A life TOO ordinary..

weird... my posting page seems weird.. different is the werd...
Oh well...
had an ok day.. can't call it good since the Cors thing is driving me nuts..those NUS NUTS are really NUTS... can't believe it..
oh well..
Hurt myself a little again..but I guess it's healing..
um.. That's about it for tonight.. going to sleep and werk tomorrow..
Sometimes I wondered how it would be
If nothing happened between us..
Would we be still the way we are?
Or could we have gone our seperate ways?

got home from chalet.. Didn't sleep for the whole night..and didn't get till sleep till like 3.30pm? hahah... I am super woman... Had diarrhea..still having rather.. must be the 1/2 cooked garlic prawns and all the other junks I've shoved down my throatd..EVeryone's pretty much the same except for one or two.. Time flies.. it's been 5 years already..And i've been stupidly in love with someone for 6 years already... GAWD...
Just heard a bad news from Colin regarding an ex-schoolmate's dad..Felt sorry but there's nothing I much I can do but to pass the message around and hope it reaches someone of the suitable blood type.. Even if I have the required blood, I can't donate anyway.. My blood is 'contaminated'..
Spent quite a bit at Mambo sale.. Haven't been feeling 'remorseful' yet.. Yet is the word.. hahah...Cors will be starting tomorrow.. once again I'll be stucking at that website pulling my hair.. haha... Going to get my Annie Lennox's CD.. as well as Shino's compilation..Maybe on Tuesday or something... yah...
Still feeling itchy all over after the pool dip.. hm... Yesterday's chalet was somehow lucky in an unlucky way.. Thanks to the gurls who came to my rescue..Had a talk with Biling but not what I wanted to talk to her about..Guess I can never go to that..at least not in the near future...
On my way to work on Friday I cried again..Guess it really hurts..It still does.. and I think it always will hurt for as along as I live?Some days I hate bus journeys to orchard..cos when there's nothing to do, my brain tends to recall things I don't it to.. Everything was running so vividly in my head.."all the things you said,all the things you said, running through my head, running through my head,all the things you said.."yeah, everything he said was running through my head..I need to put a stop to this..Somebody help me!!
After yesterday's break, I'm really tempted to quit MW2..I think I will.. but THINK is the word.. think..
well, here's my servin a crap for today:
With all my strength, I reached out for you
Hoping to touch a little corner of you heart
I wanted you to know how I felt
About life about love about you..
But your doors are closed
To me..
And the walls are unbreakable..
I'm all sore and bruised
And the wounds refuse to heal
I dragged myself to face the battle against you
once again...

Got sun burned from hanging out at the pool.. urrgh... got nagged at.. hahaha..
oh well, nothing much happened lately besides werking and yah.. that's bout it... nothing much happened actually...
haven't gone jogging.. been procrastinating.. so typical.. haha..
well, haven't gotten my Annie Lennox's CD as well.. that's cos' I'm having a really bad cashflow problem.. hahaa..
oh well, that's bout it...hope my online diary website is still on.. how can they shut down without telling me?? urgh...My precious thoughts...

It's a long but pretty nice day... Went to Bukit Timah Hill in the morning.. was late.. Momo decided to join us since he didn't have anything to do.. We had lunch at Bukit Timah Food Centre and then headed home.. Bathed and then to Karaoke at Cuppage.. then Pasir Panjang for my favourite Banana and Cheese prata..Loong looong day.. tiring.. thought I missed the last LRT but realised I didn't when I was walking towerds home..urrgh....
Nice to be hanging out with the folks again.. the jokes are basically still on the same people but I guess we've somehow matured a little..a little..It's really nice feeling.. and I enjoyed every moment of it..Wonder if it's going to be the same 10 years down the road..
have to werk at 4 tomorrow.. urrgh urgh.. hahah.. going to bed soon.. here's another serving of my daily crap:
I need to leave, to leave u alone
Maybe you'll never notice..oh well..
Velvet sky
Gloomy night
Fine time for me to go..
yep.. that's all folks.. Got to get out of here!!!!

Busy yet rather unconstructive day... basically did nothing for myself..
going to sleep soon...going to conquer Bukit Timah Hill tomorrow.. haha!
many songs came to my head today..guess it's one of those singing days.. haha... goodnight everybody..

well, watched Charlie's Angels..which is a pretty dumb movie.. oh well...Having a pretty contradicting feeling.. can't explain it.. oh well...
Just saw Annie Lennox's CD $2 cheaper.. haha!
Just got the CD for the PB trip from JL.. haha.. pretty funni sometimes.. haha..
Might be going jogging later.. MIGHT is the werd.. if I don't get too lazy... it's 11pm now.. Maybe I should...yeah.. Since I've got nothing better to do anyway.. hahaha...
yup.. I'm off here..=)
Somedays when I wake up, the sun refuses to shine,
I cried
Somedays I just ignored and minded my own business..
Somedays I just missed you with or without the sunshine..

well, I told WWS that I'll be going to Bukit Timah hill afterall.. GAWD... anyway a piece of good news, the ear stud stuck in my ear is finally out.. after like a year? hahah... maybe it's sick in there so it decided to come out for some fresh air or something.. hahaa...
ok getting out of here.. haven't gotten my Annie Lennox CD.. ARGH!!!!!

Werk was O..K... had fun with the bouncers on Friday at the door and many of my regular customers asked why I wasn't in the bar.. That was rather satisfying..Saturday was ok.. but spent too much on cab and food.. haha!Wonder when will I get my money back..Missed Gwyn, forgot to send a message before she left...urrgh..Eddy and Linying left for Genting this morning.. hope they have a good trip..They should be having fun now?
There was this deep sense of melancholy whenever dad sends me to piano lessons.. haha.. I wonder why.. Maybe I dread the destination.. hahaha!Well, I came up with this little poetry on my way there..here it goes:
I've stopped crying
Stopped trying to tear myself apart
That doesn't mean
I've stopped caring for you
I've Just
Buried my love
For you
Deep in my heart
So that it will continue to grow and bloom forever..
OK, the last part sounds like Edelweiss.. haha.. now, I've convinced everyone that I'm stupidly corny...urrgh...
Desmond and Angelene broke up.He left her for Sandy which everyone thought it's a good decision.Guess this is prolly a bad season for Desmond and Angelene. First was Angelene, now Desmond's turn..I wished I didn't know, it's their affairs , not mind.. I have stuffs to worry about too you know..Well, Angelene messaged me to tell em about it..As a friend, she is not bad, but I guess she ain't the best girlfriend in the world. I'm trying to stay neutral cos' Sandy has been a nice person too...Maybe in terms of mentality, she and Desmond are more compatible, just my personal opinion..
Well, going to watch Charlie's Angels with JL on Tuesday..Need to get "Wedding Banquet" the musical,'s tix too...They tickets are selling pretty well..Not much seats left..Will be meeting the E5 people on Thusday night I think... going to spend quite a bit... arggh!!
WWS asked if I want to go Bukit Timah hill, after PB, I am seriously thinking.. hahah..Might be meeting the guys from 99F on Saturday.. If I don't have to work...
Life's ok..received a nice little note from Feng..=) That was sweeet.. Thanks!

well, it's a fruitless day.. stayed at home the whole time.. haha! lazy lazy... wanted to go watch Finding Nemo, but was too lazy to leave home..Gawd... Going to sleep soon.. have to werk tomorrow night...well well.. till then!

BAr or no Bar?
Just got home from werk..Can't sleep yet cos' I promised Eddy to wake him up as he's still at his werkplace and is s'pose to wake up before 6?Oh well..Today LY left werk halfway..She was furious..Bar or no bar is the reason..They put Andrew in the bar instead of her..she thinks that given her experience, she should be the one in the bar.. oh well..I guess I went through that before but I managed to figure out a rationale behind the whole bar business.. I think everyone wants to werk in the bar, I am plain lucky cos' I am a cashier so I get to be in the bar a lot of times unless I am collecting cover charge which can be really boring and unsatisfying..Well..but at least I get to talk to friends like Damien Eddy and Alsen when I am the 'cover-gurl.. hahah!oh well, the thing is LY just don't seem to understand that being a gurl and a part-timer as well as a server..the chances of her being 'promoted'(that's what she sees it as) to a barmaid is virtually impossible.. oh well.. trying to explain it to her many times.. gosh.. young gurl...she's thinking of quitting..I had that in mind too..maybe we might leave together.. but I guess for different reasons..I wanted to talk to KC, but I think that will create more fuss so I guess I will leave the matter for a moment..Maybe when she cools down, she will figure out and get over it..
well, nothing much I guess.. my moodswings are getting better though I'm still not very happy most of the times but hey, life goes on right..
Going to sleep soon.. when I wake up I will go to the bank..maybe I might jog to the bank..MAYBE... hahaha.. my legs are itching like crazy..ARGH!!maybe clean my room a little..practise on the piano..I don't know, there seems so many things to do.. I HATE IT!!
urrgh..
Haven't gotten my Annie Lennox's CD...Haven't really got that spare cash... Haven't met Gary..Better meet him soon and get things settled...before school reopens...I WANT ANNIE LENNOX's CD!!!!!
well, time to give Eddy dahlink a call before he gets fired and I have to support him.. yah right... feed him with grass... hahahah!

was at the hospital.My condition is under control but I might have diabetes.. haha! spent quite a bit on my bills and all..Going to werk soon.. arrghh...
I really want Annie Lennos's CD!!!!

Went to werk today and then went to meet Gwyn aNd Feng.. Gwyn is leaving this Saturday.. I'll miss her..
Work was O..K... but business was realyl bad..I wonder if it's me.. haha!
Got my pay today...10 hours short.. Arrgh!
Tomorrow is going to be a long day..Going to TTSH for my doctor's appointment..Think the doctor is going to be so disappointed cos my condition seem to wersen after my PB trip.. oops!Having tuitions after that and then werk at MW2 later in the night..What am I doing to myself? hahah..
Lately I've been thinking of reasons why I am werking and I came up with a few:
1. I need the money (not really but werking at MW2 gives me extra revenue)
2. I enjoy myself (not really again, sometimes I get very frustrated)
3. I like my job (yeah sometimes..sometimes..)
4. I like my colleagues (some like LY and Eddy and Damien and Alsen, some..)
5. They needed me (uh..Partly true, not that I am indisposable tho')
6. At least I have something to do than think of nonsense. (Correct!)
7. It's a glamourous job (haha..very funny)
8. I'm stupid and I like to make my life miserable (Bingo!)
9. I don't know how to quit and can't bear to (how dumb)
oh well, that's about what I can think of... will update the list as I think of more reasons why I am still werking despite the fact that it is bad for my health and I do feel miserable at werk sometimes..
There's so many things I want to do and to study hard is one fo them.. haha.. hope I can do it.. Life is beautiful when you want it to be..
~'Till love comes again, I'll be ok..
*today's want: Annie Lennox's new CD!!! I really reallly want it!!!!!

Have you been in love with some one so long that you have forgotten how you fell for him in the first place and what is it that makes you hold on for so long? Yeah.. that's how dumb things are for me.. oh well, just the thought for today.. Got to work tomorrow, meeting Gwyn and Feng after that.. Gwyn's leaving.. will sure miss her loads.. Wel, hope everything will be fine soon..Hope that the 2 Iranian gurls be fine too..God Bless..=)

Just got back from Pulau Besar.. My limbs scratched,bitten,scorched.. haha..barely recognised them..Mum was horrified but I didn't have the chance to tell her what happened..There's alot of things we never have the chance to say..They might not want to hear them anyway..
The trip was never a smooth one from the beginning..The buses were late, refused to stop,low exchange rate,wrong boat to the island and then the final set back, being lost on the island.Climbing the rocks, that's the first time and prolly the last..I guess I will never have the guts to do it again..What gave methe courage? i guess I'll never know..
There's many people I have to thank..especially my four fabulous travel companions..It was a wonderful trip and that because you made it happen..10 year down the road, I guess this will still be a trip that we can be proud of..And all the people at Pulau Besar, Thank you..we're prolly just 5 goondoos to you, but really thank you..Last but not least, thank God for watching us..keeping us safe and hopeful..
Wait for my return Pulau Besar.. One day..just wait for me...=)