A life TOO ordinary..

Yeah.. I'm finally LIBERATED... today's paper was overy OKAY... I think my lecturer must be mad? Trying to make us summaries the whole entire blardy module in like 1 hr 40mins? GAWD...well, so here's a question, is it better to have too many things to write and not enough time or amply time with JUST enough things to fill up the space? There were too many things today and too little time to organise my thoughts so many points were left out and some were repeated...URGH....
So I hate doing my papers in the LTs.. it's really uncomfortable and I can't really write properly as the 'table' is not exactly stable and you have to bend to write and it really hurts the back and neck...You get what I mean....
So today after my papers I went to get my long-awaited tuition pay.. YAY...and bought some assessment books for my kid and also something for Shermain..My EX kid.. Well, compared to Adrian, I suspect I have hardly gotten her anything really expensive, so this time I got her the Mapped compasses which is a really neat piece of mathematical tool that I'm sure any kid would be proud of..I've got one myself and I can always remember the kind of pride I have in that piece of metal, even if it belonged to my brother... So anyway, I hope that will be something that will follow her up the educational ladder...Gee..I'll miss the food.. hahaha.. and the kids as well.. really..
I've almost missed my favourite show The Bachelor, even though I already know who Andrew is going to choose, but it's ncie to watch it anyway..Well, haven't been visiting friendster lately.. it's really a dread having to wait... and wait.. and wait... and wait...Well, Andrew is going to choose Jen and dump Kristen..YAY~~~
Guess that's it... Gum has been bleeding since...hahaha...This could only mean 2 things... Hope it's the one I think it is.... Well, going to get my blood sucked out again like..next week...Well, that will explain my gums.. I think...
So anyway, I'm going to sleep now....Brain DEAD....hahaha

Had popiah today... Home-made.. Nice... though not as good as I imagined but well..
Today is an utterly USELESS UNCONSTRUCtIVE day which I spent at home ROTTINg.. yeah.. think it's mental burn out after a long period of mugging...URGH...
So tomorrow I will be heading back to the Science cave and MUG...Shit man.. hahaha
Anyway, Adrian scored 240 for his PSLE, which I thought it's pretty good ( at least better than me!!) but I think he could've done better...well, he did well anyway..
Thinking of getting him a thumb drive... but that's rather costly, so I better think about it HARD...
Nothing much today..Went through yinghui's 'invitation' list whish is rather short, well she is still the same simple gurl I've known when we were 12.. hahaa...actually simple is not what I meant but right now I think I am having a mental block so that's the best werd I can figure...
ok.. so I hope everything goes weill tomorrow at the cave and that I will MUG constructively and get something out of it... YEAH....
My mood today? Pretty stoned but here's something I come up with:
Today was a good day
I spent it on myself
There were no thoughts about anything that has to do with you
And I am really happy about that..

Oh well, 2 more papers down.. one more to go... And that is on THURSDAY... and I have not touched a bit of it yet...
Anyway, today I reached school one hour earlier, which is like 8 in the morning.. and I so wanted to shoot myself.. hahaa...Was in the Sci Library after IT1002 paper, which I am so going to fail, and then had to rush back to Arts to take IF3202..Which is better than IT1002, but not very much anyway...
So yeah, today is not exactly a good day... Met this 'uncle' on the bus who is such a blardy turn off, he speaks so loud like he owns the blardy bus and brags about his bloody PC and even got his facts wrong and he littered on the bus... That SonofaB^&%h... so anyway I had to blast my mp3 so not to hear his bragging.. wat a braggat...URGHh...
Met blue-hair girl in the library today again.. she was sitting beside my private condo...Wanted to go back to Sci Library after my 1pm paper to MUG but then again, I was STARVING and tired.. so I decided to head home to r..o..t... Which I did..
Ting called me today and she kind of figured that I want to quit SOON... I mean really soon.. like maybe this coming Friday? I hope...Felt bad about it but I really HATE going to work... and of course that will mean I have less disposable income..but who cares..at least for now...
Anyway, me and Huis are discussing our Big Day..Hope we are really lucky to get that blardy chalet in such short notice... if not, I really don't mind having a simple steamboat dinner at Marina South... hehh...
Just came out of the toilet.. had diarrhea..again...And some morons in my neighbourhood had been engaging in some noisy activities and I don't-know-and-couldn't-be-bothered-to-find-out what it is... and that noise sounds like some fireworks are something...But I think it's just how it sounds and it's DAMN IRRITATING!!!
Can't believe how time flies.. 2 weeks ago I was mugging at the science library with Feng and then Junling and TCS and now they're all liberated and I am stuck with one dumb cybercrime paper which I think I am going to fare damn badly...URGH..
Haven't contacted him in a while...Guess he is busy with stuffs, as usual and not like it makes any difference to him whether I contacted him or not.. maybe it did.. in a negative way.. haha!
Well, I think that's about it today...Just want to share a nice song of the day by Catatonia--Dead from the waist down:
VIctory is empty
There are lessons in defeat
But we're dead from the waist down
We are sleeping on our feet
We stole the songs from birds in trees
Bought our time on easy street
Now our paths they never meet
We chose to court and flatter greed, ego disposability
I caught a glimpse, and it's not me
---And there's the part I always bug my 99F classmates with:
MAKE HAY NOT WAR
MAKE HAY NOT WAR
MAKE HAY NOT WAR
OR ELSE WE'RE DONE FOR
And we're D from the W down
====oh man, this really brings back loads of fond memories...

Any crap for today? Let me think...
Neh... not today...=)

Oh well.. it's another day.. Went for piano lesson in the morning and then back to the NUS cave to mug...urgh...I am getting more and more panicky... one more chapter left for dynamics but I have yet to study for my programming and I am so going to fail that... ARGH.....
anyway I have many things waiting for me to do after exams, namely driving, mess-clearing, planning for our BIG 21 (ie Yinghui and me), touring, blah blah blah....
2 papers on Monday... Urgh....Hope I survive this... I think I am feeling sick again.... something is wrong with me huh? Why do I always get sick during weekends? hahhaa...
Mr Geek sat beside me 2 days in a row and then we both shifted.. ahhaa... I was back at my private condo seat instead of the studio apartment seat...(seats were given special ratings..haha!) So anyway..Just want to remember some parts of my mugging days...
oh anyway, there was this girl who sat at the table in front of me today.. quite pretty with blue hair... which makes her really special...
Yep.. that's about it.. I am getting really sleepy... goodnight to all..
yea..Just a little note:
How can I ever forget how you've hurt me..
but time and again, I refused to let go...
My hands are bleeding
Can you tell me how to mend a shattered heart?

So it's another week....2 papers down... 3 more to go and they won't come until next week... URGH... so it's mugging everyday..
Well, spent some quality time at the science library again... Saw that weird guy at ngee Ann bus stop again.. and then he kind of sat beside me at the science library.. Think he reminds me of Alan... wahahahaha...
Anyway, today was OK spent.. I studied till I really couldn't do it anymore.. Had my dinner at the NUH Staff canteen..not a bad place, well, I am relly sick of Science canteen food anyway...
Today is a music-less day... didn't listen to anything while studying.. Wonder if it is better way of studying...Well, whatever....
Yup, I'm going to bed... Wil have to continue mugging tomorrow.. To think MOMO's exams end tomorrow and I am not even half way there yet....Well, at least I get more time to study I suppose...drag drag drag drag dread...
Just had popiah.. I just love Popiah and I really miss Adrian's Granny's popiah... delicious! But I gave up the chance.. hahaa...
just got my Pod bill, I am going to terminate my M1 line soon... it's costing too much, so one have to go I suppose...
Um, nothing much this week besides studying and all...
I wrote something in my organiser that day... it's my will...I mean if something happens to me, at least I left a message right... hahaha..
here's my daily serving of crap:
It all boils down to how much you loved me..
Yeah I'm sure you did,
But it's all over.. and we know it..
So please, just move on...
Nostalgia is a luxury we can no longer afford..
I loved you too, and always will..
But things ain't the way they were anymore....

OH God
Where are you now?
And what you gonna do
About the mess I've made
If there was ever a soul to save
It must be me It must be me

Dear God...
Oh how can I survive?
Will I make this drop and dive?
When it all comes to this
I'm looking down at the abyss
Where you don't exist
You don't exist

But if you hear me
If you can see me
I know I can't be that strong
'Cause everything I ever did went wrong
Everything I ever did went wrong

Oh God..
Now where do I come in?
Gone and broken everything
So I hope you'll understand
If someone needed a helping hand
It must be now
It must be now

----Annie Lennox, Oh God(Prayer)

Beautifully written, I would call it a classic...Perhaps it's due to the fact that I could relate to it pretty well...
Spent another day at the science library..was pretty nice.. considering the fact that i've done quite a bit of work... Special person to thank is Junling for coming to school to mug with me.. Prolly cos she needs to mug as well, but either way, I'm grateful for her company.. at least there's someone to lunch with....Think we are both addicted to the toufu from the Japanese stall.. but it's really good man....
Went to mug without my pencil case yesterday.. that was rather pathetic so I had to go to the co-op to get a pen a highlighter and blanko.. hahaha...
I am convinced that I am suffering from permanent sore throat despite the fact that I drank quite a bit of water and ate minimum heaty food...What is wrong man....
there's this pretty interesting guy who takes very long breaks in the library.. I don't exactly know where he always sit cos I always plant myself at the entrance and he's always way in.. anyway the first time I met him was at Ngee Ann bus stop and I was thinking "what a geek".. hahaha, so from then he left an impression..anyway nothing much about him just want to make sure that I can still vaguely remember someone I watched a few months down the road..just curious where he goes for his long breaks.. haaha...
Well... I think that's all for today... no crap lately....feel so drained.. haahha

In the midst of studying econs..which is kind of a scam.. hahhaa... went CD spree today again...Bought Sun Yanzi's the Moment with DVD~ and another album which I almost shot myself cos I could've gotten it online at a MUCH cheaper price considering that it's a old CD... URGH....
so anyway, today is kind of progress since I studied more than yesterday and of course spent more time studying than other things... in school.. I have to kick the habit of coming online one day.. one day...
So anyway, I'm now listening to the new CDs I bought.. i must get myself new speakers soon...It's damn irritating to be listening via headphones...Ok, now I am contemplating if I should go jogging to let off the 'heatiness' in my body lately.. hahaa...actually it makes no difference cos' either way I will have 'heaty' food again tomorrow..Like the chinese always like to say, you never shed your tear until you see the coffin.. haha!Yeah I was real sick.. and I don't want to be THAT sick again, but hey, it's food you are talking about mind you...
So far everything seems ok.. haven't seen who I am trying not to see.. haven't contacted people I should not contact.. been reading some blogs though...BITCH..
I am getting a little more disciplined yea? Yeah right....
I was wondering how Fad did for his 'A's... think we have drifted quite a bit...considering the fact that he is in police and I am busy with my 'odd-job labourer' stint... we hardly had time to meet up.. and I actually stood him up the last time we were suppose to hang out.. hahaa... but hey, I was tired and busy and all you know..
Well, there's a couple of good songs on radio today, the one that made my day was Paula Abdul's Rush Rush..Not that it's a damn fantastic song, just that it's the 1st song on my favourite list to be aired on the radio today, so I was kind of half-smiling when listening to it..and then there's I found heaven by TAKE THAT... kewl.. that really blew me off..hahaha...
The sun was pretty hot today.. I mean scorching hot to be more precise.. luckily I was in the air-con room most of the day...YAY~Had ban2 mian4 at science canteen today, it's pretty good...and yakitori as well, which is abit on the down side.. anyway, I had a good lunch..
So back to my CD spree thing.. I was trying to get some snacks for time like..now but I couldn't find anything interesting... Bukit Panjang is so BORING...so I decided to get myself some CDS...heheh....Can't wait till my exams over.. I am going to China..AGAIN~~Gee..
So how do I feel today? pretty good.. less depressed.. hahaha..I just enjoy thinking of morbid things and making myself damn unhappy..Am I sick or what.. so one morbid thought I always have is, what happens if I were to die today... yeah.. I LOVE, really, to think of different scenerios for such a case.. what would my parents do..how would my brother feel, what about my friends and those who hated me? hahaha...If I die today never having the chance to tell him how much he means to me, will I be watching over him 24/7 after I am dead sicne he is like me un-finished business?haha...of course, there are other scenerios whereby other people is dead and what happens to me.. I not cursing anyone here!! Anyway, I like to imagine my case best.. I am NOT suicical.. I just like to imagine and think about morbid stuffs.. haha!
Anyway, on the bus today I thought about the mysteries in our lives.. Have you ever wondered what happens to your PSLE/OLevels/ALevels/whatever exam papers that you've never seen again after submitting them? Yeah, I would really like to know how they look like after being sent to UK to be marked by some lonely old man.. haha...How will they mark our papers? Like how our teachers mark them? Scribble everywhere? or because they have too many papers, they simply couldn't be bothered to read, your papers are marked according to your handwriting..hahah!I wonder...ok.. I must be stressed out..
Examination period is the time I always consider clearing the mess in my room.. Junling and I concluded that it's one of the useless time-wasters that you do and feel less guilty about as it seems kind of more constructive than watching TV or 'friendstering'.. hahaa!yep, so with a pile of notes, CDs, wireds, sweets, stationaries, digital cameras, used and unused batteries and many other things hidden under the pile..ON my table...and your bags/books/shoeboxes/new clothes/new bags/new shoes/worn and unworn clothes/past year's christmas cards/pillows/comforter/and many small lil' things all scattered around the room..It's not wonder you think there's an urgent need to clear the blardy mess YEAH?OK I am hopeless..I think if anyone sees the condition of my room, they will freak out.. but I think I am better now.. there was once I had to sleep in other room or the living room as my bed was so filled with Notes/Books/junk that I couldn't sleep in my bed at all.. THat was the time when my bedroom was more like a store room or something.. hahaha!Well, think I will do something about it after exams.. now I shall just whince bout the mess I face everyday..
anyway, I think I shall stop here and go to SLEEP... What a lazy person I am.. hahaha.. well, I shall end off with the song of the day and of course my daily serving of crap, yeah?Song of the day: Let's Groove (nice catchy tune and I heard it TWICE on radio today...)
So what should I have for my daily servings.. here it goes:
I always thought you were so meant for me..like we fill up the spaces between our fingers..
And one day, I realised that anyone's hand can fill up the spaces in my fingers,
so I decided to clench my fist real tight..
So that when you decided to fill the gaps between my fingers, they are always there for you..
Someday, I might be tired of clenching my fist and let someone else fill in the gap..
And when that day comes, I hope you know how hard I've tried...=)
I'm inspired to write more.. so today let's have double serving of crap?
HOw many junctions must we cross to meet each other again?
Sometimes, we meet the wrong people at the wrong junctions...
Sometimes, we manage to stay on the same journey for a while..
Sometimes, we are walking toward the same direction on the same road but seperated by a divider..
Sometimes I like to walk the opposite direction to catch a glimpse of you..
Sometimes I like to walk alone..
Sometimes I wish you were walking with me..
Sometimes, I am lost and I just want to go where you go...
THink I like the second one more... reminds me of an assignment I've done on junctions.. haha...Yep.. THa's a long blog and long crap.. hahaa... Have a good day tomorrow...
I need to sleep..=)

Well, today was not well spent but oh well... it's almost over... anyway, I shall hope for a better day tomorrow then... Just got my CA marks for 3210.. about 60, which is normally a B but considering the fact that others did rather well, I think C should be a better gauge of where I stand...o..k.... so that means I need to do a much much much better job for my paper...STRESS....
Went to study with feng and CuiYin, we bitched a little bout Kaili... How can I ever forget about her...Someone I was so close to for like 2 years..But I guess she's long gone...So whenever anyone asks about her, I would reply, we lost contact..Yeah...Lost contact..
well, I guss that's about it today... I shall continie to stone and think about what I want to do with my remaining time later...All the best to me? hahaha...

Haven't slept for so long since....
Was sick the whole day, which means a day wasted cos' I did not have time to mug.. I think I must have slept like 18/24 hours which is like 3/4 of a day... kewl...
So anyway, today ia another brand new day, totally recharged and ready for more work I suppose.. Will be dropping by the post office to collect my THUMB DRVIE~ and then going to central library to borrow that stupid RBR.. and finally to science library to meet Feng to MUG...
Hope I don't see someone

Well...project's finally over... one more dumb Java lab assignment and I am done for the week... YUCK...Anyway, this week was quite a crazy one... had 2 presentations and a project due.... this is the last week of school so what can you expect right... so I am taking 2 weeks break from SOS.. YAY~~
Went for JI's closing ceremony yesterday..Met up with Theresa and the rest... was pretty fun but I guess one regret was not going up to 99F to 'visit'...Met Fad too.. We went home together..guess despite all the ups and downs, we are still very good friends.. and he got me some pictures when I was in Chingay thing.. hahaha...
Didn't get my new phone because it is virtually non-existant.. that stupid safra magazine..
Saw a nice coat at Dorothy Perkins.. Thought of buying it for my China trip.. heh heh....
Exams coming.. I am so going to D..I..E......

hmm... after about 1 week of torment, my cough is finally better, thanks to the medicine from NUS healthcare thing...Well, my period is finally here as well.. yes the usual cramps.. popped at least 12 pills in a day, including my daily dosage of medicine lah... The doc gave me some anti-biotics and blah blah blah.. the cough mixture and flu pills are really effective, I felt damn drowsy within like 10 mins... and I couldn't do my work properly.. so anyway, we're done with the SCC project.. Mo is burning it into the CD and submitting it tomorrow...It's not as attractive as I pictured it to be, but well, I am really lazy already... didn't take my medicine today, so I guess I will do that tomorrow. it's All Souls' day, um, yesterday? Went to the cemetary to 'visit' my grandpa and great grandma..yep.. my China trip is confirmed. i will be spending my christmas there. Well, anyway, my crush at werk is back..after a long break.. he had a bike accident..*ouch!*
Bought quite alot these days... currently I have a pair of new shoes and four new bags and 3 new shorts and 2 new T shirts...plus many unworn clothes I bought like more than 1 year ago.. I must be going MAD...
JI is having a closing down ceremony on the 8th November..oh my..yeah I am going, afterall that's where I met Isk and many others... How could I miss it?
well, next week is going to be a better week since it's clearing assignments/projects week.. yep I have 2 projects and 1 presentation due...and I will be kind of free to study for exams...YUcK...
Mum was home today, so she cooked loads to eat...YAY~ and we bought durian puffs from Goodwood park hotel, haven't eaten it yet...but it's really huge...Been having durian cravings lately... I would want to eat everything durian... hahaha...another symtom of madness..something is rather wrong with MO's connection, he keeps going on and offline..which leaves me wondering if I should leave him in a lurch to clean up the mess of the project or What...I chose 'what', that is not to leave him in a lurch.. but then again, there is nothing much I can do unless he sends the whole blardy file to be again and I werk on it again, which will prolly KILL me.. hahaha
haven't been blogging for a long time..partly because I know my friends read my blogs which is ok but when they start to ask if I am OK, it's kind of weird.. yeah I am fine..blogging is fun and you can say whatever you want, whether they are real or just fictionous.. hahaha....and reading my blogs is ok too but hey, unless I talk to you about it, I don't think I want to be talking about it in real life.. so anyway my point about blogging is to whine and moan about anything and everything under the sun and sometimes I can exaggerate u know... and even if I don't I just don't see the point of whining to people in real life because it's not going to improve my situation anyway,right? so yeah... thanks for your concern, sincerely. But please do not get a shock from reading my blogs.. I guess I've just grown up and is just maturing in a way you never thought I would.. hahaha...and hey, don't feel embarrassed about it..or even offended bout this whole paragraph, just want to assure u peeps that I am fine..You know who you are~
So anyway I will still resume my daily servin of crap.. which my friends think is rather lyrical.. hahahah!
I thought about us again today...
Just like any other day..
The thoughts were as usual,
they were mostly gray..
I guess I need band-aids for my heart again..
Hmmm... this doesn't sound all so hurting I guess cos' I'm not havin PMS~~!!~~ hahha