CDs too...and that's about it? oh.. and did some marketing... and cooked a rather good dinner...Was supposed to: do some marketing, go for my body check up, go to mamee's place, then to Adrian's place, then clear the mess in my room, read my readings, cook dinner..
So...yeah, basically I lazed too much...
um... nothing much today like I said...Eve asked me to go to a chalet tomorrow night..PLEASE...hahaa..I am really tired..
uh... was discussing with JL if I should have a 5 or 4 day week, which I think I will opt for the 5... this is retribution for mocking MOMO last semester...URGH... why didn't I see it coming??
I just hate this time of the year....U have to think real hard, and I think I've killed more braincells this time than my whole semester accumulated.. well...anyway 2pm lecture tomorrow.. and another 6pm one... wat crap... ahahahha...
song of the day:
No new years's day
to celebrate
no chocolate covered candy hearts to give away
no first of spring
no song to sing
in fact here's just another ordinary day
No April rain
no flowers bloom
no wedding saturday within the month of June
But what it is
Is something true
Made up of these three words that I must say to you

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart

No summer's high
No warm July
No harvest moon to light one tender August night
No autumn breeze
No falling leaves
Not even time for birds to fly to southern skies
No libra sun
No Halloween
No giving thanks to all the Christmas joy you bring
But what it is
Though old so new
To fill your heart like no three words Could ever do.

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart.

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart

Of my heart
Of my heart


----I just called to say I love you
... and I can'teven do that....

Went back to reading room to 'visit'... kind of miss that place oredy... URGH.... partly because I'm broke I think... hahaa..
Still haven't gotten the green nail polish out cos' I just dun have a bottle of remover at home~~~ whatever..
Been sick AGAIN.... and SAD AGAIN too.. hahahahaa,, really tired.. goodnight!

Went for piano today... had my favourite 'kway chap' which is basically pig's spare parts and kway tiao. Went to Clementi for breakfast with my parents yesterday.. which reminded me of the people at SOS as we have our 'breakfast' there sometimes too..
Anyway, we were talking about travelling and all.. so Miss Chang was saying how proud she is of me to be able to travel alone and all.. but if given a choice, would I want to? Maybe yes, mostly no. I was forced to be independent, forced to make decisions alone, forced to grow up earlier than many people I know.. If given a choice, I would rather share my meal with my family at the airport, have someone check in for me and direct me to the gates instead of having to do them alone.. oh well, it just got me thinking about my childhood a little.. but I guess I am happy to turn out the way I am.. so you can't really blame me or being rather individualistic yah?
My mood today has been a little unstable , first it was boredom then sad, then prettyok.. but sometimes a little angry...over nothing at all... hahahaa... I need a shrink man...Think I must go watch anger management or something...
um, the plan tomorrow is to go for tuition and then meet Theresa, Su and Fad... and head home for dinner.. I am still BROKEN.. so I better eat at home..
just realised that my time table for next semester is pretty weird, looks pretty free but I think I'm gonna get real busy and my exam time table is pretty screwed cos' everything will end within 5 days.. hahah! I am so going to die... so I better werk damn hard during the sem to prevent anything like last sem, last minute mugging..
Oh yah, did I mention that my bagge was lost when I got to Beijing and we had no bags on the first day? hahaha... it's pretty cool but a little worrying cos' all my medications are in my bagso anyway the bags were sent to HongKong before reaching us the next day... hahahaha..

Yup, I'm back home... not exactly comfortable since my room is still in a mess and I can't even type properly..oh well..
Anyway... I brought loads of stuffs home.. A toy monkey which will keep me company for a few nights before going into the crate with the rest.. blah blah blah... guess the monkey is the only one I feel like mentioning at the moment..
Today was a rather hectic day.. We left for the airport at about 7.30.. flew by MAS.. and then flew to Senai Airport JB by Air Asia cos someone wanted to try... well.. it's not bad and the staffs were pretty nice considering she gave me a 'discount' for my excess baggage.. heheh.... so waiting for the next flightwas some kind of 'bonding' time for me and mum.. hahaha... but after that I lost my temper again... Think I am some Jekyll andHyde creature...YUCK... anyway, Home Sweet Home..
I tried wishing him but the network was rather busy so I guess I only manage to send the greetings later.. whatever...I spent my magical moment in the toilet clearing my bowels.. what a way to celebrate new year.. haha~
so thre's alway resolutions to be made when it comes to this time of the year and here is goes:
Treat my parents better
Be nice to everyone
Get better grades aka focus on my studies..
AND forget about him
Enjoy my life
Spend more time on my piano
Guess that's about it.. I hope it's not just resolutions but reality by the end of the year.. and yeah I've add on a couple of pounds this year..hopefully I can shed them too.. yeah.. and I gained weight in China too.. URGH...
well, talking about China.. I did not go back to the great wall nor the palace cos I rather stay home.. and I got all my five modules that day.. so it's kind of a trade-off between spending time with my family and getting my modules... DUMB CORS..
so that's about it... rather shagged.. I was werking at this time last year.. I still miss working in the bar.. oh well....